whoa.

giant ferrero rocher!

thanks kenny..cheered me up a lil =)

Giant Ferrero Rocher

enjoy.

Alive.

i want to run..run on to the fields..to the woods..to places that i dont know..

i want clean air..i want nottingham campus..

i want to feel the breez when i run..like im flying...

i want to play basketball with shi wei, alice n vanessa..

i love the feeling of rushed adredeline..

i want to punch the punching bag with alice n shi wei..

like i did when i punch till my knuckles bleed.

i want to paint shoes..

i want to draw again..

i want to play my drums and guitar..

and lose myself in music..my muse

i want to go back to kem miri, sarawak to kayak.

i want to be the watchwomen for the night in my NS camp to feel the breeze and watch the skies filled with stars.

i want to be back in kuala kubu, lie dwn on the road, to look at the shooting star..

i want to be in redang, hearing the waves crashin to the beach.

i want to be in redang, listening to God ask He speaks to me.

i want to listen to God speaking to me again.

i want to be in the rough seas, when God spoke to me, telling me not to be afraid.

i want to be in God's arms, when all things fail me.

empty.

in the dark,

whisper in the sky,

hoping that God would look at me in His eyes.

i wonder what does He see?

a speck of dust,

or wound full of puss?

although its not true,

indeed i know God love's so good,

but here am i still feeling blue.



my heart is hollow,

soon im afraid my mind would follow;

then were would i be?


oh yes, many people are around me,

cheerful sad or angry,

but why is my heart, so empty?


jonan, just because i have loads of frens, it don't give an excuse why i cant feel lonely.

happy father's day.

why does everything i do is not up to your standard at all?

like today's sis shopping for laptop. you were not there..u were working.

we search n found one, we're quite happy with it. but when u came back, only one comment that u gave.

'' Toshiba? i expected another brand..of all brand u all choose Toshiba?''

'' at least its not fujitsu..expensive and its not really gd based on your experience using it'' i've said.

and you gave me the look,

the look that always:

i was never too good for you.

i was borned a gurl. thats why grandpa n grandma dun care bout me. as though im just a shadow.

i was never pretty enough in your eyes.

i was never smart enough for you.

i was never a sweet and obedient enough as a daughter for you.

i was too head strong, too stubborn, but unfortunately i was not born as a boy.

i was never hardworking enough in your eyes.

in your eyes, i only know how to talk back. spend your money.

i got scholarship. you think the college is not gd enuf.

i spend 2 months to get scholarship in sumthin i wanted to do.

in two minutes, you objected me.

u put me in a uni that know im so confuse with my degree.

im so scared i would fail, fail to succeed in your eyes.

i love you dad.

but sumtimes its so hard to live in your expectations.

humans.

haha..today...

i went out of the house at 9am...went out till 11.45pm.

i went for two gatherings today..both is also farewell..

in the morn, went to midvalley to fetch shi wei n alice..and vanessa, the watak utama..LOL
she's goin to UK soon to study so we plan to go out with her for this special occasion..we decided to go to sunway lagoon. (pics will be in facebook soon) had fun...really enjoyed ourselves, even when the weather's quite bad. it rain really heavily and long, nevertheless, it did not dampen our spirits..lol after a few spins and a few dips and plunges...LOL..we finally went for this Scream park..cool..but nid lots of improvements..at a point..i laugh during the game. suppose to be scary..LOL..but the 3D tunnel was cool...!!! then we had dinner at T.G.I Friday's...lol..dissapointed coz dun have MOCHA MUD PIE..finished when i went there with them.. =(

then at nite..after sending my frens home, i went to O town again in tmn midah..man...im like a regular customer dy at that place, its convenient for me and my frens..since they all live in cheras...my highskool frens, that is.. then we chat and all...they're as lame as ever! lol...gonna miss all of them, esp suet lai, since she's goin back to russia this tues...=(

anyway, went back home then check my mails and stuffs, then kenny found me and chat with me. he gave me a news in Aust. (which reminds me, i havent replied auntie rose..shit...!)

