been hopping around in friend's blogs today..
i found back some old frens. catching up on what they're doin.
and i found out bout sumthin..sumthin really special.
reaading their blogs is like a one way communication, sumtimes they dont even know that we're reading theirs..and how they felt. its comforting that sum dun even know that im reading it.
lookin back was like.. 'wow, this gurl..we've fought before during primary skool, but how is she doin now in her life?'
but the old devil is back..its a long story.
she the gurl that came to our skool when we're in strd5 i guess. she came into our skool from a private skool to a public skool. students usually label her as a stcuk up gurl just because she's from a private skool. but now i think back..we're kinda silly..coz indeed private n public skool, students just behave differently..and last time, when she tried to fit in..i think everyone gave her a hard time, esp me.
i regretted the things that i've done, last time when i was small..i used to be one of the bright students that excelled in art and english..so as a lil gurl..i was secretly proud of that,,until she came. lol..for the past years since strd 1, when it comes to art classes, ppl would want me to help draw, paint or sculp for them. but after she came, she got all the attention i had once had from my peers. i was not happy. she was acting stuck up and alot of frens followed her. lol..lookin back..it was just plain silly that i was hurt by her. after everything..we had fights and all.
now she just completed her A-lvls and moving on next on her journey called life. she's still talented in ART...and now PHOTOGraphy..everyone's into PHOTOGRAPY now..sigh.
thinkin bout it.. i felt useless.lol..every pics that my frens took as an art give me a stab on the chest..lol *stab stab stab.
*stab= see? ask u too practice more on your skills in photog. useless.
*stab= ppl use D50 aso so damn nice dy the pic, u just waste ur money by buying stupid expensive cameras, for what? for show ar?
*stab= you HAVE no TALENT in photography. ur just as gd as a WIMPY photographer.
uhhh...bleeding...bleeding...
and the truth is people..frens..when ppl knew that i work freelance as a photog. they always wanna see my pics. curious..but the thing is...i am scared to show..but im goin to do sumthin bout it...im goin to challenge myslf to open a pic webbie soon.
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
wow. my birthday..lol
this was taken in this webbie: http://www.paulsadowski.com/birthday.asp
4 January 1989
Your date of conception was on or about 13 April 1988 which was a Wednesday.
You were born on a Wednesday
under the astrological sign Capricorn.
Your Life path number is 5.
Your fortune cookie reads:
Your happiness is intertwined with your outlook on life.
Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 3 & 9.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 8.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 6, 11 & 22.
The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2447530.5.
The golden number for 1989 is 14.
The epact number for 1989 is 22.
The year 1989 was not a leap year.
Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/17/1988 and ending 2/5/1989.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Dragon.
Your Native American Zodiac sign is Goose; your plant is Bramble.
You were born in the Egyptian month of Famenoth, the third month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).
Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 27 Tevet 5749.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 28 Tevet 5749.
The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.15.12.6 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 15 tun 12 uinal 6 kin
The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Wednsday, 26 Jumadiyu'l-Avval 1409 (1409-5-26).
The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 26 March 1989.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 30 April 1989.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 8 February 1989.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 14 May 1989.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 21 May 1989.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 30 September 1989.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 20 April 1989.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 7 February 1989.
As of 7/10/2008 1:26:55 AM EDT
You are 19 years old.
You are 234 months old.
You are 1,018 weeks old.
You are 7,127 days old.
You are 171,049 hours old.
You are 10,262,966 minutes old.
You are 615,778,015 seconds old. (and COUNTING...LOL)
Celebrities who share your birthday:
Michael Stipe (1960) Matt Frewer (1958) Dyan Cannon (1937)
Floyd Patterson (1935) Jesse White (1917) Jane Wyman (1914)
Sterling Holloway (1905) Charles 'Tom Thumb' Stratton (1838) Louis Braille (1809)
Top songs of 1989
Another Day In Paradise by Phil Collins Miss You Much by Janet Jackson
Straight Up by Paula Abdul Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx
Lost In Your Eyes by Debbie Gibson Like a Prayer by Madonna
We Didn't Start the Fire by Billy Joel Two Hearts by Phil Collins
When I See You Smile by Bad English Blame It On the Rain by Milli Vanilli
Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.7894324853229 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)
Your lucky day is Saturday.
Your lucky number is 8.
Your ruling planet(s) is Saturn & Uranus.
Your lucky dates are 8th, 17th, 26th.
Your opposition sign is Cancer.
Your opposition number(s) is 2 & 7.
Today is not one of your lucky days!
There are 178 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 20 candles.
Those 20 candles produce 20 BTUs,
or 5,040 calories of heat (that's only 5.0400 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.29 US ounces of water with that many candles.
Your birthstone is Garnet
The Mystical properties of Garnet
Garnet is used as a power stone
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Emerald, Rose Quartz
Your birth tree is
Fir Tree, the Mysterious
Extraordinary taste, dignity, cultivated airs, loves anything beautiful, moody, stubborn, tends to egoism but cares for those close to it,rather modest, very ambitious, talented, industrious uncontent lover, many friends, many foes, very reliable.
The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waning crescent.
4 January 1989
Your date of conception was on or about 13 April 1988 which was a Wednesday.
You were born on a Wednesday
under the astrological sign Capricorn.
Your Life path number is 5.
Your fortune cookie reads:
Your happiness is intertwined with your outlook on life.
Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 3 & 9.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 8.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 6, 11 & 22.
The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2447530.5.
The golden number for 1989 is 14.
The epact number for 1989 is 22.
The year 1989 was not a leap year.
Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/17/1988 and ending 2/5/1989.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Dragon.
Your Native American Zodiac sign is Goose; your plant is Bramble.
You were born in the Egyptian month of Famenoth, the third month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).
Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 27 Tevet 5749.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 28 Tevet 5749.
The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.15.12.6 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 15 tun 12 uinal 6 kin
The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Wednsday, 26 Jumadiyu'l-Avval 1409 (1409-5-26).
The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 26 March 1989.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 30 April 1989.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 8 February 1989.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 14 May 1989.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 21 May 1989.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 30 September 1989.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 20 April 1989.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 7 February 1989.
As of 7/10/2008 1:26:55 AM EDT
You are 19 years old.
You are 234 months old.
You are 1,018 weeks old.
You are 7,127 days old.
You are 171,049 hours old.
You are 10,262,966 minutes old.
You are 615,778,015 seconds old. (and COUNTING...LOL)
Celebrities who share your birthday:
Michael Stipe (1960) Matt Frewer (1958) Dyan Cannon (1937)
Floyd Patterson (1935) Jesse White (1917) Jane Wyman (1914)
Sterling Holloway (1905) Charles 'Tom Thumb' Stratton (1838) Louis Braille (1809)
Top songs of 1989
Another Day In Paradise by Phil Collins Miss You Much by Janet Jackson
Straight Up by Paula Abdul Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx
Lost In Your Eyes by Debbie Gibson Like a Prayer by Madonna
We Didn't Start the Fire by Billy Joel Two Hearts by Phil Collins
When I See You Smile by Bad English Blame It On the Rain by Milli Vanilli
Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.7894324853229 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)
Your lucky day is Saturday.
Your lucky number is 8.
Your ruling planet(s) is Saturn & Uranus.
Your lucky dates are 8th, 17th, 26th.
Your opposition sign is Cancer.
Your opposition number(s) is 2 & 7.
Today is not one of your lucky days!
There are 178 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 20 candles.
Those 20 candles produce 20 BTUs,
or 5,040 calories of heat (that's only 5.0400 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.29 US ounces of water with that many candles.
Your birthstone is Garnet
The Mystical properties of Garnet
Garnet is used as a power stone
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Emerald, Rose Quartz
Your birth tree is
Fir Tree, the Mysterious
Extraordinary taste, dignity, cultivated airs, loves anything beautiful, moody, stubborn, tends to egoism but cares for those close to it,rather modest, very ambitious, talented, industrious uncontent lover, many friends, many foes, very reliable.
