1.My Name : Mabel Kuan
2.My Birthday : 4th January
3.Who tagged you : Ivy
4.Name 5 best friends : i dun have best frens..i have close frens..coz all of them are best! =p
5.What do you wished for birthday : still have a few months to go..let me think..lol
6.Happy things that happened recently : i got my results and i get to proceed to year 2 without resitting my papers.
7.Most stressed about recently : I want to see Wei Ern. lol..that made me stress...coz i cant see him that often..
8.What is your dream about future : My love ones would be in good health.
9.Do you have someone you like : haha..yeap
10.Will you visit your ex-teacher in a classmate gathering : depends on which teacher.
11.Most happy to hang out with : The ppl that i love.
12.If two of your friends are having conflicts : be their listener if they want sum1 to listen but will not try to solve it, coz it will work out eventually..
13.Where is preferably the place to go with your lover : Anywhere, lol..as long as im with him.
14.What to do in Christmas : Eat! carolling! EAt! lol...get pressies!
15.Who do you want to celebrate Christmas with : spend it with my frens and family.
16.Bad habit on waking up early in the morning : i will yawn alot...my eyes will be half close..lol
17.How many siblings do you have : one.
18.Favourite song(Female) : ahahahaha..Lady GAGA's newest single...no la..its actually Again by Yui.
19.Favourite song(Male) : John Legend Ordinary ppl.
20.Favourite Colour : earth colours? depends on my mood..
21.Flush before using the toilets? : depends.
22.Love me not? : love hu?
23.Affectionate to guys or girls : both.
24.What do you want to shout out loudly : I'm sweating! argh!
25.Do you dare to go toilets alone in the middle of the night? : Yeap.
26.Will you take off your undies in while in the WC : uhh..depends what im doin inside there? what kinda lame ass quest is tis? Ivy...! lol
27.Who’s the bastard : The rude ones.
28.What’s the current affection : Affection for my skin..sobsob..
29.Ugly when asleep: maybe...with my drool and snoring, i bet not..! lol..
30.Whats the time now : 9.46pm
31.Do you hate the person who tagged you : irritated why she tagged me this stupid long post..! LOL~
32.Weight : 45kg?
33.Weather today : felt like in sum oven or sumthin...
34.Are you pregnant : wtf..not now.
35.What will you do if you win a lottery : INvest! LOL~bwaahahah
36.An activity that must be done while in the Uni -life : DOTA n basketball..of course..lepaking n study too..lol
person in ur mind now:
1. wei ern
2. ivy
3.merissa
4. joanne
5.wy hoong
6.shi wei
7. alice
8.wayne
9.hock ann
10.ck
01-?Does no.4 know no.6??: yeap!
02-?No.10 is a male or??: hahaha..i didnt check but im sure he's a male..lol
03-? The hobby of no.8?: ahahhaha...racing?
04-?Does no. 1 have any siblings?: yeap..!
05-?The surname of of no.7?: Liew
06-?Does no.10 have alot of friends??: yea? why this quest like no 10 so much? lol
07-?Anyone tackling no.4??: huhuhu..complicated ler...lol =p
08-?If no.2 is being introduced??: my gurl..lol
09-?The favourite colour of no.6?: blue..HOt pink..waakakakakaa
12-?Where is no.5 studying currently??: Notts
13-?How do you know no.10??: BBQ party for a gurlfren.
14-?Whats the difference between the birth month of no.1 and you??: 9 months...! lol...
15-?Ever hang out with no.9??: mamak fellowship..yea..!
16-?Do you like to chat with no.2??: yeap...she always giggles...that cheers me up..lol when i talk to her..
17-?Like to be with no.3??: YEAP! lol
18-?How do you think about no.7??: sadist..! lol and squirrel..ask joseph about it..lol~
19-?How do you think about no.9??: a good fren
20-?Do you love no.5??: as a fren, yes lol
1.Who tagged you with this questionnaire? : IVY la...~
2.How long have you known him/her : hm..since primary skool? lol~
3.Do you think that he/she is important to you? : Yeap!
4.Your relationship with him/her : friends la..=) gurlfrens.
5.Whats his/hers hobby? : EAting! ..lol..sorry ivy..! lol..playing with her cute puppy? lol
6.What do you think about his/her personality? : lovable!
7.His/her points of importance in your heart : wa..wat is this..everyone is important in my heart..=)
*1st thing before sleep : wash my feet, brush teeth n wash face.
*1st thing after awaking from sleep : grab my specs.
*Your idol : no idol..
*Favourite season : Spring.
*Worked part-time before? : Yes.
*Times worked : Once..if u count pay..lol
*Countries that wanted to go the most : rome..ireland..new zealand..
*Personality hated : rude, selfish
*Are you a crybaby? : yeap
*You laugh alot? : manically at times, yes..
*Do you like to go out alone? : When im emoing
*What time will you wake up if it's a holiday? : wahahaha..i wake when i wake.
*Today’s weather(Sunny Rainy Cloudy): Incredibly hot!
*Choose between Friends and Lover : friends, coz lover is my fren too..my bestie in fact.
*Choose between Chances and Fates : chances.
*Are you narcissist? : sumitmes..lol..when no one's looking.
*Is this questionnaire long? : Super!
*How to make yourself feel better every time? : food! and time with my boyfriend..or sleep.
*Favourite food : almost everything...except for slimey veggies, brinjals...eee
*Do you like ice? : Yes.
*Are you full of happiness? : im quite cloudy.
*Who are the friends that you care the most? : those are in trouble.
*What's the most important item in your bed room? : everything! lol
*Most consistent dream at sleep : nitemares.
*Will you forgive a guy that is mentally disobedient? : wahts mentally disobedient? meaning he cant controll being disobedient?
*Whats the meaning of life? : who know? im finding out myslf..
*Do you know?(See if you can answer this!): know that this questionnaire is stupid? Yes.
*When do you hate me? : i hate you when i do..(to the questionnaire)
*Like the day you were born or been into the society?: well, u cant change rite?
*Like Taoism or Confucianism? : neither
*Favourite cake? : Raspberry cheese..=)
*Can we stop this game now? : ...