Disgraced pastor Michael Guglielmucci a porn addict

THE father of disgraced pastor Michael Guglielmucci has revealed his son has been addicted to pornography since the age of 12.

Danny Guglielmucci – whose high-profile preacher son last week week admitted his two-year battle with cancer was fake – said the "severe addiction to pornography" was part of a bizarre double life his son had been leading.

Mr Guglielmucci, who established Edge Church International, an Assemblies of God church in Adelaide, said Melbourne-based Michael had made a full confession to his family about his past, including revelations about the 16-year porn obsession and the lies over his supposed battle with terminal illness.

In an exclusive interview with Adelaide's Sunday Mail this week, Mr Guglielmucci also revealed:

HIS son has been suffering "mystery illnesses" since the age of 12.

DOCTORS gave his parents the option of admitting him to a psychiatric ward for assessment as a child over the ongoing "illnesses", but they refused.

THE family's "absolute shock" at discovering Michael was not terminally ill.

Mr Guglielmucci said he and wife Sharonne – who founded Edge Church International with him – were struggling to comprehend what their son had done.

They are expected to address the church's Adelaide congregation today to explain his actions.

"When (Michael) rang me last Tuesday, I was on my way to New Zealand," Mr Guglielmucci said.

"He said, 'Dad you've got to come and see me'.

"I said to my wife, 'Maybe the doctors have told him he's only got a few weeks to live'.

"So we cancelled everything and jumped on the plane and went to see him in Melbourne, and that's when he told us the story.

"We were just in absolute shock and we still are. We haven't had time to get our head around it. He said, 'I don't have cancer. I've had two lives that I've lived'.

"His wife (Amanda), who has been with him for seven years, found out the day before we did and she's had no idea.

"Michael has had a severe addiction to pornography. The addiction to pornography started when he was 12.

"It's horrendous because we don't have that sort of stuff around. He was raised in a Christian home; we've never brought that stuff into our home."

Michael Guglielmucci was one of Australia's highest-profile Christian preachers, inspiring hundreds of thousands around the world as he performed his hit song Healer with an oxygen tube in his nose.

He was a pastor with Planetshakers, a Christian youth movement that began in Adelaide and has grown into an international ministry.

But that all came crashing down this week when his deception became public.

Mr Guglielmucci said his son finally confessed after the guilt of his lies and addiction became overwhelming.

"He lived the two lives and he would get sick as a result of the guilt," he said.

"He was feeling like he was letting God down, letting his family down, his church, his friends.

"He's been living this for so long, feeling like he's had these two lives and now he's the one that's come out in the open. He confessed it, he didn't get caught.

"To deal with the guilt he would pour himself into doing good work. He's touched the lives of young people all over the world. Now they are all affected by this.

"He hasn't done this for any reasons that have been portrayed that he's a fraud.

"It was either keep pretending or come out with the truth and tell everything. He's come out with everything but now we've got the consequences of it all.

"We have to accept it. We're hoping to share with our congregation how it all started and how it got where it is.

"We understand people's anger, we understand their questioning.

"There's so many questions.

"An addiction like this is not going to be fixed overnight. You can't have a 16-year problem and fix it in a week."

Mr Guglielmucci said his son was undergoing psychiatric assessment with Adelaide doctors.

"They have said to me that he is very ill. They are assessing where reality stopped and fantasy kicked in and what's caused all this," he said.

"The doctor believes that at times Michael was totally convinced that he had this sickness."

Mr Guglielmucci said his son had a long history of "mystery illnesses", starting in childhood.

"When he was about 12 he did vomit all the time, he'd get really really sick," he said.

"He was in the Adelaide Children's Hospital for seven weeks at one stage; he didn't eat and we thought we were going to lose him.

"They took out his appendix, thinking that it might be that, but they realised that it wasn't.

