ending feeling: rejection.

hahahaha...(laughing miserably)

its the end of the semester, last of foundation.

things come n go, but i never expect frens to become the 'things' that come n go.

part of it because everone is busy and drifting away, part of it because of different groups that we're assigned to in semester 1, part of it because of me of my lousy attitude. part of it because of misunderstanding & miscommunication, part of it because of stupid assignments, part of it because of cliques.

but it's ending soon, good or bad, its ending soon.

to all my frens and once were frens, i will forever cherish all of u even though i dont seem like doin so.

for some of those that i did not spend time with, im sorry. for those that i've offended and angered, i'm sorry for doin so. it may have been the moment. i may not say that it's entirely their fault, neither is mine Entirely. for some that i have dissapointed, which i noe maybe alot, i guess apologising is just a minor words and cant be use to be forgiven.

to the people that had read my blog, ur shown my blogs to people that i wrote about, i am sorry for u to read it, because this blog serve only as a purpose for me to express myslf, not to directly let u read and making u feel angry about it. i will not redraw my blog posts as it is my freedom to do so. if u want to read it, i cant stop you. but for everybody's information, its just an expression. after writing it. i nvr really drag that feelings already.

as for other frens that suddenly became cold and far, i duno what happened if u dont say. if i offended you, please confront me, dont go behind my back and tell tales about me. its so tired, running around in circles and tell everone. if u want it to stop, find me n tell me so i can better imporve myslf in the future.

i am very very tired of all this secondary mindless, immature childish games, where ppl avoid you because of rumours. i guess people just grow up physically, many are still stuck in middle school mindsets of befriending who and not. tired, so tired.

like i've told alice, i wish i were to be alone, so that people would not be hurt by me and vice versa.

why do i exist? i cant kill myslf coz, it not nature would want it to be. it must be a reason that im here, but im yet to find out why.

so im stuck here like a seaweed floating in the sea.

Passion, what is it?

Love, do i have it in me?

am i capable to love?

Drifting like a wind, moving like a passing shadow,

to the place i do not know.

i dont know how long i could take it..