*Do you like sardins? ^^ : yeap
*Who knows you the best? : God
*IQ higher or EQ? : lol...nerd.
*Computer or Mobile Phone : neither.
*Prefer to sleep or play? : Sleep.
*Friendster or Facebook? : Fb.
*Whats your wish right now? : be with him.
*Tired? : quite.
*Favourite drinks : pink lemonade.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
untitled.
human love?
human carnal love,
catch in like a zhepyr,
such intense gust,
but just as a gust it will be.
human carnal love,
so intense,
but yet as fragile as a day's bloom of a flower,
longing to show the world its beauty,
but crumbling to dust only after later.
human carnal love,
catch in like a zhepyr,
such intense gust,
but just as a gust it will be.
human carnal love,
so intense,
but yet as fragile as a day's bloom of a flower,
longing to show the world its beauty,
but crumbling to dust only after later.
back after sooo long.
hey people..! cats...dogs..plants..lol
finally, im back..
i dont have the mood to write, and i was quite busy for the last few weeks after summer break has officially started..! lol..
i've been doin basketball trainings with the gurls that are now in Tri Notts Games in UK. pray that they will be in good health..by the looks of the pictures in facebook...hmm...they're good..lol (but sure alot of stories im yet to hear about...hehehehe...)
want to write on blog but frens stalled me...after not onlining for pleasure for so long...lol...ive forgotten my special ability of multitasking..lol
moving everything back to my home is one thing, placing them is another thing..lol..i ahve mountains of stuffs in my room and i can hear cockroaches singing in the dark! >_< damn those cockroaches...
so many things to do..but procrastinating..sigh..how how?
finally, im back..
i dont have the mood to write, and i was quite busy for the last few weeks after summer break has officially started..! lol..
i've been doin basketball trainings with the gurls that are now in Tri Notts Games in UK. pray that they will be in good health..by the looks of the pictures in facebook...hmm...they're good..lol (but sure alot of stories im yet to hear about...hehehehe...)
want to write on blog but frens stalled me...after not onlining for pleasure for so long...lol...ive forgotten my special ability of multitasking..lol
moving everything back to my home is one thing, placing them is another thing..lol..i ahve mountains of stuffs in my room and i can hear cockroaches singing in the dark! >_< damn those cockroaches...
so many things to do..but procrastinating..sigh..how how?
Saturday, May 30, 2009
things to do
mabel needs to:
1. clear out SPM stuffs..(im serious! still got! LOL)
2. clean my desk
3. organise my books
4. clean out my closet
5. sleep sleep sleep! LOL
argh..>_<
1. clear out SPM stuffs..(im serious! still got! LOL)
2. clean my desk
3. organise my books
4. clean out my closet
5. sleep sleep sleep! LOL
argh..>_<
Saturday, May 2, 2009
untitled.
whoever corrects amocker invites insult;
whoever rebukes a wicked man incurs abuse.
do not rebuke a mocker or he will hate you;
rebuke a wise man and he will love you.
Instruct a wise man and he will be wiser still;
teach a righteous man and he will add to his learning.
proverbs 9:8
whoever rebukes a wicked man incurs abuse.
do not rebuke a mocker or he will hate you;
rebuke a wise man and he will love you.
Instruct a wise man and he will be wiser still;
teach a righteous man and he will add to his learning.
proverbs 9:8
Friday, April 10, 2009
Easter
After a long chat with a few of my favourite people, they’ve made me realize something about myself.
It’s hard to admit, I have an ego as big as a guy and I’m always think I can almost do better than other people in terms of certain things. I seem to be confident if I am sure I could complete that certain task.
God has been trying to show me how to be humble and patience, and He even sent me a very special person in my life to remind me of a few things in life that I should always remember, is to be humble and to be in the grace of God. If it isn’t for Jesus, I could have been much worse. People always regard Christians in majority always being all holier than thou kinda attitude, but it truth, Christians need God because they are worse. i.e, me.
Take me for a perfect example, I swear, I’m egoistic, I’m impatient, I’m rude. I’m worse off than other people. I still find it hard for God to accept me and He is willing to let me be in His presence. But there He is, always with me even most of the times I had doubt and even abandon Him. I was the one that abandon Him instead of me.
Being the ‘victim’ of the upcoming Easter play in Nottingham University has lead me to think and reflect of all the things that I’ve went through in my life. For the 1st scene, for example, I have been tempted on lust, had my fair share on being a 1st degree of nearly being an alcoholic, always drinking in excuse of trying to defeat stress and depression. I’ve went through being too insecure of myself, discouraged, and always think bad about how I look. No matter anyone tells me that I am pretty or decent looking, I couldn’t accept it. Why? Some people asked me, because I ‘d always believe that beauty comes from the inside, and that’s why I’m not pretty, cause, I’m not pretty from the inside. It’s not that I’m being too ‘chinese’ by not accepting compliments, this is the real reason that I couldn’t accept this compliment. Committing suicide? Lol..yes. It crossed my mind so often until I’m wondering why I am still alive.
No matter what I’ve went through, whether it’s by my own doing or cause by other people, God was and is always with me. Why do I know that? Cause I’m still alive. It sounds cheesy but I can swear my life by it. He sends angels to talk to me, He shows me until I see it. My angels are so damn special in my life..earthly angels and heavenly angels the same too. Earthly angels would be my family members, my friends and loved ones. They gave me the reasons to live, to love and to cherish. They are you. ( yesh, you..reading this) =)
Blessed are those whom are poor in spirit.
Despite all those false accusations that are made by people, I pray that God would be my strength to go thru this time in my life. You have been there throughout my life for 20 years (even more), I will continue to learn to trust You, O Lord. I still believe that the truth will eventually reveal itself when the time is right. You are my strength when I am weak. Even though I look tough and hardy, but I’m still a fragile girl despite on how I look. Only You could see through me and fully understand on what I am going through in this period of time. I love You, Jesus. I cant comprehend with my puny pathetic human mind on why do You choose to die for me for my sins. All I can do is come to You in awe reverence, no one could make me feel like You do. Therefore, Lord Jesus, I give You thanks for the times when You patiently wait for me with Your arms wide open, even with the shits that I’ve made and forgive me Lord for being so ignorant and stubborn to even acknowledge you. I’ve clearly been a fool but You choose to be with me. You are freakingly awesome.