"They gave us the option of putting him in a psychiatric ward to see if there was something psychological but we felt uncomfortable with that at the time.

"We signed him out from hospital and then he would go a few months and then he would get sick again.

"We'd always take him to hospital; we'd always do the proper thing but they couldn't get to the bottom of it until now."

Mr Guglielmucci said he and his wife were in "absolute shock" to discover their son was not terminally ill.

"We have watched our son go through what we thought was cancer," he said.

"My wife and I, over the past two years, have watched him vomit in buckets, having nosebleeds, and even his hair fell out in clumps at one stage.

"Every time we saw him, we saw symptoms. He stayed with us for a while where we had to put a special air-conditioner in one of the rooms because he would heat up so much in the middle of winter.

"He had this cold air-conditioner blowing on him to try to keep the heat down. As a professional minister I've stood in front of my congregation and cried and said to pray for my son.

"I've travelled the world asking people to pray for him. Can you imagine what a horrible thing it would be if I was playing a game?

"To be honest, I ask myself as a father, 'What did I miss, what did I not do? What could I have done better?' "

Mr Guglielmucci said Michael's wife was "getting really good counselling".

"She's not made any decision at this point," he said.

"It's happened so quickly. There's so many questions."


hm...shocking is it? for most of the people.. now i could hear ppl saying..
''wahhh..pastor aso can be like that wan ar!!!" or..
" aiiyerr...what news is this, such disgrace!!''

yes. its true. its dissapointing but.

he's still human. yesh, he suppose to be more "in the line" since he's an elder in church..bla bla bla...
did anyone still remember what the bible talks about?

1. forgiveness
okey, he f***** things up. but do anyone remember bout forgiving each other?
uh, for other ppl's info. Christians are also HUMAN. humans sin. its in their nature but God sent His only son to Die for all of us( yea, You too) to pay for our sins. (yes, white lie is considered as a sin, no matter how ''white'' your lie was and yes.rape and murder is also sins. nop, we have no grades for sin ie. ''you lie to your gurlfren that her cookies are yummy (but actually its hard like concrete) is still a lie or '' i've murdered sumone'' is also a sin. there's no lighter sentence or a heavier sentence. everything's the same.

you may ask, who's this Jesus and why is he so damn special that he can help us wipe away our past, present and future wrongdoings?

want to know? ask anyone of your christian frens, im sure you know at least one of them. anyway, i'll wirite that next time. =) coz there's so many things to write bout him. =)

note: its hard to forgive the ppl that hurt @ betray you. i wont deny that..but rely not in your strength but on God.
its hard but it can be done.

and if ppl whom are too dissapointed with this news, and think..

" wa..if pastor like that also can succumb to all this kinda drama and addiction and all, what chance do i have?''

you do have chance, alot in fact. like i've said, he's a human. but he's forgiven. humans being humans, would like to talk bout it and all..judgin ppl and all. but if your discourage, dun be..if you are fammiliar with one of a stories in the bible, even if your not, its alrite. in one of the many records in the bible..even the famous, most close to God in the Old testament which is King David, he also did sumthin really 'naughty' and end up murdering sumbody. more info bout this story, check out " 2 samuel chapter 11,12) in short, King David saw a beautiful women bathing and she's married. appt her husband was working for the King. the king ask her to be sent to him and he slept with her. and yea, shucks..she got pregnant. so king david wanna conceal it by asking the husband of the lady to go back home ( he was working outstation, in lay-man's term) but he was indeed a loyal servant. the king wants him to go back so that the husband could have sex with the wife and...tadaa! she's pregnant (which, actually its the king's child in her) but he was a loyal servant and he thinks that he must finish his job ( like over time lol) so he did not slept with his wife. then king david ask this guy to go for war and put him in the 1st line( sure die wan..last time war...the 1st in line is a doom line weh) indeed, he mati lo. and the story goes on..read yourselves la. din have bible, borrow la..lol

