Mabel Kuan is trying to deny herself, picking up the Cross even though it sometimes its so heavy, stumbling to following the Author of Love.
God has blessed me with so many many things in my life, i don't know where to start.
He has given me responsibilities that i've never known i could do, frankly, without His help, i confidently say i couldn't. He was like a pillow to me, granting me rest when i need the most. He never and will not ever leave me. He is making miracles in UNMC CF. i believe God has prepare each Christians in UNMC for something great. i can feel it, but i still cant see it coz God has not revealed it entirely yet. Its so excited!
Yet, even outwardly i am wasting away, i felt like inwardly i am being renewed day by day by Him, i thank Him again. He gave me amazing emotional strength to go on despite problems that i am facing and He is rebuilding my relationship with my family. Its a great improvement for me.
Friends,
do not give up in anything that you are trying to do. even sometimes you felt lonely and tired, always remember that the Lord is always with you no matter what. whatever things that you had done, its not too big for His mercy and love. He is Grace, He is love. He knows and He still loves. Never underestimate His ability to love.
Friends,
i apologised for not being a example to everyone as a christian. i know i failed in many ways. i am sorry that i cause people to stumble because of my ways. Old habits are hard to die, but they don't mean that they don't die, its just abit harder that usual. grant me patience and self-control, by God's grace, i pray that i could be more like Him.
May the Grace of God, the Love of Jesus Christ, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with You all.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Friday, October 2, 2009
New Sem for Year 2.
heyheyhey..Year 2 is here!
im really happy that i get to go back to uni and meet my frens and meet New frens and everything...buttt....sigh, its gonna be hectic!
then now i cant really spend much time with my other frens who is not from uni anymore...
i need to choose which optional module and fast!...sigh...
i need to lose my fats..seriously.
i have to keep track on what ive spend...sigh...
growing up is such a pain in the ass.
im really happy that i get to go back to uni and meet my frens and meet New frens and everything...buttt....sigh, its gonna be hectic!
then now i cant really spend much time with my other frens who is not from uni anymore...
i need to choose which optional module and fast!...sigh...
i need to lose my fats..seriously.
i have to keep track on what ive spend...sigh...
growing up is such a pain in the ass.
Monday, August 17, 2009
haha, gurls are seriously special.
Surfing along the internet and the facebook, of course i kinda notice sumthin.
although alot of gurls would actually disagree with me, i dun mind coz this wont apply to everyone. its just my personal view.
the gurls that i've observed are randomly selected and not spesificly mention, just generally, if anyone of u are offended, i am truly sorry, i dont mean to hurt anyone.
i found out that alot of gurls that ive met long time ago when they were single, they were hard, fierce ( not the fierce angry cat fierce) but more to determination kinda fierce, the kind of energy that the emit a kind of passion that they need to succeed in accomplishing sumthin in their own life. after a few years, when everyone has their own thing to do, meeting back them through fb or face to face, i've notice some of them has been refined, more subtle, more ladylike, and most of all, more sexier, as they had discover they could move a person's heart by their looks. alot of them did not notice, or havent discover the power or some say 'talent' in them. when i talk to most of them, i felt so happy for them..esp for those who told me that they couldnt find the other half to share their life with, but hey, life is still along way to go, and im happy for those who already found sumone that love them as much as a human could, and accept them for who they are, regardless of their attitude, looks and personality. Loving sumone or accepting the love from someone else makes a person shine, because they felt appreciated i guess. and i've seen their pretty faces smile while mentioning that special person that they had in mind, it automatically makes me smile too.=)
for the rest of the gurls that havent..take note ( HAVENT, not NEVER) lol..embrace your life with joy and gladness because that's what will attract the right guys at the right time. having a person to share your life could be awesome, but being with yourself and take time to discover who you really are is even more enlightening. i took the time off for a year and ive discover amazing things about myself, and i thought that i knew myself more than anyone, spend time with God and having a awesome time to know more about His Majesty is the time that i rediscover myself more than anything. Take a break from everything and just relax and talk to Him is enough for a whole session of physcotherapy. lol..trust me, coz He is Your creator, and He knows your deepest darkest secrets, your greatest fear and your hopes and dreams. the most awesome thing is, He knows everything AND He still wants You to be His beloved daughter. Nothing can separate You and Him but Your own decision, whether to accept Him then He will take away everything that hurts you, or you would just be back at square one? Will you open to Him with His open arms or are you sticking urself back to that hellhole? i dont know about you but i think the 1st suggestion is much nicer..lol.