It’s hard to admit, I have an ego as big as a guy and I’m always think I can almost do better than other people in terms of certain things. I seem to be confident if I am sure I could complete that certain task.
God has been trying to show me how to be humble and patience, and He even sent me a very special person in my life to remind me of a few things in life that I should always remember, is to be humble and to be in the grace of God. If it isn’t for Jesus, I could have been much worse. People always regard Christians in majority always being all holier than thou kinda attitude, but it truth, Christians need God because they are worse. i.e, me.
Take me for a perfect example, I swear, I’m egoistic, I’m impatient, I’m rude. I’m worse off than other people. I still find it hard for God to accept me and He is willing to let me be in His presence. But there He is, always with me even most of the times I had doubt and even abandon Him. I was the one that abandon Him instead of me.
Being the ‘victim’ of the upcoming Easter play in Nottingham University has lead me to think and reflect of all the things that I’ve went through in my life. For the 1st scene, for example, I have been tempted on lust, had my fair share on being a 1st degree of nearly being an alcoholic, always drinking in excuse of trying to defeat stress and depression. I’ve went through being too insecure of myself, discouraged, and always think bad about how I look. No matter anyone tells me that I am pretty or decent looking, I couldn’t accept it. Why? Some people asked me, because I ‘d always believe that beauty comes from the inside, and that’s why I’m not pretty, cause, I’m not pretty from the inside. It’s not that I’m being too ‘chinese’ by not accepting compliments, this is the real reason that I couldn’t accept this compliment. Committing suicide? Lol..yes. It crossed my mind so often until I’m wondering why I am still alive.
No matter what I’ve went through, whether it’s by my own doing or cause by other people, God was and is always with me. Why do I know that? Cause I’m still alive. It sounds cheesy but I can swear my life by it. He sends angels to talk to me, He shows me until I see it. My angels are so damn special in my life..earthly angels and heavenly angels the same too. Earthly angels would be my family members, my friends and loved ones. They gave me the reasons to live, to love and to cherish. They are you. ( yesh, you..reading this) =)
Blessed are those whom are poor in spirit.
Despite all those false accusations that are made by people, I pray that God would be my strength to go thru this time in my life. You have been there throughout my life for 20 years (even more), I will continue to learn to trust You, O Lord. I still believe that the truth will eventually reveal itself when the time is right. You are my strength when I am weak. Even though I look tough and hardy, but I’m still a fragile girl despite on how I look. Only You could see through me and fully understand on what I am going through in this period of time. I love You, Jesus. I cant comprehend with my puny pathetic human mind on why do You choose to die for me for my sins. All I can do is come to You in awe reverence, no one could make me feel like You do. Therefore, Lord Jesus, I give You thanks for the times when You patiently wait for me with Your arms wide open, even with the shits that I’ve made and forgive me Lord for being so ignorant and stubborn to even acknowledge you. I’ve clearly been a fool but You choose to be with me. You are freakingly awesome.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
my daily routine as Mabel Kuan.
Wednesday,(9th April 2009)
woke up at 11am. supposingly have class at 9am-11am, then another one at 12pm-2pm, then weekly test at 4pm-5pm.
at 5.30pm, have basketball competition 3 on 3 women's team.
what a terrible game, kind off for me..i didnt manage to shoot a single score.except the last minute..with is tied up between double-trouble team ( a group of african gurls consist of a size triple my size,wide..and a tall netball player..one head taller than me, and the last one a tiny one, smaller size than me) we tied them for 3rd place, so it was weird that the organisers wont want to give us overtime, instead they want all of the teamates to shoot to determine the 3rd place.in the end we tied again so its time to move to the sudden death situation whereby each team has to choose a shooter to shoot until they score. guess what? i was chosen and the 1st try, we tied AGAIN..then the second one, with all eyes looking at me, i never felt that kinda pressure before..and i missed.
kinda sad,, i was crying later..lol...then i realise that i was crying i cried even harder..lol..i felt so ridiculus but i cant stop..was quite emo la..but it was nothing la. Wei Ern was there with me, he msged me earlier saying he has to conduct tuition in his house, but surprisingly he turned up to see me play, that was really sweet of him..he actually cancelled his tuition so he could watch me play. =p thanks alot..i really appreciate that..=) BUT YOU WERE playing squash..hm...=/ i kinda guessed it when u dissapeared about 15 minutes..LOL
at 9pm, have CF committee meeting.
they were choosing new committee members for CF team for next year, and i cried, i duno why i cried, part of me was like...uhh...seniours are leaving..lol..part of me is like...there's this kinda feeling where u dont want to do it, but God is telling you to do it..? hahahaha...i felt like jonah..swallowed by a big giant fish..
at 12.30am, shower..yea..i stink all the way until midnite.
at 1am, went with jo-anne, shi wei n wen shan to McD kajang. (bluff ppl, saying open 24 hrs, joker..we all went there for the sake of sundae cone...im serious..from Nottingham to Kajang for Sundae Ice Cream. Boo...~!
then end back in Semenyih Ibrahim Maju. ate then..
at 3am, camp in TIscra(computer lab), tryin to do my assignments, wait for..
5am..so i can go climb broga Hill. yes..at 5am after everything.
Let me tell you what i did the day before..(meaning..on tuesday)
Note: before that,Monday,(6th April 2009) i slept at 5am, talking to my housemate regarding about sumthin while studying)
TUesday,(7th April 2009)
i have class at 1pm-2pm..so i could lie in abit longer.
went to class..then did my part of assignment..500 words in 45minutes.
then went out to eat early dinner at 6pm then came back for Talent Quest in Nottingham..enjoyed, then sat in the rain n walk in the rain back to my car, found out about sumting, then went super emo.. then just took my car and drove off at 11pm-ish back to Cheras..just to find a reason to drive.