anyway, what im trying to prove that, even king david, in high favour of God aso GG..so all other ppl sure die dy la?
no. coz God's mercies are new every morning. ( heck, i keep thinking, thank God Jesus were born b4 me..so that i'm forgiven and all punishment was taken by Jesus, my saviour so that i could be blameless in the eyes of God..coz if we're still in the old testament, we havent got the direct connection with God coz we are sinners and GOd is perfect. so there's a gap but Jesus closed that gap for us. =) arent that great? we could talk to God normally not like the ancient times where even priests( in olden times they were called priests) have to tie ropes to their own ankles when entering the Temple of God ( church) coz if they think anything that is unclean, WHAM! they're dead. that's how powerful God's presence is...lol..imagine goin for a prayer then suddenly struck dead coz your think sumthing that is not appropriate during at the time. thank God Jesus had change that, coz i think i wont get to survive that during the ancient times befor Jesus was born and died for my sins..=P

issues of being single.

yes.

to ans fren's questions.

my fren said that she's not single anymore. super damn happy. and she asked me. i said im not anymore. and she kept saying..why always im with sum1 and then ur not..its so opposite..why is that and blablabla..

i said i decided to be single. she was shocked.

yesh, shocked. why is it so freaking shock that i want to be single?

she asked why. i said coz i wanna to meet more ppl. she lagi shocked. she ask me if im bored of the r.ship.

fuck, no. in my mind of course. i din want to swear with this gurl, she's too sweet natured to be polluted with this kinda language.

is being single a crime or an offense the the nations?

then she want to really know 'why' i broke up.

i repeat it again. i want to meet more ppl to broaden my horizons.
she did not really understand why. most ppl dont.

i am not ready for a commited r.ship.

im scared. im scared of people controlling my social circle. my life. my freedom. im too egoistic to let anyone get hold of me. imagine a cat being cornered. the more u feel threaten, the more u want to run. i havent found a guy that can retain me.

this is what i've found a year ago:

i say i love you, but you say you want more freedom.

why is freedom more important than love?
without love, freedom is naked. why love cant live with freedom? why is love the prison for freedom? how many people live in freedom prison then?

(xiao lu gou, 2007)

well...i think im one of them living in freedom prison then.

note: this applies to human love..well, God's love is so much the opposite. God's love is FREEDOM.

haha..updates... =)

hahaha..its been so long.....>_<

updates so far...

1. i got a job!

hahaha...yeash..to those who ask me if im still shooting...yesh yesh but this is another job.
now im working as a partimer in a store that sells outdoor clothing and gears. the shop's called LAFUMA..no its not under PUMA...Sweat,LOL...it a brand by itslf. so hint hint..anyone wants to go Mount Kinabalu or other outdooorish stuffs...come find me ooo...LOL... the shop's in Bangsar by the way. =)

2. i'm allowed to go for expedition!

ahahah...yesh, shi wei..im so happy!! =) after dinner today at YUZU, The Gardens ( they have superdelicious KOBE beef there..just rm 88 for 100 grams..and super tasty...LOL..) i've talk to my dad bout it...yea..he did rattle bout how dangerous is it with my Asthma condiiton and all...but i got the green light!!! yay..but dun be too excited bout it, esp. kar lye..lol i still nid to fun raise alot of $$ to go...sob sob.

3. i've bought sports bra...LOL

okie....its been so long i want to buy but i lazy and i duwan to use my own money..so my dad after dinner went in to a Nike shop..and the rest is HISTORY..i bought two..LOL =)

4. i realise i am able to finally do what i really want in my life rite now.

i want knowledge, freedom and experiences. i want to do everything that i want to do now. they're loads of stuffs that i've not done yet..thanks, National Service..LOL...coz that made me realize that i have alot of records that i've havent personally break. i've managed to achieve sumlast year..and im looking forward to achieve sum this following year.