The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waning crescent.
hmm..sumthin to think about.
i'm staring that the blank computer screen, thinking of what to write for my next blog..
i'm still in aust, still in the same house. in the same study room..staring..until i saw a book that caught my eye. It's purple in colour (sweat, coincidently la..lol) and the title was the one that caught my eye. it wrote..
"The FIve Love Languages by Gary Chapman."
few years ago, i've attended this conference for young ppl in kl. and yea, they did mention this but i kinda forgotten the contents and what five love languages it is. nop..its not languages like bahasa malaysia or chinese...laaa...but its more to..
1.words of affirmation
2.quality time
3.receiving gifts
4.acts of service
5.physical touch
hm..words of affirmation.
its true..giving honest compliments to your partners work really well...guys gurls...not always 'i love you''s the only word for u couples to use u know. appreciate your partners with good compliments. ok..i am a gifted procrastinator..lol. while reading a few pages, i've been 'ouch' here and there coz i've read bits bout things that i should have done and not done. its interesting to know about all this..but what im worried about, what about the other person in your life? does he know? i just duno how to share it. frens i could and i would but,for that special person, i just duno how to start.
sumtimes i'm so afraid of falling in love? coz being 'in love' is like sitting on CLOUD 9 then after a few months or years, you will find out that in reality, ur at the (sumtimes) in the bottomless pit? i.e Hell? lol..hope that it wont happened to anybody. so i tend to prepare for the worst. getting into fights earlier, testing waters, i.e testing the limit..but it was faulty. know why? coz the other person might be 'in love' too.so the limit that he gave is not real. i.e everything goes as long as u love me ( im not dissing anyone esp BAck street boys ya) =P but yea..that song kinda reminds me that love just been too sugary coated all this while.
im afraid that i cant cope with the post 'in love' thing u know? i hope ppl would understand me bout this confusing rattling about love. if not it'll be senseless rumblings and mumblings. i havent read the few more chapters.. so the others i cant really tell you much, but i think this book would really help couples to cope but the most important thing is.. both would get a good understanding of the book. then we'll be talking bout the same language, or frequency in that manner.
i've talked bout this with a fren, and she said that its good to understand all the five languages of love but u have to remember that not all are speaking the same ammount of those five. for example, Lily needs more on acts of service compared to her boyfren, Fred who needs more of the words of affirmation. everybody have different wants and needs..so its all back to give and take. hmm..sounds complicatingly simple, isn't it?
i'm still in aust, still in the same house. in the same study room..staring..until i saw a book that caught my eye. It's purple in colour (sweat, coincidently la..lol) and the title was the one that caught my eye. it wrote..
"The FIve Love Languages by Gary Chapman."
few years ago, i've attended this conference for young ppl in kl. and yea, they did mention this but i kinda forgotten the contents and what five love languages it is. nop..its not languages like bahasa malaysia or chinese...laaa...but its more to..
1.words of affirmation
2.quality time
3.receiving gifts
4.acts of service
5.physical touch
hm..words of affirmation.
its true..giving honest compliments to your partners work really well...guys gurls...not always 'i love you''s the only word for u couples to use u know. appreciate your partners with good compliments. ok..i am a gifted procrastinator..lol. while reading a few pages, i've been 'ouch' here and there coz i've read bits bout things that i should have done and not done. its interesting to know about all this..but what im worried about, what about the other person in your life? does he know? i just duno how to share it. frens i could and i would but,for that special person, i just duno how to start.
sumtimes i'm so afraid of falling in love? coz being 'in love' is like sitting on CLOUD 9 then after a few months or years, you will find out that in reality, ur at the (sumtimes) in the bottomless pit? i.e Hell? lol..hope that it wont happened to anybody. so i tend to prepare for the worst. getting into fights earlier, testing waters, i.e testing the limit..but it was faulty. know why? coz the other person might be 'in love' too.so the limit that he gave is not real. i.e everything goes as long as u love me ( im not dissing anyone esp BAck street boys ya) =P but yea..that song kinda reminds me that love just been too sugary coated all this while.
im afraid that i cant cope with the post 'in love' thing u know? i hope ppl would understand me bout this confusing rattling about love. if not it'll be senseless rumblings and mumblings. i havent read the few more chapters.. so the others i cant really tell you much, but i think this book would really help couples to cope but the most important thing is.. both would get a good understanding of the book. then we'll be talking bout the same language, or frequency in that manner.
i've talked bout this with a fren, and she said that its good to understand all the five languages of love but u have to remember that not all are speaking the same ammount of those five. for example, Lily needs more on acts of service compared to her boyfren, Fred who needs more of the words of affirmation. everybody have different wants and needs..so its all back to give and take. hmm..sounds complicatingly simple, isn't it?
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
shucks. depress laaaa....
shit la..after reading so many of people's blog..i've found out that im such a LOSER weh..lol
my blog skin cacat
my contents fai wan
im jobless..LOL in the meantime la..
aaaa....i think im goin craaazzzyy...
i nvr worked in the field that im studying la...how how? no experience...lol..lame lame * knocks head on the wall.
and results..dont ask me. it sucks so much.arghhhhh...KUSOOOOOOO~
resolutions:
1. no being lazy.
2. study at least 2 hrs a day. 5 times a week.
3. do maths! practise acc! >_<
4. practice my drums and guitar. yesh..mun yee's killin me.
5. exerciseeeeeeeeee....YOU FAT PIG!
yea...procrastinating.
*huhuhu ... T_T (huddle in the corner)
my blog skin cacat
my contents fai wan
im jobless..LOL in the meantime la..
aaaa....i think im goin craaazzzyy...
i nvr worked in the field that im studying la...how how? no experience...lol..lame lame * knocks head on the wall.
and results..dont ask me. it sucks so much.arghhhhh...KUSOOOOOOO~
resolutions:
1. no being lazy.
2. study at least 2 hrs a day. 5 times a week.
3. do maths! practise acc! >_<
4. practice my drums and guitar. yesh..mun yee's killin me.
5. exerciseeeeeeeeee....YOU FAT PIG!
yea...procrastinating.
*huhuhu ... T_T (huddle in the corner)
hmm..old bimbo?lol
heyheyhey..
just realize..after re-reading my blog..i felt. if ppl dont know me..they'll think of me as a bimbo..! lol
note: for those dont know what's a bimbo..i'll search for you..lol read more below the definition of a bimbo. =)
"Bimbo is a term that emerged in popular English language usage in the early 20th Century to describe an often attractive, yet unintelligent woman. The usage of this term began in the United States as early as 1919" (wikipedia, 2008)
well..the attractiveness din count la i guess.lol///
anyway..the reason that i type this was.. because my blog is pink..(*hinting ppl hhhu are extremely free, help me changeeeee...??? )lol
and my posts..mostly are tags and all..no real substance..lol
true..i love collecting bimbo stuffs now..lol// bikinis and all..lol
just figured out that i only can wear until the age of 25 i guess...so better wear it now..lol..
sigh..still in melbourne now..i'll be coming back on the 12th july, afternoon flight..so reach back kl around nite time. i think i've just bought the whole candy shop..! hahaha..so many things to do when i come back..so many ppl i nid to meet up..waaaa...so exciting and tiring just thinking about it.. =) cu all soon!
just realize..after re-reading my blog..i felt. if ppl dont know me..they'll think of me as a bimbo..! lol
note: for those dont know what's a bimbo..i'll search for you..lol read more below the definition of a bimbo. =)
"Bimbo is a term that emerged in popular English language usage in the early 20th Century to describe an often attractive, yet unintelligent woman. The usage of this term began in the United States as early as 1919" (wikipedia, 2008)
well..the attractiveness din count la i guess.lol///
anyway..the reason that i type this was.. because my blog is pink..(*hinting ppl hhhu are extremely free, help me changeeeee...??? )lol
and my posts..mostly are tags and all..no real substance..lol
true..i love collecting bimbo stuffs now..lol// bikinis and all..lol
just figured out that i only can wear until the age of 25 i guess...so better wear it now..lol..
sigh..still in melbourne now..i'll be coming back on the 12th july, afternoon flight..so reach back kl around nite time. i think i've just bought the whole candy shop..! hahaha..so many things to do when i come back..so many ppl i nid to meet up..waaaa...so exciting and tiring just thinking about it.. =) cu all soon!
tagss.