Wei Ern followed me. He accompanied me even though he do not know wad was happening to me. he just followed me. i felt irritated abit because he is there, but thankful that he was with me during that time. he got scolded by mum later on the phone when he told his mum that he was not coming back home that nite and i felt super bad. im sorry..T_T
i was at BRJ then thinking about hock ann, so i called him and he agreed to come out and meet me even without thinking. i was surprised. what surprised me even more was later after a few minutes he arrived, Ronald came too, then Lokman whom ive never seen him for at least 8 years. lol..i was so surprised i nearly cried. so we talked about things..lol..wei ern felt so out of place. (did you?)
then later they told me about their latest 'hobby'..which is catching prawns..yes..ur not reading it wrong..seriously, catching prawns. its located near the mamak, and they show me how they catch them...lol...fishing is fishing fish, so catching prawns is..prawing? LOL okok..its really fishing for prawns in a water container made of simen and tiles. then grab a fishing rod with a bait made out of chicken gizzard. its quite an expensive game...lol...rm 10 per hr? or is it 15? but its quite addictive you see..lol...but with rm 10-15 ringgit, i cant go CC and DOTA till my eyes bulge out..lol..
anyway, they did catch sum and you keep the catch..and Ron caught two before i left. i got to play with it..=) Ron apparently forgotten how i like creepy crawlies.=)
then i too GG to drive back, Wei Ern drove my car back to nottingham, reach nottingham at around 4am.
*there, this is my life..LOL..and now its 4.10am..in about 50 mins i'll be off to climb broga hill with my business group of frens. =)
seriously, i duno how long will i collapse. i pray that i wont.
love,
pei wern.
woke up at 11am. supposingly have class at 9am-11am, then another one at 12pm-2pm, then weekly test at 4pm-5pm.
at 5.30pm, have basketball competition 3 on 3 women's team.
what a terrible game, kind off for me..i didnt manage to shoot a single score.except the last minute..with is tied up between double-trouble team ( a group of african gurls consist of a size triple my size,wide..and a tall netball player..one head taller than me, and the last one a tiny one, smaller size than me) we tied them for 3rd place, so it was weird that the organisers wont want to give us overtime, instead they want all of the teamates to shoot to determine the 3rd place.in the end we tied again so its time to move to the sudden death situation whereby each team has to choose a shooter to shoot until they score. guess what? i was chosen and the 1st try, we tied AGAIN..then the second one, with all eyes looking at me, i never felt that kinda pressure before..and i missed.
kinda sad,, i was crying later..lol...then i realise that i was crying i cried even harder..lol..i felt so ridiculus but i cant stop..was quite emo la..but it was nothing la. Wei Ern was there with me, he msged me earlier saying he has to conduct tuition in his house, but surprisingly he turned up to see me play, that was really sweet of him..he actually cancelled his tuition so he could watch me play. =p thanks alot..i really appreciate that..=) BUT YOU WERE playing squash..hm...=/ i kinda guessed it when u dissapeared about 15 minutes..LOL
at 9pm, have CF committee meeting.
they were choosing new committee members for CF team for next year, and i cried, i duno why i cried, part of me was like...uhh...seniours are leaving..lol..part of me is like...there's this kinda feeling where u dont want to do it, but God is telling you to do it..? hahahaha...i felt like jonah..swallowed by a big giant fish..
at 12.30am, shower..yea..i stink all the way until midnite.
at 1am, went with jo-anne, shi wei n wen shan to McD kajang. (bluff ppl, saying open 24 hrs, joker..we all went there for the sake of sundae cone...im serious..from Nottingham to Kajang for Sundae Ice Cream. Boo...~!
then end back in Semenyih Ibrahim Maju. ate then..
at 3am, camp in TIscra(computer lab), tryin to do my assignments, wait for..
5am..so i can go climb broga Hill. yes..at 5am after everything.
Let me tell you what i did the day before..(meaning..on tuesday)
Note: before that,Monday,(6th April 2009) i slept at 5am, talking to my housemate regarding about sumthin while studying)
TUesday,(7th April 2009)
i have class at 1pm-2pm..so i could lie in abit longer.
went to class..then did my part of assignment..500 words in 45minutes.
then went out to eat early dinner at 6pm then came back for Talent Quest in Nottingham..enjoyed, then sat in the rain n walk in the rain back to my car, found out about sumting, then went super emo.. then just took my car and drove off at 11pm-ish back to Cheras..just to find a reason to drive.
Wei Ern followed me. He accompanied me even though he do not know wad was happening to me. he just followed me. i felt irritated abit because he is there, but thankful that he was with me during that time. he got scolded by mum later on the phone when he told his mum that he was not coming back home that nite and i felt super bad. im sorry..T_T
i was at BRJ then thinking about hock ann, so i called him and he agreed to come out and meet me even without thinking. i was surprised. what surprised me even more was later after a few minutes he arrived, Ronald came too, then Lokman whom ive never seen him for at least 8 years. lol..i was so surprised i nearly cried. so we talked about things..lol..wei ern felt so out of place. (did you?)
then later they told me about their latest 'hobby'..which is catching prawns..yes..ur not reading it wrong..seriously, catching prawns. its located near the mamak, and they show me how they catch them...lol...fishing is fishing fish, so catching prawns is..prawing? LOL okok..its really fishing for prawns in a water container made of simen and tiles. then grab a fishing rod with a bait made out of chicken gizzard. its quite an expensive game...lol...rm 10 per hr? or is it 15? but its quite addictive you see..lol...but with rm 10-15 ringgit, i cant go CC and DOTA till my eyes bulge out..lol..
anyway, they did catch sum and you keep the catch..and Ron caught two before i left. i got to play with it..=) Ron apparently forgotten how i like creepy crawlies.=)
then i too GG to drive back, Wei Ern drove my car back to nottingham, reach nottingham at around 4am.
*there, this is my life..LOL..and now its 4.10am..in about 50 mins i'll be off to climb broga hill with my business group of frens. =)
seriously, i duno how long will i collapse. i pray that i wont.
love,
pei wern.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Kopi tarik
It's 3.10am in the morning and im not doin anything..with shi wei n wai ken n jin yu.after a glass of hot kopi tarik i still can fall asleep..just print out sumthin for my assignment.
