ending feeling: rejection.

hahahaha...(laughing miserably)

its the end of the semester, last of foundation.

things come n go, but i never expect frens to become the 'things' that come n go.

part of it because everone is busy and drifting away, part of it because of different groups that we're assigned to in semester 1, part of it because of me of my lousy attitude. part of it because of misunderstanding & miscommunication, part of it because of stupid assignments, part of it because of cliques.

but it's ending soon, good or bad, its ending soon.

to all my frens and once were frens, i will forever cherish all of u even though i dont seem like doin so.

for some of those that i did not spend time with, im sorry. for those that i've offended and angered, i'm sorry for doin so. it may have been the moment. i may not say that it's entirely their fault, neither is mine Entirely. for some that i have dissapointed, which i noe maybe alot, i guess apologising is just a minor words and cant be use to be forgiven.

to the people that had read my blog, ur shown my blogs to people that i wrote about, i am sorry for u to read it, because this blog serve only as a purpose for me to express myslf, not to directly let u read and making u feel angry about it. i will not redraw my blog posts as it is my freedom to do so. if u want to read it, i cant stop you. but for everybody's information, its just an expression. after writing it. i nvr really drag that feelings already.

as for other frens that suddenly became cold and far, i duno what happened if u dont say. if i offended you, please confront me, dont go behind my back and tell tales about me. its so tired, running around in circles and tell everone. if u want it to stop, find me n tell me so i can better imporve myslf in the future.

i am very very tired of all this secondary mindless, immature childish games, where ppl avoid you because of rumours. i guess people just grow up physically, many are still stuck in middle school mindsets of befriending who and not. tired, so tired.

like i've told alice, i wish i were to be alone, so that people would not be hurt by me and vice versa.

why do i exist? i cant kill myslf coz, it not nature would want it to be. it must be a reason that im here, but im yet to find out why.

so im stuck here like a seaweed floating in the sea.

Passion, what is it?

Love, do i have it in me?

am i capable to love?

Drifting like a wind, moving like a passing shadow,

to the place i do not know.

i dont know how long i could take it..

tagged.

Instructions:
Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. Who is your all-time inspiration?
Jesus..coz He's the perfect one..lol..He is the only one that wont dissapoint you..

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
yesh.

3. What can you see yourself in the next five years?
hm,,.then i'll be 23 yrs old..yes? haha..erm..working and working..LOL its all about the money money money..! actually..not sure..hope to take another course or go travel..lol before i start work.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
anywhere with beaches..with my close frens..lol

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
that everyone would know the truth..and the truth shall set you free..not to mention one way ticket to heaven!amen to that..!

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yesh..and its one of the most beautiful things that would only last for minutes..enjoy while u can.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
my freaking mind

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
INVEST!..so i'll make more millions...wakakkaakka...snort snort..

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
depends.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
crazy, loud and sarcastic..hmm..sound like me ya?

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
currently..improve on ur english..lol..i will help you...! erm..nothing else..LOL

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
backstabbers. think ur ninja ah...? i prefer samurai..more honourable..they stab u in the front..LOL

13. What is your ambition?
to be a ambassador of Christ..to be a mentor to sumbody in my life.

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
hurl it rite to my face..but please..politely..lol..i rather them tell me properly.i would not suggest them to not tell me coz then i duno what my mistakes were.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my walk with God.

16. Describe yourself. 3pros and 3 cons:
pros: creative/sumtimes..frenly, i think.. uh...cant figure out the next one
cons; to dominant, sumtimes, lazy, and not likable.( face problem..LOL)

17. Are you a pessimist?
the half empty or the half full? the half empty one.

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
temperment.

19. Is there anything that u have done which u regret?
plenty...but He's mercy is new every morning.

20. What makes you different?
what makes you different, makes you beautiful. everyone is different in their own special way. i dont know..only other ppl would c you in that way.