TAG No. 1
List eight (8) random facts about yourself. Tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names. Let them know they have been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.
1. i love to take pics but i hate to dwnload n upload them..lol
2. i have a thing for candies..and love candy shopping!
3. i play the piano, guitar and suck in drums.
4. i love choco chip cookies! famous amos...soft cookies! =)
5. i love to drive aimlessly.
6. i have a thing for bikinis..i collect them..just bought one today...so happy! X)
7. i have no patience for ppl hu think they can do everything.( when the fact is they dont)
8. i love to eat..=)
TAG No. 2
8 things I am passionate about:
1. God..not trying to be holy, coz i cant. but im still working to be gd.
2. ART! artworks of ppl..artists!
3. Children..they're our future. =)
4. frens.
5. fashion?
6. food!
7. books..
8 things I say too often:
1. whatever-laa..
2. kuso..! dont ask me the meaing..lol/ wont tell.
3. so cold..( in aust oni la..during winter..LOL)
4. pretty! ( if i saw sumthin i like!)
5. buy-la! ( went i go shopping and i saw sumthin i like =P)
6. shucks.. (sumthin unpredictable happened)
7. bugger..
8. hai ya..*sighing ( typical msian ya? lol)
8 books I’ve read recently:
1. the bonesetter daugther by amy tan
2. the other boleyn girl by phillpia gregory..nice!
3. the constant princess by phillipia gregory..super nice..lol
8 songs I could listen to over and over again FOR THE MOMENT
1. all the worship songs by hillsong =)
2. No Air - Chris Brown and Jordin Sparks
3. With You - Chris Brown
4. Take a Bow - Rihanna
5. Dont speak- NO doubt (haha..damn long dy this song..but its my fave =))
6. Jay chou's first album..all the songs..!lool
7. American Boy - Estelle feat. Kanye West
8. Angel- sarah mc-sumthin..lol..its super nice.
hm..very random ya?
TAG No.3
Would you go out with you? State the reasons why you would, and why you wouldn't, and then come to a conclusion at the end.
i would go out with myslf went im in the mood for shopping or book hunting or out to do sumthin crazy..lol..coz i noe i will enjoy..lol
I'm tagging:
jonan, edmund, jhen, alice, jezamine, aaron, swee loo, li ching!
List eight (8) random facts about yourself. Tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names. Let them know they have been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.
1. i love to take pics but i hate to dwnload n upload them..lol
2. i have a thing for candies..and love candy shopping!
3. i play the piano, guitar and suck in drums.
4. i love choco chip cookies! famous amos...soft cookies! =)
5. i love to drive aimlessly.
6. i have a thing for bikinis..i collect them..just bought one today...so happy! X)
7. i have no patience for ppl hu think they can do everything.( when the fact is they dont)
8. i love to eat..=)
TAG No. 2
8 things I am passionate about:
1. God..not trying to be holy, coz i cant. but im still working to be gd.
2. ART! artworks of ppl..artists!
3. Children..they're our future. =)
4. frens.
5. fashion?
6. food!
7. books..
8 things I say too often:
1. whatever-laa..
2. kuso..! dont ask me the meaing..lol/ wont tell.
3. so cold..( in aust oni la..during winter..LOL)
4. pretty! ( if i saw sumthin i like!)
5. buy-la! ( went i go shopping and i saw sumthin i like =P)
6. shucks.. (sumthin unpredictable happened)
7. bugger..
8. hai ya..*sighing ( typical msian ya? lol)
8 books I’ve read recently:
1. the bonesetter daugther by amy tan
2. the other boleyn girl by phillpia gregory..nice!
3. the constant princess by phillipia gregory..super nice..lol
8 songs I could listen to over and over again FOR THE MOMENT
1. all the worship songs by hillsong =)
2. No Air - Chris Brown and Jordin Sparks
3. With You - Chris Brown
4. Take a Bow - Rihanna
5. Dont speak- NO doubt (haha..damn long dy this song..but its my fave =))
6. Jay chou's first album..all the songs..!lool
7. American Boy - Estelle feat. Kanye West
8. Angel- sarah mc-sumthin..lol..its super nice.
hm..very random ya?
TAG No.3
Would you go out with you? State the reasons why you would, and why you wouldn't, and then come to a conclusion at the end.
i would go out with myslf went im in the mood for shopping or book hunting or out to do sumthin crazy..lol..coz i noe i will enjoy..lol
I'm tagging:
jonan, edmund, jhen, alice, jezamine, aaron, swee loo, li ching!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
eeee...kena tag....>_<
Tagged by: Mr chAN?
Layer 1: On the Outside
Name: Kuan Pei Wern, mabel
Date of birth: 4th january 1989
Current status: in relationship
Eye Colour: dark brown
Hair Colour: dark brown nearing black
Righty or Lefty: lefty..although i can use both hands..
LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE
My Heritage: Chinese..import from China.lol..
Fears: gettin sick.
My Weaknesses: likes to think on the negative side.
LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
My Thoughts First Waking Up: im alive! =)
My Bedtime: on the phone with him. =) if he's not asleep...
My Most Missed Memory: too many, on certain times.
LAYER 4: MY PICK
Pepsi or Coke: neither both. i dont fancy.
McDonald's or Burger King: erm...burger king
Single or Group Dates: group...depends
Adidas or Nike: Adidas..cool sweaters..
Tea or Nestea: tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: choco for meeeee
Cappuccino or Coffee: i cant take coffee..prone to have nausea.
LAYER 5: DO YOU...
Smoke: shisha..yea. not often.
Curse: hahaha...if im in a foul mode, i can make guys flinched with my words.
Take a Shower: everyday..twice sumtimes
Have a Crush: haha..no.
Think You've Been In Love: yea..what a fool i am. no offence..its past.
Go To School: haha..not until sept =)
Want To Get Married: maybe..i wont rush into it..i hope..lol
Believe In Yourself: if GOd wills it.
Think Your A Health Freak: not really. lol
LAYER 6: IN THE PAST
Drank Alcohol: till now i still do.
Gone To The Mall: malls are my second home..believe it or not..but not so often anymore..
Been On Stage: yeap..in church as worship leader or backup.
Eaten Sushi: yea.
Dyed Your Hair: highlighted..purple, red, brown, GREEN.
LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER...
Played A Stripping Game: yea..LOL..what memories Xp
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: i did..well..everything happens for a reason. if i did not do that, i wont be the person ur looking at today,.
LAYER 8: AGE YOU'RE HOPING...
To Be Married: before 27 i hope..LOL
To die : When all my part in this world is done.
LAYER 9: IN A GUY..
Best Eye Colour: black..so i can c reflections on his eyes.
Best Hair Colour: BLACK.
Long or Short hair : short..boy cut..hehe..i like boyish guys.
Personality: pay attention to details, humble, and respect ppl regardless of who they are, caring.
LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A Minute Ago: talking to my sis
An Hour Ago: chatting with my best fren =)
Hours Ago: playing sims 2
1 Month Ago: how the hell should i remember? LOL
YearAgo: if 1 mth i remember u think i can remember ar? ok..i remembered..lolin klang..getting away from sumthin.
LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love: Jesus
I feel: itchy..camping..mosquito bite la..
I hate: no one.
I hide: my teeth
I miss: cendol.
I need: be lazy.
LAYER 12: TAG 4 PEOPLE
-Rach L
-Jiokswan ( since u 'free' ..all the best ya?)
-
Layer 1: On the Outside
Name: Kuan Pei Wern, mabel
Date of birth: 4th january 1989
Current status: in relationship
Eye Colour: dark brown
Hair Colour: dark brown nearing black
Righty or Lefty: lefty..although i can use both hands..
LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE
My Heritage: Chinese..import from China.lol..
Fears: gettin sick.
My Weaknesses: likes to think on the negative side.
LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
My Thoughts First Waking Up: im alive! =)
My Bedtime: on the phone with him. =) if he's not asleep...
My Most Missed Memory: too many, on certain times.
LAYER 4: MY PICK
Pepsi or Coke: neither both. i dont fancy.