Yest was my Uni's annual dinner and it was ok. paying rm 125 for the purpose of to See and Be Seen. LOL...it was good in the sense of getting to know some of my coursemates in the afterparty..lol...talk to ppl that i havent met before or talk at all...(my uni quite big la..) my coursemates num is around 100+..ok..its not being be anti-social..it was indeed fun except for sum mishaps.
overall, i kinda enjoyed the day..parts of it of course, met alot of nice ppl. =)
then sunday...
i met up with my good fren, Joseph New.
i miss him so much and im so happy to meet back him. im relieved that he's doin ok in his life so far, its a hard journey but keep it up! *hugs*
i need to improve too. my IQ is dropping..lol..and my communication skills is getting worse..sigh..
im trying...
but there's alot of hindrances..alot. in sense of my emotions and physical capabilities, and i pray that it would not affect me that much.
My priority is to get my grades up again and able to enter MAPCU or the TRINotts games for Basketball. so other problems..please fuck off?
Yest was my Uni's annual dinner and it was ok. paying rm 125 for the purpose of to See and Be Seen. LOL...it was good in the sense of getting to know some of my coursemates in the afterparty..lol...talk to ppl that i havent met before or talk at all...(my uni quite big la..) my coursemates num is around 100+..ok..its not being be anti-social..it was indeed fun except for sum mishaps.
overall, i kinda enjoyed the day..parts of it of course, met alot of nice ppl. =)
then sunday...
i met up with my good fren, Joseph New.
i miss him so much and im so happy to meet back him. im relieved that he's doin ok in his life so far, its a hard journey but keep it up! *hugs*
i need to improve too. my IQ is dropping..lol..and my communication skills is getting worse..sigh..
im trying...
but there's alot of hindrances..alot. in sense of my emotions and physical capabilities, and i pray that it would not affect me that much.
My priority is to get my grades up again and able to enter MAPCU or the TRINotts games for Basketball. so other problems..please fuck off?
Sunday, March 22, 2009
daily rumblings
i'm starting to feel dumber n dumber by the minute..(the syllabus din not help but amplified it more.) there is so much to be done. but so lil time..i felt that the time is flying so fast, im just trying to grab the end of it. hanging on to dear life..( imagine it..its funny)
now im having my break from my classes, frens went to eat, but i nid to settle sum stuffs regarding about my INteractive Learning Barometer that suppsoe to measure my learning capabilities. well, ive submitted it earlier but i did not get my email to confirm my enrolment..so rite now..i couldnt do the survey, which the due date was so be today. >_< ive told my lecturer and he told me to try again, i did, but the mail still havent come yet. so im worried and im so damn frustrated. still waiting for another class to start at 3pm then ends at 5pm. then later move on to frisbee Ultimate Hat league (din noe i play frisbee lehh...coz i noob) lol..anyway, then after that, dinner then bible study with my frens in tts5 then got worship practise.
monday is the most busiet day of the week...and some ppl say business school is sooo free..(dunoo hu leh?)
i still have to design a logo for my hall. and i dun have ideas! argh..why why why.. i had one but mun yee said that unless if i want to get sued, use that idea, app its too close with the nottingham's logo, so i have to think again.
i am still sick, and wei ern keep telling me that my body temperature is abnormal as i am abnormally warm and he kept suspecting that im having fever, but im too numb to even care or notice, until i end up in the clinic for blood test. my mum suspect that im having dengue fever..and wei ern suspect i have chikgugunya fever as i always felt really tired. ( i think its because i always sleep late) >_<
sigh..its almost time for class now. its been long i've ever written so long a blog entry. ( im practising for my upcoming Econs Assignments! LOL..2000 words...hmm..)
now im having my break from my classes, frens went to eat, but i nid to settle sum stuffs regarding about my INteractive Learning Barometer that suppsoe to measure my learning capabilities. well, ive submitted it earlier but i did not get my email to confirm my enrolment..so rite now..i couldnt do the survey, which the due date was so be today. >_< ive told my lecturer and he told me to try again, i did, but the mail still havent come yet. so im worried and im so damn frustrated. still waiting for another class to start at 3pm then ends at 5pm. then later move on to frisbee Ultimate Hat league (din noe i play frisbee lehh...coz i noob) lol..anyway, then after that, dinner then bible study with my frens in tts5 then got worship practise.
monday is the most busiet day of the week...and some ppl say business school is sooo free..(dunoo hu leh?)
i still have to design a logo for my hall. and i dun have ideas! argh..why why why.. i had one but mun yee said that unless if i want to get sued, use that idea, app its too close with the nottingham's logo, so i have to think again.
i am still sick, and wei ern keep telling me that my body temperature is abnormal as i am abnormally warm and he kept suspecting that im having fever, but im too numb to even care or notice, until i end up in the clinic for blood test. my mum suspect that im having dengue fever..and wei ern suspect i have chikgugunya fever as i always felt really tired. ( i think its because i always sleep late) >_<
sigh..its almost time for class now. its been long i've ever written so long a blog entry. ( im practising for my upcoming Econs Assignments! LOL..2000 words...hmm..)
Friday, March 20, 2009
depressed.
dunno why, i felt that my braincells are in comma mode these few weeks.
1. i felt that i talk like a bimbo lately.
no one deserve to hear what im talking about unless i would try to talk like a normal person.im serious..*sigh.
2. i felt that i cant describe in words how i feel.
(about anything) everything just went numb, like all my senses are gone.
3. i think im starting to feel depressed.
hahaha..
4. i felt inadequate.
my studies, my sports, my hobbies..lol
5. i miss my frens..alot.
so lil time, so many to meet up but couldnt have the chance because of my workload. the timing sucks too. sumore its towards the end of my semester for year 1 and i did not really study, i spend most of my time sleeping..>_<
1. i felt that i talk like a bimbo lately.
no one deserve to hear what im talking about unless i would try to talk like a normal person.im serious..*sigh.
2. i felt that i cant describe in words how i feel.
(about anything) everything just went numb, like all my senses are gone.
3. i think im starting to feel depressed.
hahaha..