5. erm..nothin much then.

yea...thats all my updates from now...i just think that my blogs are getting much more boring than ever...hm.. i have alot of things to share about but its kinda long and im not really free to write everything...hm hm hm...lazy bum am i..lol YODA speaking.

and not to mention, LAMER..what the hell..YODA?

Angel Kid's home..=)

hahha..today's shedule was super packed!

one of the main events for today was to bring 14 kids from Angel's KIds Home to a day trip to Petrosains. we've been planning for weeks now..and finally it come to pass..LOL

it was so fun...! the day start as to gather at the kids home to fetch the kids to klcc, then reach there..then we went in..play stuffs...most of the time...i was super damn worried bout the kids...scared they're lost, sick...hurt..bla bla bla..coz i was suppose to the so called co organiser for that event..i was so nervous until the day b4 i was having nitemares that one of the kids were missing and all! lol... however, by God's Grace, everything went well. =)

then fetch them back to their home..then chat with them..then leave the place bout 5pm..fetch my sis from fren's hse, then went back home. then after dinner..rest..then went out to Bangsar mistakenly then end up in MIdvalley at 9pm. lol...suppose to meet a fren there. he came back from singapore.


to be continue...fren got prob.

blog hopping.

been hopping around in friend's blogs today..

i found back some old frens. catching up on what they're doin.

and i found out bout sumthin..sumthin really special.

reaading their blogs is like a one way communication, sumtimes they dont even know that we're reading theirs..and how they felt. its comforting that sum dun even know that im reading it.

lookin back was like.. 'wow, this gurl..we've fought before during primary skool, but how is she doin now in her life?'

but the old devil is back..its a long story.

she the gurl that came to our skool when we're in strd5 i guess. she came into our skool from a private skool to a public skool. students usually label her as a stcuk up gurl just because she's from a private skool. but now i think back..we're kinda silly..coz indeed private n public skool, students just behave differently..and last time, when she tried to fit in..i think everyone gave her a hard time, esp me.

i regretted the things that i've done, last time when i was small..i used to be one of the bright students that excelled in art and english..so as a lil gurl..i was secretly proud of that,,until she came. lol..for the past years since strd 1, when it comes to art classes, ppl would want me to help draw, paint or sculp for them. but after she came, she got all the attention i had once had from my peers. i was not happy. she was acting stuck up and alot of frens followed her. lol..lookin back..it was just plain silly that i was hurt by her. after everything..we had fights and all.

now she just completed her A-lvls and moving on next on her journey called life. she's still talented in ART...and now PHOTOGraphy..everyone's into PHOTOGRAPY now..sigh.

thinkin bout it.. i felt useless.lol..every pics that my frens took as an art give me a stab on the chest..lol *stab stab stab.

*stab= see? ask u too practice more on your skills in photog. useless.

*stab= ppl use D50 aso so damn nice dy the pic, u just waste ur money by buying stupid expensive cameras, for what? for show ar?

*stab= you HAVE no TALENT in photography. ur just as gd as a WIMPY photographer.

uhhh...bleeding...bleeding...

and the truth is people..frens..when ppl knew that i work freelance as a photog. they always wanna see my pics. curious..but the thing is...i am scared to show..but im goin to do sumthin bout it...im goin to challenge myslf to open a pic webbie soon.

wow. my birthday..lol

this was taken in this webbie: http://www.paulsadowski.com/birthday.asp

4 January 1989
Your date of conception was on or about 13 April 1988 which was a Wednesday.

You were born on a Wednesday
under the astrological sign Capricorn.
Your Life path number is 5.

Your fortune cookie reads:
Your happiness is intertwined with your outlook on life.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 3 & 9.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 8.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 6, 11 & 22.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2447530.5.
The golden number for 1989 is 14.
The epact number for 1989 is 22.
The year 1989 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/17/1988 and ending 2/5/1989.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Dragon.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Goose; your plant is Bramble.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Famenoth, the third month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 27 Tevet 5749.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 28 Tevet 5749.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.15.12.6 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 15 tun 12 uinal 6 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Wednsday, 26 Jumadiyu'l-Avval 1409 (1409-5-26).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 26 March 1989.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 30 April 1989.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 8 February 1989.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 14 May 1989.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 21 May 1989.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Saturday, 30 September 1989.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Thursday, 20 April 1989.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 7 February 1989.

