happy father's day.

why does everything i do is not up to your standard at all?

like today's sis shopping for laptop. you were not there..u were working.

we search n found one, we're quite happy with it. but when u came back, only one comment that u gave.

'' Toshiba? i expected another brand..of all brand u all choose Toshiba?''

'' at least its not fujitsu..expensive and its not really gd based on your experience using it'' i've said.

and you gave me the look,

the look that always:

i was never too good for you.

i was borned a gurl. thats why grandpa n grandma dun care bout me. as though im just a shadow.

i was never pretty enough in your eyes.

i was never smart enough for you.

i was never a sweet and obedient enough as a daughter for you.

i was too head strong, too stubborn, but unfortunately i was not born as a boy.

i was never hardworking enough in your eyes.

in your eyes, i only know how to talk back. spend your money.

i got scholarship. you think the college is not gd enuf.

i spend 2 months to get scholarship in sumthin i wanted to do.

in two minutes, you objected me.

u put me in a uni that know im so confuse with my degree.

im so scared i would fail, fail to succeed in your eyes.

i love you dad.

but sumtimes its so hard to live in your expectations.