4. i felt inadequate.
my studies, my sports, my hobbies..lol
5. i miss my frens..alot.
so lil time, so many to meet up but couldnt have the chance because of my workload. the timing sucks too. sumore its towards the end of my semester for year 1 and i did not really study, i spend most of my time sleeping..>_<
Monday, March 16, 2009
i seem to get back on track on loads of stuffs lately,
it happens when i start to fast again..God seems to reveal alot of things to me.
LOL, and oddly enough..its always food that tries to tempt me..lol...when im fasting its always..almost any type of food could tempt me..lol..
okies, back to the topic..
God revealed to me that there is a need among of my frens, so i felt the urge to pray n fast at the same time. it makes me felt more in touch to Him more than anything. i felt Him more closer to Him than ever, and the feeling it's great! =)
it prompt me to fast when i keep losing my ground, i keep focusing on the wrong things..until i used that to counter my own feelings..lol
after ive been dating this guy..lol.. i keep thinking about him.
i just couldnt comprehend this, human love is so fragile and intense,...what about God's love?
if i could think of him nite and day, and waiting for his msges, what about Him? willing to send his only son to die for all of us on the cross?
He's always waiting for us..to say that we love Him...lol...i dun know how to describe it, but the feeling's awesome.
okies, gotta work on my assignments! =)
it happens when i start to fast again..God seems to reveal alot of things to me.
LOL, and oddly enough..its always food that tries to tempt me..lol...when im fasting its always..almost any type of food could tempt me..lol..
okies, back to the topic..
God revealed to me that there is a need among of my frens, so i felt the urge to pray n fast at the same time. it makes me felt more in touch to Him more than anything. i felt Him more closer to Him than ever, and the feeling it's great! =)
it prompt me to fast when i keep losing my ground, i keep focusing on the wrong things..until i used that to counter my own feelings..lol
after ive been dating this guy..lol.. i keep thinking about him.
i just couldnt comprehend this, human love is so fragile and intense,...what about God's love?
if i could think of him nite and day, and waiting for his msges, what about Him? willing to send his only son to die for all of us on the cross?
He's always waiting for us..to say that we love Him...lol...i dun know how to describe it, but the feeling's awesome.
okies, gotta work on my assignments! =)
Saturday, March 7, 2009
screwed
haha..yesh.
alot of things happened, since i did not blog for a very long time..lol...
on 6th of march 2009, i got SUMMON-ed.
and it was 4.30am in the morning..LOL...after DoTa-ing in a local CC.
and its not compoundable. i have to be in court on april sumthin.lol
for what? driving in a opposite direction in a one way street. LOL.. lucky weh..lucky!
sigh..duno how to tell me dad.. =/
alot of things happened, since i did not blog for a very long time..lol...
on 6th of march 2009, i got SUMMON-ed.
and it was 4.30am in the morning..LOL...after DoTa-ing in a local CC.
and its not compoundable. i have to be in court on april sumthin.lol
for what? driving in a opposite direction in a one way street. LOL.. lucky weh..lucky!
sigh..duno how to tell me dad.. =/
Saturday, February 21, 2009
RYAN!
aw.
thanks for the Godiva Chocos. but i really wanna scold you LA! wthell, u better manage ur money rite or else..ur gona be a homeless dude! wat is wrong with you? sending chocolates to me n merie while ur at US? ish..i do worry about you, RYAN.
take care n god bless. i know ur reading this. lol. happy belated valentine's day to you.
thanks for the Godiva Chocos. but i really wanna scold you LA! wthell, u better manage ur money rite or else..ur gona be a homeless dude! wat is wrong with you? sending chocolates to me n merie while ur at US? ish..i do worry about you, RYAN.
take care n god bless. i know ur reading this. lol. happy belated valentine's day to you.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Is this what romance looks like? from Msn..
some short stories that i've came apon while 'renovating' my blog..lol..its really sweet.
Sickness and Health
"Is that your husband?" The ER nurse is pointing to you, the fever-spiked lump who is snoring softly and muttering beside me. We've been here for hours, and for hours I've returned my lips over and over to your scalding forehead, as if to cool it, or, perhaps, to comfort myself. In just a little while longer, we'll find out that what you have is a severe case of strep, and you will swallow the prescribed pills, and I will finally put my lips to your quietly sleeping forehead and feel a welcome coolness.
But for now the nurse's face is creased with compassion and weariness — she is waiting — and it's not really the right time to tell her about your gentle strength: the way you rocked our baby in the sling for hours on end while you graded papers, rocked another baby three years later while you did your anatomy homework, babies peacefully asleep across your broad chest for what feels like my entire adult life. It's not the right time to explain what a funny contradiction you are, a hockey-playing massage therapist, or how just last week you lay your hands on a friend's father while he lay dying in hospice.
She wouldn't understand how funny it is that you gave me bedtime coupons — promising to turn in early on the nights I redeem them — because you're a night owl and I miss you in bed, or how it feels when I come down in the morning to a toasty kitchen because you've already lit a fire in our wood stove. She doesn't know that I'm strangely euphoric, sitting here thinking about how lucky I am to have so much to lose — my rock, my mystery, the love of my life — that I'm sitting here thinking in sickness and in health. I will, I think. I do. But all I can say is yes. "Yes. That's my husband."
Catherine Newman is the author of Waiting for Birdy.
Work and Play
A few months ago, when my husband and I transitioned our son, Sawyer, into a big-boy bed, he refused to nap alone. We explained that we couldn't sleep with him; there was no room in his bed. Of course, he found a loophole. "Sleep next to my bed," he said. "There's room on my rug." Except he kept peeking over his guardrail to giggle at the sight of us. "Use my blanket and build a tent and you lie under it on the rug," he said, "so I don't see you." From our hideout in the tent, we kept still, listening to our little boy rustling like a safari cub.
When Sawyer's breath began to ebb and flow more evenly, I plotted our escape in my mind, then blurted out loud, "Uh oh." Sawyer stirred. I whispered the problem in Geoffrey's ear: "I left my glasses on his nightstand." Geoffrey ducked out to rescue my specs. Sawyer rolled over on his pillow, sighed, and smacked his lips. Geoffrey barely made it back into the tent without waking him. If we tried to leave now, we'd risk Sawyer's hearing the creak of floorboards, the doorknob's click, our dog panting in the hallway.