McDonald's or Burger King: erm...burger king
Single or Group Dates: group...depends
Adidas or Nike: Adidas..cool sweaters..
Tea or Nestea: tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: choco for meeeee
Cappuccino or Coffee: i cant take coffee..prone to have nausea.
LAYER 5: DO YOU...
Smoke: shisha..yea. not often.
Curse: hahaha...if im in a foul mode, i can make guys flinched with my words.
Take a Shower: everyday..twice sumtimes
Have a Crush: haha..no.
Think You've Been In Love: yea..what a fool i am. no offence..its past.
Go To School: haha..not until sept =)
Want To Get Married: maybe..i wont rush into it..i hope..lol
Believe In Yourself: if GOd wills it.
Think Your A Health Freak: not really. lol
LAYER 6: IN THE PAST
Drank Alcohol: till now i still do.
Gone To The Mall: malls are my second home..believe it or not..but not so often anymore..
Been On Stage: yeap..in church as worship leader or backup.
Eaten Sushi: yea.
Dyed Your Hair: highlighted..purple, red, brown, GREEN.
LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER...
Played A Stripping Game: yea..LOL..what memories Xp
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: i did..well..everything happens for a reason. if i did not do that, i wont be the person ur looking at today,.
LAYER 8: AGE YOU'RE HOPING...
To Be Married: before 27 i hope..LOL
To die : When all my part in this world is done.
LAYER 9: IN A GUY..
Best Eye Colour: black..so i can c reflections on his eyes.
Best Hair Colour: BLACK.
Long or Short hair : short..boy cut..hehe..i like boyish guys.
Personality: pay attention to details, humble, and respect ppl regardless of who they are, caring.
LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A Minute Ago: talking to my sis
An Hour Ago: chatting with my best fren =)
Hours Ago: playing sims 2
1 Month Ago: how the hell should i remember? LOL
YearAgo: if 1 mth i remember u think i can remember ar? ok..i remembered..lolin klang..getting away from sumthin.
LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love: Jesus
I feel: itchy..camping..mosquito bite la..
I hate: no one.
I hide: my teeth
I miss: cendol.
I need: be lazy.
LAYER 12: TAG 4 PEOPLE
-Rach L
-Jiokswan ( since u 'free' ..all the best ya?)
-
yay..lazy lazy
hahaha..im so lazy...lazy to update..today im happy..so din really wanna talk much aso..
when im emo..i would write alot..but...hahaha..just to update..im heading off to aussie on 28th june and back after 2 weeks..take care everyone..hope u have a fine summer break!..those having exams..ganbatte...hope to c u all soon..! cheers.
when im emo..i would write alot..but...hahaha..just to update..im heading off to aussie on 28th june and back after 2 weeks..take care everyone..hope u have a fine summer break!..those having exams..ganbatte...hope to c u all soon..! cheers.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
ending feeling: rejection.
hahahaha...(laughing miserably)
its the end of the semester, last of foundation.
things come n go, but i never expect frens to become the 'things' that come n go.
part of it because everone is busy and drifting away, part of it because of different groups that we're assigned to in semester 1, part of it because of me of my lousy attitude. part of it because of misunderstanding & miscommunication, part of it because of stupid assignments, part of it because of cliques.
but it's ending soon, good or bad, its ending soon.
to all my frens and once were frens, i will forever cherish all of u even though i dont seem like doin so.
for some of those that i did not spend time with, im sorry. for those that i've offended and angered, i'm sorry for doin so. it may have been the moment. i may not say that it's entirely their fault, neither is mine Entirely. for some that i have dissapointed, which i noe maybe alot, i guess apologising is just a minor words and cant be use to be forgiven.
to the people that had read my blog, ur shown my blogs to people that i wrote about, i am sorry for u to read it, because this blog serve only as a purpose for me to express myslf, not to directly let u read and making u feel angry about it. i will not redraw my blog posts as it is my freedom to do so. if u want to read it, i cant stop you. but for everybody's information, its just an expression. after writing it. i nvr really drag that feelings already.
as for other frens that suddenly became cold and far, i duno what happened if u dont say. if i offended you, please confront me, dont go behind my back and tell tales about me. its so tired, running around in circles and tell everone. if u want it to stop, find me n tell me so i can better imporve myslf in the future.
i am very very tired of all this secondary mindless, immature childish games, where ppl avoid you because of rumours. i guess people just grow up physically, many are still stuck in middle school mindsets of befriending who and not. tired, so tired.
like i've told alice, i wish i were to be alone, so that people would not be hurt by me and vice versa.
why do i exist? i cant kill myslf coz, it not nature would want it to be. it must be a reason that im here, but im yet to find out why.
so im stuck here like a seaweed floating in the sea.
Passion, what is it?
Love, do i have it in me?
am i capable to love?
Drifting like a wind, moving like a passing shadow,
to the place i do not know.
i dont know how long i could take it..
its the end of the semester, last of foundation.
things come n go, but i never expect frens to become the 'things' that come n go.
part of it because everone is busy and drifting away, part of it because of different groups that we're assigned to in semester 1, part of it because of me of my lousy attitude. part of it because of misunderstanding & miscommunication, part of it because of stupid assignments, part of it because of cliques.
but it's ending soon, good or bad, its ending soon.
to all my frens and once were frens, i will forever cherish all of u even though i dont seem like doin so.
for some of those that i did not spend time with, im sorry. for those that i've offended and angered, i'm sorry for doin so. it may have been the moment. i may not say that it's entirely their fault, neither is mine Entirely. for some that i have dissapointed, which i noe maybe alot, i guess apologising is just a minor words and cant be use to be forgiven.
to the people that had read my blog, ur shown my blogs to people that i wrote about, i am sorry for u to read it, because this blog serve only as a purpose for me to express myslf, not to directly let u read and making u feel angry about it. i will not redraw my blog posts as it is my freedom to do so. if u want to read it, i cant stop you. but for everybody's information, its just an expression. after writing it. i nvr really drag that feelings already.
as for other frens that suddenly became cold and far, i duno what happened if u dont say. if i offended you, please confront me, dont go behind my back and tell tales about me. its so tired, running around in circles and tell everone. if u want it to stop, find me n tell me so i can better imporve myslf in the future.
i am very very tired of all this secondary mindless, immature childish games, where ppl avoid you because of rumours. i guess people just grow up physically, many are still stuck in middle school mindsets of befriending who and not. tired, so tired.
like i've told alice, i wish i were to be alone, so that people would not be hurt by me and vice versa.
why do i exist? i cant kill myslf coz, it not nature would want it to be. it must be a reason that im here, but im yet to find out why.
so im stuck here like a seaweed floating in the sea.
Passion, what is it?
Love, do i have it in me?
am i capable to love?
Drifting like a wind, moving like a passing shadow,
to the place i do not know.
i dont know how long i could take it..
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
tagged.
Instructions:
Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.
1. Who is your all-time inspiration?
Jesus..coz He's the perfect one..lol..He is the only one that wont dissapoint you..
2. Have you given your first kiss away?
yesh.
3. What can you see yourself in the next five years?
hm,,.then i'll be 23 yrs old..yes? haha..erm..working and working..LOL its all about the money money money..! actually..not sure..hope to take another course or go travel..lol before i start work.
4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
anywhere with beaches..with my close frens..lol
5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
that everyone would know the truth..and the truth shall set you free..not to mention one way ticket to heaven!amen to that..!
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yesh..and its one of the most beautiful things that would only last for minutes..enjoy while u can.
7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
my freaking mind
8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
INVEST!..so i'll make more millions...wakakkaakka...snort snort..
9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
depends.
10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
crazy, loud and sarcastic..hmm..sound like me ya?
11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
currently..improve on ur english..lol..i will help you...! erm..nothing else..LOL
12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
backstabbers. think ur ninja ah...? i prefer samurai..more honourable..they stab u in the front..LOL
13. What is your ambition?
to be a ambassador of Christ..to be a mentor to sumbody in my life.
14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
hurl it rite to my face..but please..politely..lol..i rather them tell me properly.i would not suggest them to not tell me coz then i duno what my mistakes were.