As of 7/10/2008 1:26:55 AM EDT
You are 19 years old.
You are 234 months old.
You are 1,018 weeks old.
You are 7,127 days old.
You are 171,049 hours old.
You are 10,262,966 minutes old.
You are 615,778,015 seconds old. (and COUNTING...LOL)

Celebrities who share your birthday:
Michael Stipe (1960) Matt Frewer (1958) Dyan Cannon (1937)
Floyd Patterson (1935) Jesse White (1917) Jane Wyman (1914)
Sterling Holloway (1905) Charles 'Tom Thumb' Stratton (1838) Louis Braille (1809)

Top songs of 1989
Another Day In Paradise by Phil Collins Miss You Much by Janet Jackson
Straight Up by Paula Abdul Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx
Lost In Your Eyes by Debbie Gibson Like a Prayer by Madonna
We Didn't Start the Fire by Billy Joel Two Hearts by Phil Collins
When I See You Smile by Bad English Blame It On the Rain by Milli Vanilli

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.7894324853229 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

Your lucky day is Saturday.
Your lucky number is 8.
Your ruling planet(s) is Saturn & Uranus.
Your lucky dates are 8th, 17th, 26th.
Your opposition sign is Cancer.
Your opposition number(s) is 2 & 7.

Today is not one of your lucky days!

There are 178 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 20 candles.

Those 20 candles produce 20 BTUs,
or 5,040 calories of heat (that's only 5.0400 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.29 US ounces of water with that many candles.

Your birthstone is Garnet

The Mystical properties of Garnet

Garnet is used as a power stone
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Emerald, Rose Quartz

Your birth tree is

Fir Tree, the Mysterious
Extraordinary taste, dignity, cultivated airs, loves anything beautiful, moody, stubborn, tends to egoism but cares for those close to it,rather modest, very ambitious, talented, industrious uncontent lover, many friends, many foes, very reliable.

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waning crescent.

hmm..sumthin to think about.

i'm staring that the blank computer screen, thinking of what to write for my next blog..

i'm still in aust, still in the same house. in the same study room..staring..until i saw a book that caught my eye. It's purple in colour (sweat, coincidently la..lol) and the title was the one that caught my eye. it wrote..

"The FIve Love Languages by Gary Chapman."

few years ago, i've attended this conference for young ppl in kl. and yea, they did mention this but i kinda forgotten the contents and what five love languages it is. nop..its not languages like bahasa malaysia or chinese...laaa...but its more to..

1.words of affirmation
2.quality time
3.receiving gifts
4.acts of service
5.physical touch

hm..words of affirmation.
its true..giving honest compliments to your partners work really well...guys gurls...not always 'i love you''s the only word for u couples to use u know. appreciate your partners with good compliments. ok..i am a gifted procrastinator..lol. while reading a few pages, i've been 'ouch' here and there coz i've read bits bout things that i should have done and not done. its interesting to know about all this..but what im worried about, what about the other person in your life? does he know? i just duno how to share it. frens i could and i would but,for that special person, i just duno how to start.

sumtimes i'm so afraid of falling in love? coz being 'in love' is like sitting on CLOUD 9 then after a few months or years, you will find out that in reality, ur at the (sumtimes) in the bottomless pit? i.e Hell? lol..hope that it wont happened to anybody. so i tend to prepare for the worst. getting into fights earlier, testing waters, i.e testing the limit..but it was faulty. know why? coz the other person might be 'in love' too.so the limit that he gave is not real. i.e everything goes as long as u love me ( im not dissing anyone esp BAck street boys ya) =P but yea..that song kinda reminds me that love just been too sugary coated all this while.