We didn't dare. We stayed put. Strewn about the rug, the whole Crayola rainbow, plastic dinosaurs, and hardened crumbs of Play-Doh. Along the rug's perimeter, Sawyer had lined up an assortment of toy cars that belonged to my husband when he was a boy. Geoffrey plucked a tiny metal wagon from the lot and whispered in my ear, "I used to put a peanut in this." He hitched it to an old-fashioned yellow car and towed it over my shoulder. It tickled. He put his hand over my mouth to stifle my laugh. I heard a crayon break under the weight of my back. But Sawyer was breathing deeply now, having drifted into the peaceable hum of sleep. I thought we would ready ourselves to leave.
Instead, Geoffrey picked up the stubby end of a green crayon and a ragged piece of construction paper. He drew a hangman hook and the dotted lines of a secret message. I grinned. Geoffrey rolled the crayon toward me so that I could use it to guess a letter. Then I rolled it back to him. I got the first few wrong. One by one, Geoffrey drew a head, a long center line for the body, both legs and a foot. He had the same smirk on his face as when he beats me at tennis — not at all sorry. "Give up?" he mouthed, then filled in the puzzle: You are my sunshine. With the length of my arm, I swept away the mess and snuggled in close.
Pari Chang's essay "Pregnant Pause" appears in the newly published anthology Behind the Bedroom Door, edited by Paula Derrow.
Cream and Sugar
I've been married to Jason for over 17 years. Which means I've woken up beside him something like 46,225 times. That's a really nice thing, easing into the new day with a person you dig. And whether one or both of us are rushing out the door with the kids during the week or we're savoring the horizontal-friendly nature of the weekends, our mornings always kick off the same way: with coffee.
One morning a while back, on a day when I was lucky enough to be the last one up, I bumbled downstairs, went to pour my first cup, and found a little scribble of a note next to the freshly brewed pot.
Three words: Wake up sleeper.
It made me ridiculously happy. There were a few things at work here. There was the white mug thoughtfully pulled from the cabinet and placed on the counter, there was the steamy jet-black coffee waiting to be poured, and there was the message, with its undertones of both comfortable domesticity and flirty middle-school note-passing. I promptly tucked it away for safekeeping.
He was back at it the next morning. And the next. And the next. He wrote on whatever was handy — scraps of paper, backs of envelopes, hotel stationery, Post-its — and about whatever was on his mind.
Some, like the first, were simple a.m. greetings:
First cup and Welcome to the day
Some seemed to have an audible, built-in sigh:
What a week and Keep parenting
Some commemorated a family milestone:
Last Saturday in this house and 16 years!
Some focused on our couple-ness, which is to say putting our parenting purposely out of focus:
City dwelling, late night eating partner! and Super weekend with you
And one was composed of just eight letters and a symbol:
Everyday ♥
I don't think Jason knows I saved these notes, each and every one, in an envelope in the cupboard. We never talked about this exchange; somehow it became a silent, sacred ritual. Which is precisely why, without warning or fanfare, this issue of Redbook will be left open to this very page ... and placed right next to our coffee pot.
Amy Krouse Rosenthal is the creator of "The Beckoning of Lovely," a YouTube project, and the author of Encyclopedia of an Ordinary Life.
Sickness and Health
"Is that your husband?" The ER nurse is pointing to you, the fever-spiked lump who is snoring softly and muttering beside me. We've been here for hours, and for hours I've returned my lips over and over to your scalding forehead, as if to cool it, or, perhaps, to comfort myself. In just a little while longer, we'll find out that what you have is a severe case of strep, and you will swallow the prescribed pills, and I will finally put my lips to your quietly sleeping forehead and feel a welcome coolness.
But for now the nurse's face is creased with compassion and weariness — she is waiting — and it's not really the right time to tell her about your gentle strength: the way you rocked our baby in the sling for hours on end while you graded papers, rocked another baby three years later while you did your anatomy homework, babies peacefully asleep across your broad chest for what feels like my entire adult life. It's not the right time to explain what a funny contradiction you are, a hockey-playing massage therapist, or how just last week you lay your hands on a friend's father while he lay dying in hospice.
She wouldn't understand how funny it is that you gave me bedtime coupons — promising to turn in early on the nights I redeem them — because you're a night owl and I miss you in bed, or how it feels when I come down in the morning to a toasty kitchen because you've already lit a fire in our wood stove. She doesn't know that I'm strangely euphoric, sitting here thinking about how lucky I am to have so much to lose — my rock, my mystery, the love of my life — that I'm sitting here thinking in sickness and in health. I will, I think. I do. But all I can say is yes. "Yes. That's my husband."
Catherine Newman is the author of Waiting for Birdy.
Work and Play
A few months ago, when my husband and I transitioned our son, Sawyer, into a big-boy bed, he refused to nap alone. We explained that we couldn't sleep with him; there was no room in his bed. Of course, he found a loophole. "Sleep next to my bed," he said. "There's room on my rug." Except he kept peeking over his guardrail to giggle at the sight of us. "Use my blanket and build a tent and you lie under it on the rug," he said, "so I don't see you." From our hideout in the tent, we kept still, listening to our little boy rustling like a safari cub.
When Sawyer's breath began to ebb and flow more evenly, I plotted our escape in my mind, then blurted out loud, "Uh oh." Sawyer stirred. I whispered the problem in Geoffrey's ear: "I left my glasses on his nightstand." Geoffrey ducked out to rescue my specs. Sawyer rolled over on his pillow, sighed, and smacked his lips. Geoffrey barely made it back into the tent without waking him. If we tried to leave now, we'd risk Sawyer's hearing the creak of floorboards, the doorknob's click, our dog panting in the hallway.