15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my walk with God.
16. Describe yourself. 3pros and 3 cons:
pros: creative/sumtimes..frenly, i think.. uh...cant figure out the next one
cons; to dominant, sumtimes, lazy, and not likable.( face problem..LOL)
17. Are you a pessimist?
the half empty or the half full? the half empty one.
18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
temperment.
19. Is there anything that u have done which u regret?
plenty...but He's mercy is new every morning.
20. What makes you different?
what makes you different, makes you beautiful. everyone is different in their own special way. i dont know..only other ppl would c you in that way.
Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.
1. Who is your all-time inspiration?
Jesus..coz He's the perfect one..lol..He is the only one that wont dissapoint you..
2. Have you given your first kiss away?
yesh.
3. What can you see yourself in the next five years?
hm,,.then i'll be 23 yrs old..yes? haha..erm..working and working..LOL its all about the money money money..! actually..not sure..hope to take another course or go travel..lol before i start work.
4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
anywhere with beaches..with my close frens..lol
5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
that everyone would know the truth..and the truth shall set you free..not to mention one way ticket to heaven!amen to that..!
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yesh..and its one of the most beautiful things that would only last for minutes..enjoy while u can.
7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
my freaking mind
8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
INVEST!..so i'll make more millions...wakakkaakka...snort snort..
9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
depends.
10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
crazy, loud and sarcastic..hmm..sound like me ya?
11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
currently..improve on ur english..lol..i will help you...! erm..nothing else..LOL
12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
backstabbers. think ur ninja ah...? i prefer samurai..more honourable..they stab u in the front..LOL
13. What is your ambition?
to be a ambassador of Christ..to be a mentor to sumbody in my life.
14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
hurl it rite to my face..but please..politely..lol..i rather them tell me properly.i would not suggest them to not tell me coz then i duno what my mistakes were.
15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my walk with God.
16. Describe yourself. 3pros and 3 cons:
pros: creative/sumtimes..frenly, i think.. uh...cant figure out the next one
cons; to dominant, sumtimes, lazy, and not likable.( face problem..LOL)
17. Are you a pessimist?
the half empty or the half full? the half empty one.
18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
temperment.
19. Is there anything that u have done which u regret?
plenty...but He's mercy is new every morning.
20. What makes you different?
what makes you different, makes you beautiful. everyone is different in their own special way. i dont know..only other ppl would c you in that way.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Broken to be built new.
I know I still can take it all in. I know my God would not give me something that I could not handle. I have faith in Him as He is my strength. I will continue to go on. I felt honoured because of He gave me all this trials because He knows I could do it. And I will. I did show my emotions, I cried. It was expressions of grieve, but I shall not grieve for long. For I will wait for the day when God raise me up like an eagle again and then I shall soar with Him.
Psalms 7
O Lord my God, I take refuge in You;
Save and deliver me from all who pursue me,
Or they will tear me like a lion
And rip me to pieces with no one to rescue me.
Psalms 4:1-3
Answer me when I call to You,
O my righteous God.
Give me relieve from my distress;
Be merciful to me and hear my prayer.
How long, O men, will you turn my glory to shame?
How long will you love delusions and seek false gods?
Know that the Lord has set apart the godly for Himself;
The Lord will hear when I call to Him.
Psalms 4:8
I will lie down and sleep in peace,
For You alone, O Lord,
Make me dwell in safety.
Psalms 7
O Lord my God, I take refuge in You;
Save and deliver me from all who pursue me,
Or they will tear me like a lion
And rip me to pieces with no one to rescue me.
Psalms 4:1-3
Answer me when I call to You,
O my righteous God.
Give me relieve from my distress;
Be merciful to me and hear my prayer.
How long, O men, will you turn my glory to shame?
How long will you love delusions and seek false gods?
Know that the Lord has set apart the godly for Himself;
The Lord will hear when I call to Him.
Psalms 4:8
I will lie down and sleep in peace,
For You alone, O Lord,
Make me dwell in safety.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
TAGsssss.....
hmm..i got tagged.. Xp since its been long i've blog..so now im adding a few extras...>_<
1. What's your favorite anime at the present time?
Currently not watching any..dun even have time for sleep..LOL
2. Given the chance, what special ability/power would you like to have?
The ability to be totally myself.lol...uhh...erm..see visions?
3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
hm...jezamine,rach l, and jhen?lol...can eat her when its time..lol...
4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
heaven, to see my king. lol...on earth ar?..bora bora island,bethlehem,ireland
5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
happinesss to everyone.
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
everytime =)
7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
myself.
8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
INVEST!..lol..then i have many more..
9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him?
hmm...*smiling
10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
Sweet, fun, wild..~*grr..lol
11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
MANY..wahahaha...list down would be an essay dy. XP or refer to my 1st few blogs...*hint
12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
people whom are extremely selfish...hypocrites. extreme ones.
13. What is your ambition?
sumthing that do with design, people and money...!lol..INFLOW of money..=P
14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
See who's the ppl...
15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
i duno wor..
16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
YESHHHHHHHHHH>..and proud of it...coz..im a smart consumer...=P wakkakkaakaak
17. What musical instrument do you like the most now?
pianoooo, guitar.....alll la...flute...gu zheng...
18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
my temper..most of u would know...>_<
19. Is there anything that you have done which you regret?
OF course...i regret doin this thing...LOL...im losing precious time to DOTA.
20. Do you love your life at the moment?
no...i wish to have more sleep...lol
21. I tag : CHan CHI HONg
WOO SHI WEIIIIIIIIIIIIIII...
ALIce in LALALAnd...
Jhen...
Swee LOOOOO..my dearest sonnnnn...where ar u ar?
(to be continue.....NOW I GO DOOOOTAAAAAAAA.....!)
Name five frens: 1. chan chi hong
2. woo shi wei
3. trisha
4. rachel law
5. yap jin yu
1. WHO IS NO.3 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?~*
She's single =) and happy...if u want her num..tell me but need to go for interview from meeeee~ Xp
2. WHO IS NO.5 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?~*
single...~ my my lots of single frens i have.
3. IF NO.3 AND NO.2 ARE TOGETHER, WILL IT BE A GOOD THING?~*
Oh no...they're not lesbians!
4. WHAT ABOUT NO.4 AND NO.5?~*
hahaha...that would be a VERY weird combination...besides, No4 is HAPPILY 'married'
6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU CHATTED WIT NO.5?~*
erm...a week ago?
7. DOES NO.4 WORK?~*
yeap..
8. DO YOU HAVE ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL?~*
nop
9. WILL U BE WITH NO.1?~*
depends...LOL...=)
10. HOW ABOUT NO.5?~*
nope. he's my uncle..LOL...no la...he's a very gd fren of mine =) almost like a brother.
11. DOES NO.2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?~*
yesh, a older sister
12. HOW DID U GET TO KNOW ABOUT NO.2 AND NO.4?~*
no 2 at uni, no 4 at secondary skool.
13. WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE AT?~*
sumwhere in my...?
14. HOW DID U GET TO KNOW NO.2?~*
i met her when i started my sem in uni, she's my flatmate.
15. IS NO.5 THE SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD?~*
OMG..LOL...uh...no comment..LOL
1. What's your favorite anime at the present time?
Currently not watching any..dun even have time for sleep..LOL
2. Given the chance, what special ability/power would you like to have?
The ability to be totally myself.lol...uhh...erm..see visions?
3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you?
hm...jezamine,rach l, and jhen?lol...can eat her when its time..lol...
4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
heaven, to see my king. lol...on earth ar?..bora bora island,bethlehem,ireland
5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
happinesss to everyone.
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
everytime =)
7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
myself.
8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
INVEST!..lol..then i have many more..
9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him?
hmm...*smiling
10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
Sweet, fun, wild..~*grr..lol
11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
MANY..wahahaha...list down would be an essay dy. XP or refer to my 1st few blogs...*hint
12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
people whom are extremely selfish...hypocrites. extreme ones.
13. What is your ambition?
sumthing that do with design, people and money...!lol..INFLOW of money..=P
14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
See who's the ppl...