im afraid that i cant cope with the post 'in love' thing u know? i hope ppl would understand me bout this confusing rattling about love. if not it'll be senseless rumblings and mumblings. i havent read the few more chapters.. so the others i cant really tell you much, but i think this book would really help couples to cope but the most important thing is.. both would get a good understanding of the book. then we'll be talking bout the same language, or frequency in that manner.

i've talked bout this with a fren, and she said that its good to understand all the five languages of love but u have to remember that not all are speaking the same ammount of those five. for example, Lily needs more on acts of service compared to her boyfren, Fred who needs more of the words of affirmation. everybody have different wants and needs..so its all back to give and take. hmm..sounds complicatingly simple, isn't it?

shucks. depress laaaa....

shit la..after reading so many of people's blog..i've found out that im such a LOSER weh..lol

my blog skin cacat
my contents fai wan
im jobless..LOL in the meantime la..
aaaa....i think im goin craaazzzyy...
i nvr worked in the field that im studying la...how how? no experience...lol..lame lame * knocks head on the wall.
and results..dont ask me. it sucks so much.arghhhhh...KUSOOOOOOO~

resolutions:

1. no being lazy.
2. study at least 2 hrs a day. 5 times a week.
3. do maths! practise acc! >_<
4. practice my drums and guitar. yesh..mun yee's killin me.
5. exerciseeeeeeeeee....YOU FAT PIG!


yea...procrastinating.

*huhuhu ... T_T (huddle in the corner)

hmm..old bimbo?lol

heyheyhey..

just realize..after re-reading my blog..i felt. if ppl dont know me..they'll think of me as a bimbo..! lol

note: for those dont know what's a bimbo..i'll search for you..lol read more below the definition of a bimbo. =)

"Bimbo is a term that emerged in popular English language usage in the early 20th Century to describe an often attractive, yet unintelligent woman. The usage of this term began in the United States as early as 1919" (wikipedia, 2008)

well..the attractiveness din count la i guess.lol///

anyway..the reason that i type this was.. because my blog is pink..(*hinting ppl hhhu are extremely free, help me changeeeee...??? )lol

and my posts..mostly are tags and all..no real substance..lol

true..i love collecting bimbo stuffs now..lol// bikinis and all..lol

just figured out that i only can wear until the age of 25 i guess...so better wear it now..lol..

sigh..still in melbourne now..i'll be coming back on the 12th july, afternoon flight..so reach back kl around nite time. i think i've just bought the whole candy shop..! hahaha..so many things to do when i come back..so many ppl i nid to meet up..waaaa...so exciting and tiring just thinking about it.. =) cu all soon!

tagss.

TAG No. 1

List eight (8) random facts about yourself. Tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names. Let them know they have been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.

1. i love to take pics but i hate to dwnload n upload them..lol

2. i have a thing for candies..and love candy shopping!

3. i play the piano, guitar and suck in drums.

4. i love choco chip cookies! famous amos...soft cookies! =)

5. i love to drive aimlessly.

6. i have a thing for bikinis..i collect them..just bought one today...so happy! X)

7. i have no patience for ppl hu think they can do everything.( when the fact is they dont)


8. i love to eat..=)

TAG No. 2

8 things I am passionate about:

1. God..not trying to be holy, coz i cant. but im still working to be gd.
2. ART! artworks of ppl..artists!
3. Children..they're our future. =)
4. frens.
5. fashion?
6. food!
7. books..