We didn't dare. We stayed put. Strewn about the rug, the whole Crayola rainbow, plastic dinosaurs, and hardened crumbs of Play-Doh. Along the rug's perimeter, Sawyer had lined up an assortment of toy cars that belonged to my husband when he was a boy. Geoffrey plucked a tiny metal wagon from the lot and whispered in my ear, "I used to put a peanut in this." He hitched it to an old-fashioned yellow car and towed it over my shoulder. It tickled. He put his hand over my mouth to stifle my laugh. I heard a crayon break under the weight of my back. But Sawyer was breathing deeply now, having drifted into the peaceable hum of sleep. I thought we would ready ourselves to leave.
Instead, Geoffrey picked up the stubby end of a green crayon and a ragged piece of construction paper. He drew a hangman hook and the dotted lines of a secret message. I grinned. Geoffrey rolled the crayon toward me so that I could use it to guess a letter. Then I rolled it back to him. I got the first few wrong. One by one, Geoffrey drew a head, a long center line for the body, both legs and a foot. He had the same smirk on his face as when he beats me at tennis — not at all sorry. "Give up?" he mouthed, then filled in the puzzle: You are my sunshine. With the length of my arm, I swept away the mess and snuggled in close.
Pari Chang's essay "Pregnant Pause" appears in the newly published anthology Behind the Bedroom Door, edited by Paula Derrow.
Cream and Sugar
I've been married to Jason for over 17 years. Which means I've woken up beside him something like 46,225 times. That's a really nice thing, easing into the new day with a person you dig. And whether one or both of us are rushing out the door with the kids during the week or we're savoring the horizontal-friendly nature of the weekends, our mornings always kick off the same way: with coffee.
One morning a while back, on a day when I was lucky enough to be the last one up, I bumbled downstairs, went to pour my first cup, and found a little scribble of a note next to the freshly brewed pot.
Three words: Wake up sleeper.
It made me ridiculously happy. There were a few things at work here. There was the white mug thoughtfully pulled from the cabinet and placed on the counter, there was the steamy jet-black coffee waiting to be poured, and there was the message, with its undertones of both comfortable domesticity and flirty middle-school note-passing. I promptly tucked it away for safekeeping.
He was back at it the next morning. And the next. And the next. He wrote on whatever was handy — scraps of paper, backs of envelopes, hotel stationery, Post-its — and about whatever was on his mind.
Some, like the first, were simple a.m. greetings:
First cup and Welcome to the day
Some seemed to have an audible, built-in sigh:
What a week and Keep parenting
Some commemorated a family milestone:
Last Saturday in this house and 16 years!
Some focused on our couple-ness, which is to say putting our parenting purposely out of focus:
City dwelling, late night eating partner! and Super weekend with you
And one was composed of just eight letters and a symbol:
Everyday ♥
I don't think Jason knows I saved these notes, each and every one, in an envelope in the cupboard. We never talked about this exchange; somehow it became a silent, sacred ritual. Which is precisely why, without warning or fanfare, this issue of Redbook will be left open to this very page ... and placed right next to our coffee pot.
Amy Krouse Rosenthal is the creator of "The Beckoning of Lovely," a YouTube project, and the author of Encyclopedia of an Ordinary Life.
Valentine's Day Clues =)
Mabel tips on making a gurl feel special on Valentine's day.
1. Love letters in Books?
get the book that she is currently reading, highlight the words that you want her to read. instead of writing a love letter, highlight the words that u want to use to write ur 'letter'.
for innovation, you could even use electronic reading materials...hm..her journals that she suppose to read for assignments? LOL..
or just buy her a book from her favourite author, then highlight the words for ur 'letter' then giftwrap it. =)
2.<
14 Stalks of Roses
give her one stalk of long stem roses from the 1st day of feb till on the special day..give her a bouquet of roses.
3. Jigsaw My Life?
instead of the hassle of goin out on a fine dining date then movies kinda date, why not spend time together fixing up a jigsaw together? then u can chat without being so self concious about urslf, its romantic? lol..hahaha..becareful with the puzzle when ur making out! dun want jigsaw marks on ur back..! lol..
4. Our Songs
burn a CD of your favourite songs then customize the cover and all..simple?
hmm..anyway..if the gurl really likes you, she'll love anything or everything that you do, so dun fret about it ya? the best tip that i could give anyone, guys or even gurls..just do the things that you like with each other even though you felt like its so simple and not special at all..just fuck it will ya? lol..Valentine's day is suppose to be between the two people, not with the rest of the frens around you. so why do you care about what others thinnk about it? so what if sum of ur frens go for typical fine-dining dinner and whatnots? for all i know, i think the guys would be like.."OMG, the bill!" lol..the flowers! the ticket! the chocolates!
enjoy ppl. and for the singles...dun emo alrite? your day will come. =)
in the meanwhile, party on with ur closest frens! =) cheers.
1. Love letters in Books?
get the book that she is currently reading, highlight the words that you want her to read. instead of writing a love letter, highlight the words that u want to use to write ur 'letter'.
for innovation, you could even use electronic reading materials...hm..her journals that she suppose to read for assignments? LOL..
or just buy her a book from her favourite author, then highlight the words for ur 'letter' then giftwrap it. =)
2.<
14 Stalks of Roses
give her one stalk of long stem roses from the 1st day of feb till on the special day..give her a bouquet of roses.
3. Jigsaw My Life?
instead of the hassle of goin out on a fine dining date then movies kinda date, why not spend time together fixing up a jigsaw together? then u can chat without being so self concious about urslf, its romantic? lol..hahaha..becareful with the puzzle when ur making out! dun want jigsaw marks on ur back..! lol..
4. Our Songs
burn a CD of your favourite songs then customize the cover and all..simple?
hmm..anyway..if the gurl really likes you, she'll love anything or everything that you do, so dun fret about it ya? the best tip that i could give anyone, guys or even gurls..just do the things that you like with each other even though you felt like its so simple and not special at all..just fuck it will ya? lol..Valentine's day is suppose to be between the two people, not with the rest of the frens around you. so why do you care about what others thinnk about it? so what if sum of ur frens go for typical fine-dining dinner and whatnots? for all i know, i think the guys would be like.."OMG, the bill!" lol..the flowers! the ticket! the chocolates!
enjoy ppl. and for the singles...dun emo alrite? your day will come. =)
in the meanwhile, party on with ur closest frens! =) cheers.
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