15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
i duno wor..
16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
YESHHHHHHHHHH>..and proud of it...coz..im a smart consumer...=P wakkakkaakaak
17. What musical instrument do you like the most now?
pianoooo, guitar.....alll la...flute...gu zheng...
18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
my temper..most of u would know...>_<
19. Is there anything that you have done which you regret?
OF course...i regret doin this thing...LOL...im losing precious time to DOTA.
20. Do you love your life at the moment?
no...i wish to have more sleep...lol
21. I tag : CHan CHI HONg
WOO SHI WEIIIIIIIIIIIIIII...
ALIce in LALALAnd...
Jhen...
Swee LOOOOO..my dearest sonnnnn...where ar u ar?
(to be continue.....NOW I GO DOOOOTAAAAAAAA.....!)
Name five frens: 1. chan chi hong
2. woo shi wei
3. trisha
4. rachel law
5. yap jin yu
1. WHO IS NO.3 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?~*
She's single =) and happy...if u want her num..tell me but need to go for interview from meeeee~ Xp
2. WHO IS NO.5 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?~*
single...~ my my lots of single frens i have.
3. IF NO.3 AND NO.2 ARE TOGETHER, WILL IT BE A GOOD THING?~*
Oh no...they're not lesbians!
4. WHAT ABOUT NO.4 AND NO.5?~*
hahaha...that would be a VERY weird combination...besides, No4 is HAPPILY 'married'
6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU CHATTED WIT NO.5?~*
erm...a week ago?
7. DOES NO.4 WORK?~*
yeap..
8. DO YOU HAVE ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL?~*
nop
9. WILL U BE WITH NO.1?~*
depends...LOL...=)
10. HOW ABOUT NO.5?~*
nope. he's my uncle..LOL...no la...he's a very gd fren of mine =) almost like a brother.
11. DOES NO.2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?~*
yesh, a older sister
12. HOW DID U GET TO KNOW ABOUT NO.2 AND NO.4?~*
no 2 at uni, no 4 at secondary skool.
13. WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE AT?~*
sumwhere in my...?
14. HOW DID U GET TO KNOW NO.2?~*
i met her when i started my sem in uni, she's my flatmate.
15. IS NO.5 THE SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD?~*
OMG..LOL...uh...no comment..LOL
Thursday, April 3, 2008
True.
Oh, what a child she is,
Power and deceit she does not know,
She knows that she's on God's list,
She never let Him go.
A girl to lady she become,
Temptations starts to come,
Taunting her,
Mocking her.
Time when she left him then,
She did not know,
But what cruel consequences are,
What was fake become so real,
What was real became fake.
Veils of lies and deceit,
Covered her, unable to discern,
Too sad,
Too ashamed to turn back.
God never left her,
Never once,
Watching her from heaven above,
When she cried, He cried,
When she laugh, He laughs,
He is in her,
As she was with him.
One day,
Like the prodigal son,
She came back to Him,
Broken she was no more,
But forever remain in Him,
A new Creation.
Power and deceit she does not know,
She knows that she's on God's list,
She never let Him go.
A girl to lady she become,
Temptations starts to come,
Taunting her,
Mocking her.
Time when she left him then,
She did not know,
But what cruel consequences are,
What was fake become so real,
What was real became fake.
Veils of lies and deceit,
Covered her, unable to discern,
Too sad,
Too ashamed to turn back.
God never left her,
Never once,
Watching her from heaven above,
When she cried, He cried,
When she laugh, He laughs,
He is in her,
As she was with him.
One day,
Like the prodigal son,
She came back to Him,
Broken she was no more,
But forever remain in Him,
A new Creation.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
valentines day..?can eat wan ah?
Ok..that previous blog that I’ve uploaded..is so long ago..LOL..first thing first, my bloody router is not working and when im in campus..im lazy to head down to Tiscra or SA..coz no one accompany me..(lol..sound like a lousy excuse?) but anyway…yea…one word for it..LAZY. this semester I don’t have any IT classes anymore…so I don’t have my frenster, facebooking and msn time in my time slot anymore.
Hm..to updated u people…on the first week of Chinese New Year.. my family and I went to Bangkok for a short trip..lol..Gosh…shopping paradise there…lol…now I have enough dresses…summer dresses for the whole yearrr…lol..and its so freakingly cheap. And nice…lol..anyway…its all fashion clothes..so I don’t mind..then now im back and im starting my new sem…more work..more stress..and I’ve gain weight!!!!!! Argh…so much for a holiday…now I need to pick up my momentum in maintaining my weight AND getting my butt back to sports…lazy for basketball dy? Sh*ttttttt….maybe I should swim this sem..lol..On Thursday…! JUST gurls only..lol…I cant ppl looking at my ‘tong minyak’ figure now…T_T its just to embarrassing…LOL
And bout valentine’s day…argh...i don’t know if some of you ever notice that…(sorry for those whom heard my rattling’s even two weeks before valentine’s day…lol..farrah..shi wei…alice…lol…and lots more)
1. things are super expensive when things sold are either PINK or RED..ROSES..FLOWERS..TEDDIES..HEART SHAPE THINGS..CUPIDS..and damn...CHOCOLATES..
okok…im a hypocrite..thank God BLogspot don’t charge my on valentine’s day coz my blog is PINK in colour…ROTFL..okok…im lame..lame//
anyway…yea…things like that are pricey…I don’t want to go out on valentines day because..
1. too many lovey dovey couples roamin around the streets..*shudders
2. annoying ppl trying to get u to buy tripled prices of roses..or flowers or whatsoever..its like “ta cheung” instead of empty handed, u end up with roses..lol…
3. when u eat…(DON’T EVER mess WITH MY APPETITE or food…for that matter..) things like couple set of whatever….argh…driving me insane
4. and ppl giving u stares when ur alone out in a café with a gd paperback notebook and ppl think ur being dump or the couple ppl will say to their partners..”oh look at the poor single gurl/guy..are u glad that you have me?”
and this time when they say that..i would imagine myslf..taking a very huge hard cover book that I was reading and then throw it directly at them..right SMACK at their face!!..THEN, then I would retrieve back my book and slowly make my way to where they were sitting (of course they would have ran away by then.. durhhh) to collect “my” expensive chocolates..heheheh… I’m doin them a favour since they would’nt have time eating them anyways(u know wat I mean..wink wink).. plus like my mom always say, “Don’t waste...
ok..my sis edited that (the paragraph above)
valentine's day is so overated nowadays..sigh, guys and gurls..hope that its not only valentine's day that ur relationship be flourish...i pray that it will last forever for all of you.. =)
don’t get me wrong..its just…repulsive for me..and I cant help myslf for being sarcastic…some frens even told me that I was jealous at heart or just felt bitter coz of my previous relationship..i cant just say no..but even this…it may be a grey area for me..maybe unconsciously..i am feeling those that my fren mentioned to me but at the same time I am still a girl..and yes..i stil want sumone who could do all those lil things for me…like by being a gentlemen in everything he do..
its not wrong to feel wanting to be romanced by guys..(yeas..gurls…im talking to you) but in my opinion..its good to keep things realistic..so to cushion the fall..last time..heck,even now..sumtimes I fantasize to much..lil things disappoints me..so I prefer to avoid things by taking things sarcasticly..but now..i wanna make improvements for the sake of my future love life and relationships…LOL..so im taking things slow…Step By Step.. =)
thank you ppl for giving me presents for my birthday..lol...sorry...yi peng...that gift of yours,,,is so useful and beautiful...! muaks,,,! and trish...LOvELY t shirt...!!!LOL,...love it just the same..remind me of u when i wear it...Xp
and..after my birthday..i still receive my present...lol...thanks for the Cookie monster, Maams! love u lots.XOXO..! now i would anytime soon buy cookies..wear my cookie monster t shirt and eat the cookies watching sesame street..LOL =)
and a lil shoutout to Chi Hong..thanks for the gift for valentine's day..it was sweet of you to give me although im abit freak out that u would actually buy sumthin for me..lol..it really comfort me like u do all the time..lol..remind me of u now everytime i go to sleep! *sweat,,,ahahaa although now my bed is not for me to sleep..but my pillows and teddies..lol..