8 things I say too often:

1. whatever-laa..
2. kuso..! dont ask me the meaing..lol/ wont tell.
3. so cold..( in aust oni la..during winter..LOL)
4. pretty! ( if i saw sumthin i like!)
5. buy-la! ( went i go shopping and i saw sumthin i like =P)
6. shucks.. (sumthin unpredictable happened)
7. bugger..
8. hai ya..*sighing ( typical msian ya? lol)

8 books I’ve read recently:

1. the bonesetter daugther by amy tan
2. the other boleyn girl by phillpia gregory..nice!
3. the constant princess by phillipia gregory..super nice..lol

8 songs I could listen to over and over again FOR THE MOMENT

1. all the worship songs by hillsong =)
2. No Air - Chris Brown and Jordin Sparks
3. With You - Chris Brown
4. Take a Bow - Rihanna
5. Dont speak- NO doubt (haha..damn long dy this song..but its my fave =))
6. Jay chou's first album..all the songs..!lool
7. American Boy - Estelle feat. Kanye West
8. Angel- sarah mc-sumthin..lol..its super nice.

hm..very random ya?

TAG No.3

Would you go out with you? State the reasons why you would, and why you wouldn't, and then come to a conclusion at the end.

i would go out with myslf went im in the mood for shopping or book hunting or out to do sumthin crazy..lol..coz i noe i will enjoy..lol

I'm tagging:

jonan, edmund, jhen, alice, jezamine, aaron, swee loo, li ching!

eeee...kena tag....>_<

Tagged by: Mr chAN?

Layer 1: On the Outside

Name: Kuan Pei Wern, mabel
Date of birth: 4th january 1989
Current status: in relationship
Eye Colour: dark brown
Hair Colour: dark brown nearing black
Righty or Lefty: lefty..although i can use both hands..

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE

My Heritage: Chinese..import from China.lol..
Fears: gettin sick.
My Weaknesses: likes to think on the negative side.

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW

My Thoughts First Waking Up: im alive! =)
My Bedtime: on the phone with him. =) if he's not asleep...
My Most Missed Memory: too many, on certain times.

LAYER 4: MY PICK

Pepsi or Coke: neither both. i dont fancy.
McDonald's or Burger King: erm...burger king
Single or Group Dates: group...depends
Adidas or Nike: Adidas..cool sweaters..
Tea or Nestea: tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: choco for meeeee
Cappuccino or Coffee: i cant take coffee..prone to have nausea.

LAYER 5: DO YOU...

Smoke: shisha..yea. not often.
Curse: hahaha...if im in a foul mode, i can make guys flinched with my words.
Take a Shower: everyday..twice sumtimes
Have a Crush: haha..no.
Think You've Been In Love: yea..what a fool i am. no offence..its past.
Go To School: haha..not until sept =)
Want To Get Married: maybe..i wont rush into it..i hope..lol
Believe In Yourself: if GOd wills it.
Think Your A Health Freak: not really. lol

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST

Drank Alcohol: till now i still do.
Gone To The Mall: malls are my second home..believe it or not..but not so often anymore..
Been On Stage: yeap..in church as worship leader or backup.
Eaten Sushi: yea.
Dyed Your Hair: highlighted..purple, red, brown, GREEN.

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER...

Played A Stripping Game: yea..LOL..what memories Xp
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: i did..well..everything happens for a reason. if i did not do that, i wont be the person ur looking at today,.

LAYER 8: AGE YOU'RE HOPING...

To Be Married: before 27 i hope..LOL
To die : When all my part in this world is done.

LAYER 9: IN A GUY..
Best Eye Colour: black..so i can c reflections on his eyes.
Best Hair Colour: BLACK.
Long or Short hair : short..boy cut..hehe..i like boyish guys.
Personality: pay attention to details, humble, and respect ppl regardless of who they are, caring.

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING...

A Minute Ago: talking to my sis
An Hour Ago: chatting with my best fren =)
Hours Ago: playing sims 2
1 Month Ago: how the hell should i remember? LOL
YearAgo: if 1 mth i remember u think i can remember ar? ok..i remembered..lolin klang..getting away from sumthin.

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love: Jesus
I feel: itchy..camping..mosquito bite la..
I hate: no one.
I hide: my teeth
I miss: cendol.
I need: be lazy.

LAYER 12: TAG 4 PEOPLE
-Rach L
-Jiokswan ( since u 'free' ..all the best ya?)
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