those that i forgot to mention...im so sorry if i forgotten to mention.. Xp
Hm..to updated u people…on the first week of Chinese New Year.. my family and I went to Bangkok for a short trip..lol..Gosh…shopping paradise there…lol…now I have enough dresses…summer dresses for the whole yearrr…lol..and its so freakingly cheap. And nice…lol..anyway…its all fashion clothes..so I don’t mind..then now im back and im starting my new sem…more work..more stress..and I’ve gain weight!!!!!! Argh…so much for a holiday…now I need to pick up my momentum in maintaining my weight AND getting my butt back to sports…lazy for basketball dy? Sh*ttttttt….maybe I should swim this sem..lol..On Thursday…! JUST gurls only..lol…I cant ppl looking at my ‘tong minyak’ figure now…T_T its just to embarrassing…LOL
And bout valentine’s day…argh...i don’t know if some of you ever notice that…(sorry for those whom heard my rattling’s even two weeks before valentine’s day…lol..farrah..shi wei…alice…lol…and lots more)
1. things are super expensive when things sold are either PINK or RED..ROSES..FLOWERS..TEDDIES..HEART SHAPE THINGS..CUPIDS..and damn...CHOCOLATES..
okok…im a hypocrite..thank God BLogspot don’t charge my on valentine’s day coz my blog is PINK in colour…ROTFL..okok…im lame..lame//
anyway…yea…things like that are pricey…I don’t want to go out on valentines day because..
1. too many lovey dovey couples roamin around the streets..*shudders
2. annoying ppl trying to get u to buy tripled prices of roses..or flowers or whatsoever..its like “ta cheung” instead of empty handed, u end up with roses..lol…
3. when u eat…(DON’T EVER mess WITH MY APPETITE or food…for that matter..) things like couple set of whatever….argh…driving me insane
4. and ppl giving u stares when ur alone out in a café with a gd paperback notebook and ppl think ur being dump or the couple ppl will say to their partners..”oh look at the poor single gurl/guy..are u glad that you have me?”
and this time when they say that..i would imagine myslf..taking a very huge hard cover book that I was reading and then throw it directly at them..right SMACK at their face!!..THEN, then I would retrieve back my book and slowly make my way to where they were sitting (of course they would have ran away by then.. durhhh) to collect “my” expensive chocolates..heheheh… I’m doin them a favour since they would’nt have time eating them anyways(u know wat I mean..wink wink).. plus like my mom always say, “Don’t waste...
ok..my sis edited that (the paragraph above)
valentine's day is so overated nowadays..sigh, guys and gurls..hope that its not only valentine's day that ur relationship be flourish...i pray that it will last forever for all of you.. =)
don’t get me wrong..its just…repulsive for me..and I cant help myslf for being sarcastic…some frens even told me that I was jealous at heart or just felt bitter coz of my previous relationship..i cant just say no..but even this…it may be a grey area for me..maybe unconsciously..i am feeling those that my fren mentioned to me but at the same time I am still a girl..and yes..i stil want sumone who could do all those lil things for me…like by being a gentlemen in everything he do..
its not wrong to feel wanting to be romanced by guys..(yeas..gurls…im talking to you) but in my opinion..its good to keep things realistic..so to cushion the fall..last time..heck,even now..sumtimes I fantasize to much..lil things disappoints me..so I prefer to avoid things by taking things sarcasticly..but now..i wanna make improvements for the sake of my future love life and relationships…LOL..so im taking things slow…Step By Step.. =)
thank you ppl for giving me presents for my birthday..lol...sorry...yi peng...that gift of yours,,,is so useful and beautiful...! muaks,,,! and trish...LOvELY t shirt...!!!LOL,...love it just the same..remind me of u when i wear it...Xp
and..after my birthday..i still receive my present...lol...thanks for the Cookie monster, Maams! love u lots.XOXO..! now i would anytime soon buy cookies..wear my cookie monster t shirt and eat the cookies watching sesame street..LOL =)
and a lil shoutout to Chi Hong..thanks for the gift for valentine's day..it was sweet of you to give me although im abit freak out that u would actually buy sumthin for me..lol..it really comfort me like u do all the time..lol..remind me of u now everytime i go to sleep! *sweat,,,ahahaa although now my bed is not for me to sleep..but my pillows and teddies..lol..
those that i forgot to mention...im so sorry if i forgotten to mention.. Xp
maison..again.
Yesterday, I went clubbing with my SKTS classmates..and there’s so many unexpected things happened.supposingly three gurls supposed to make it..but it didn’t happened..so I end up with 8 guys and one gurl. Yes, me. but thank God, Mel got to make it last minute but even its for a while but I still can chat with her! Xp thanks darl! Had dinner with my mum, sis and wayne’s mum and him. Super full dinner then when back home to change, hock ann came b4 that then we went with wayne’s car. Met Eu jin at shell and everyone’s ready to go. we reach there bout 11pm then got ourselves a table later. So all together was..eu jin, wayne, hock ann, sean, ivan, surenjay, lee, chen and me.
Met two new frens, surenjay’s fren from SAB, lee and chen..haha..they just come here and drink..lol..but after full of booze..chen went wild..lol..sad sad boy with a case of alcohol intolerant…xp dance the whole nite..drink..i drank more than I should but surprisingly im not tipsy that nite..n I saw many things.
Gurls dancing..(if u call it dancing)..guys ‘fishing’..all I did mostly was drink..i drank n drank and my guy frens..(sorry wayne and hock ann) they controlled my drinking…well..thats a gd thing..they will go..”heyhey! pei wern..not too much..!” well..they don’t really understand..or maybe they do if I’ve explained to them..but then again..its not an excuse to drink out of emotion. I was feeling quite emo that nite. Being the only gurls and my guy frens were out ‘fishing’..dont blame them though..afterall they’re guys.While drinking..i was observing the couple opposite me was dancing..more like the gurl was clinging to the guy desperately..lol..she was totally drunk and full of lust..lol..well..the guy caught me looking at them a couple of times..and I did not even advert my gaze when he looked at me..lol..i just stare..coz I mean..that gurl was seriously..desperate..grinding,…and dry humpin that guy..LOL..and I was telling it to chen..even he was turn off by it.lol//
That nite..guys approach me offering ciggies, booze..trying to start a conversation..but later they don’t dare anymore cause my forehead reads..” I’m single but im NOT available..”well that suits me well enough..there’s one guy..he approached me and say “ hey gurl..ur not here to just sit here and drink rite? At least have a ciggie in ur hand..” I looked at him and laugh. He thought I was drunk..i was laughin coz I NEED to have a ciggie…just to look cool? That’s ridiculous..he approached me a few times..then later he got tired.and never did again. That did him good.
Later..me n lee n surenjay hit on the dance floor trying to make use of the time..and to stop me from drinking. It was packed like mad? Sigh..lol..haha.. to be in the mood..my frens surround me while we dance to prevent me from being accidentally molested coz we’re near the dance floor. Until duno what happened..i start dancing with lee and it was…weird..i cant help feeling guilty about sumthin..while his hands were on my waist..sumthin invaded my mind..him. wishing that he was there with me that nite..i thought of him..of all people for Pete’s sake. Clearly lee was not really into me and I was not really into him..cause..i don’t really know him? We’re in a club? We just dance and it was just carnal flesh with boundaries. I kept distance..i didn’t do anything that I regretted..just dance. But,. technically , I am SINGLE, my physical body accept that im actually single and free to do anything with boundaries..but damn..my mind and emotion couldn’t accept that I am indeed SINGLE already. I hate it when it comes to that. I also conveniently check for my fren, chi hong’s on whether he got sms me or not.i got used to him smsing me bout lil stuffs like “take care” and all that..but that nite..haha..none. I guess he’s tired doin that anymore coz sumtimes I take things for granted..im sorry dude..i really appreciate you. I guess I was a lousy fren..arent I?
After everything…bout 2.37am..i went out of the club with suren..i need fresh air!lol…then met sean n chen…outside..lol…chen is clearly drunk. And he puked..twice..hahaahaha…lamer..!lol! Sean with a splitting headache..lol..among them..i was alrite..lol..suren was okey too. Then wait for wayne..and others to come out..waited for ivan the last one..LOL.. we were thinking of leaving him dy..LOL..(noo…jk…don read this then dun wanna take us go teluk gong or bak kut teh!)lol..will drop by to klang and have a Buddy day out! U’ve promise me!!!lol..*_*
But sumthin happened..while we were on our way back home…hock ann lost his wallet..so we went back to take it..but yea..it was not there anymore. It was sad..cheer up hock ann. Im sorry that it happened that way. It was three sumthin..when we head back to maison..and there’s puke everywhere..lol..this one gurl..was so drunk..she couldn’t walk, she was carried away by her boifren or guy fren across the street..sweat..hardcore betul. So me n sean waited outside..then later head back to the car after unfruitful search..before that there’s this drunkard driver driving..thank God..sean was there quick enough to pull me away from the vehicle..it was not a close shave but I really thank God for sean for doin that. And he was always waiting for me. And my guy frens were really sweet asking if my feet hurt from high heels. Haha…sean! Ur a A-list for boyfren material..i’ll advertise you in my blog! No worries..lol.. Xp who else? Wayne yau ma? Surenjay? Hock ann..? I advertise u all..but I want commission!lol..as in MoNey..lol
Wayne…drove just to fast. I’ll hit u again if u drive that fast with me in the car! And im sh*t serious. Anyway..we reach back home road block free..and I reach home at 4.05am. that was it…oh yea..i met Matthew Yeo, and one of EX skts senior and Pess senior and Zhen kai. That’s bout it..my blow to blow account of skts maison gathering..or..a Guy’s nite out at maisons.
Surenjay, and Wayne..a big thank you to u for being my Bodyguards for the nite!lol…and accompanying me everywhere inside maison.(actually…sean and hock ann aso..ur all my lou yaus..LOL..ivan as usual…sesat! fishing until duno how to come back..LOL..eu jin..stop by once in a while.yeayea…chick chick chick. Ronald, tai wern! Come la next time! wanna c ur ‘cat’ face on how u guys act in clubs..seen the rest but not urs! =) Next time…GURLfrens please. You will make my clubbing nites more happening…Mel, Merie, Yi-Peng, Trish..MUAKS.. darls..want to see you all real soon! Better still…go sumwhere else..like bars..if u want alcohol and a place to talk! =) *hints hints…next stop! Strip poker SKTS at Eu jin’s house for CNY!!lol…JK la…but we will crash your place!
Met two new frens, surenjay’s fren from SAB, lee and chen..haha..they just come here and drink..lol..but after full of booze..chen went wild..lol..sad sad boy with a case of alcohol intolerant…xp dance the whole nite..drink..i drank more than I should but surprisingly im not tipsy that nite..n I saw many things.
Gurls dancing..(if u call it dancing)..guys ‘fishing’..all I did mostly was drink..i drank n drank and my guy frens..(sorry wayne and hock ann) they controlled my drinking…well..thats a gd thing..they will go..”heyhey! pei wern..not too much..!” well..they don’t really understand..or maybe they do if I’ve explained to them..but then again..its not an excuse to drink out of emotion. I was feeling quite emo that nite. Being the only gurls and my guy frens were out ‘fishing’..dont blame them though..afterall they’re guys.While drinking..i was observing the couple opposite me was dancing..more like the gurl was clinging to the guy desperately..lol..she was totally drunk and full of lust..lol..well..the guy caught me looking at them a couple of times..and I did not even advert my gaze when he looked at me..lol..i just stare..coz I mean..that gurl was seriously..desperate..grinding,…and dry humpin that guy..LOL..and I was telling it to chen..even he was turn off by it.lol//
That nite..guys approach me offering ciggies, booze..trying to start a conversation..but later they don’t dare anymore cause my forehead reads..” I’m single but im NOT available..”well that suits me well enough..there’s one guy..he approached me and say “ hey gurl..ur not here to just sit here and drink rite? At least have a ciggie in ur hand..” I looked at him and laugh. He thought I was drunk..i was laughin coz I NEED to have a ciggie…just to look cool? That’s ridiculous..he approached me a few times..then later he got tired.and never did again. That did him good.
Later..me n lee n surenjay hit on the dance floor trying to make use of the time..and to stop me from drinking. It was packed like mad? Sigh..lol..haha.. to be in the mood..my frens surround me while we dance to prevent me from being accidentally molested coz we’re near the dance floor. Until duno what happened..i start dancing with lee and it was…weird..i cant help feeling guilty about sumthin..while his hands were on my waist..sumthin invaded my mind..him. wishing that he was there with me that nite..i thought of him..of all people for Pete’s sake. Clearly lee was not really into me and I was not really into him..cause..i don’t really know him? We’re in a club? We just dance and it was just carnal flesh with boundaries. I kept distance..i didn’t do anything that I regretted..just dance. But,. technically , I am SINGLE, my physical body accept that im actually single and free to do anything with boundaries..but damn..my mind and emotion couldn’t accept that I am indeed SINGLE already. I hate it when it comes to that. I also conveniently check for my fren, chi hong’s on whether he got sms me or not.i got used to him smsing me bout lil stuffs like “take care” and all that..but that nite..haha..none. I guess he’s tired doin that anymore coz sumtimes I take things for granted..im sorry dude..i really appreciate you. I guess I was a lousy fren..arent I?
After everything…bout 2.37am..i went out of the club with suren..i need fresh air!lol…then met sean n chen…outside..lol…chen is clearly drunk. And he puked..twice..hahaahaha…lamer..!lol! Sean with a splitting headache..lol..among them..i was alrite..lol..suren was okey too. Then wait for wayne..and others to come out..waited for ivan the last one..LOL.. we were thinking of leaving him dy..LOL..(noo…jk…don read this then dun wanna take us go teluk gong or bak kut teh!)lol..will drop by to klang and have a Buddy day out! U’ve promise me!!!lol..*_*
But sumthin happened..while we were on our way back home…hock ann lost his wallet..so we went back to take it..but yea..it was not there anymore. It was sad..cheer up hock ann. Im sorry that it happened that way. It was three sumthin..when we head back to maison..and there’s puke everywhere..lol..this one gurl..was so drunk..she couldn’t walk, she was carried away by her boifren or guy fren across the street..sweat..hardcore betul. So me n sean waited outside..then later head back to the car after unfruitful search..before that there’s this drunkard driver driving..thank God..sean was there quick enough to pull me away from the vehicle..it was not a close shave but I really thank God for sean for doin that. And he was always waiting for me. And my guy frens were really sweet asking if my feet hurt from high heels. Haha…sean! Ur a A-list for boyfren material..i’ll advertise you in my blog! No worries..lol.. Xp who else? Wayne yau ma? Surenjay? Hock ann..? I advertise u all..but I want commission!lol..as in MoNey..lol
Wayne…drove just to fast. I’ll hit u again if u drive that fast with me in the car! And im sh*t serious. Anyway..we reach back home road block free..and I reach home at 4.05am. that was it…oh yea..i met Matthew Yeo, and one of EX skts senior and Pess senior and Zhen kai. That’s bout it..my blow to blow account of skts maison gathering..or..a Guy’s nite out at maisons.
Surenjay, and Wayne..a big thank you to u for being my Bodyguards for the nite!lol…and accompanying me everywhere inside maison.(actually…sean and hock ann aso..ur all my lou yaus..LOL..ivan as usual…sesat! fishing until duno how to come back..LOL..eu jin..stop by once in a while.yeayea…chick chick chick. Ronald, tai wern! Come la next time! wanna c ur ‘cat’ face on how u guys act in clubs..seen the rest but not urs! =) Next time…GURLfrens please. You will make my clubbing nites more happening…Mel, Merie, Yi-Peng, Trish..MUAKS.. darls..want to see you all real soon! Better still…go sumwhere else..like bars..if u want alcohol and a place to talk! =) *hints hints…next stop! Strip poker SKTS at Eu jin’s house for CNY!!lol…JK la…but we will crash your place!
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