and when the right time comes, (when is the Right time?) i dont know, He knows, (impatient?) pray for patience, in a meanwhile, do sumthin that you love and dont worry, life is too short for so much worrying. Be confident and smile even when the world gives you shit at times, but if there were no shits, then you wont know that ur living in this sick sick world..lol.
although alot of gurls would actually disagree with me, i dun mind coz this wont apply to everyone. its just my personal view.
the gurls that i've observed are randomly selected and not spesificly mention, just generally, if anyone of u are offended, i am truly sorry, i dont mean to hurt anyone.
i found out that alot of gurls that ive met long time ago when they were single, they were hard, fierce ( not the fierce angry cat fierce) but more to determination kinda fierce, the kind of energy that the emit a kind of passion that they need to succeed in accomplishing sumthin in their own life. after a few years, when everyone has their own thing to do, meeting back them through fb or face to face, i've notice some of them has been refined, more subtle, more ladylike, and most of all, more sexier, as they had discover they could move a person's heart by their looks. alot of them did not notice, or havent discover the power or some say 'talent' in them. when i talk to most of them, i felt so happy for them..esp for those who told me that they couldnt find the other half to share their life with, but hey, life is still along way to go, and im happy for those who already found sumone that love them as much as a human could, and accept them for who they are, regardless of their attitude, looks and personality. Loving sumone or accepting the love from someone else makes a person shine, because they felt appreciated i guess. and i've seen their pretty faces smile while mentioning that special person that they had in mind, it automatically makes me smile too.=)
for the rest of the gurls that havent..take note ( HAVENT, not NEVER) lol..embrace your life with joy and gladness because that's what will attract the right guys at the right time. having a person to share your life could be awesome, but being with yourself and take time to discover who you really are is even more enlightening. i took the time off for a year and ive discover amazing things about myself, and i thought that i knew myself more than anyone, spend time with God and having a awesome time to know more about His Majesty is the time that i rediscover myself more than anything. Take a break from everything and just relax and talk to Him is enough for a whole session of physcotherapy. lol..trust me, coz He is Your creator, and He knows your deepest darkest secrets, your greatest fear and your hopes and dreams. the most awesome thing is, He knows everything AND He still wants You to be His beloved daughter. Nothing can separate You and Him but Your own decision, whether to accept Him then He will take away everything that hurts you, or you would just be back at square one? Will you open to Him with His open arms or are you sticking urself back to that hellhole? i dont know about you but i think the 1st suggestion is much nicer..lol.
and when the right time comes, (when is the Right time?) i dont know, He knows, (impatient?) pray for patience, in a meanwhile, do sumthin that you love and dont worry, life is too short for so much worrying. Be confident and smile even when the world gives you shit at times, but if there were no shits, then you wont know that ur living in this sick sick world..lol.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Champagne Supernova-Oasis
One of my current favourite songs.
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky
Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams, she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova
'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why
Why-why-why-why-i-i
(guitar solo)
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova
'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why
Why-why-why-why-i-i
(a really long guitar solo)
(background - sounds like a bunch of "No"'s)
(birds chirping)
(more guitar)
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
We were getting high <-- 9 times, background "Oooh-oooh"
(Fades out 7th-9th times to just one "Oooh-oooh")
(Song gets really quiet, fades to a peaceful guitar solo.)
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky
Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams, she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova
'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why
Why-why-why-why-i-i
(guitar solo)
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova
'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why
Why-why-why-why-i-i
(a really long guitar solo)
(background - sounds like a bunch of "No"'s)
(birds chirping)
(more guitar)
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
We were getting high <-- 9 times, background "Oooh-oooh"
(Fades out 7th-9th times to just one "Oooh-oooh")
(Song gets really quiet, fades to a peaceful guitar solo.)
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Pondering
i realise how fragile a life is.
like a rose, beautiful yet fragile.
a reminder for people that complaints about how bad life is, including myself sometimes, that there is more to life than just complaints.
live for a purpose, set a purpose and you will know why God place you here for a special reason.
a smile to a random stranger could even change his ways or thoughts, smile is infectious, in a very good way. =)
learn to appreciate simple things in life, take a break and watch flower weeds growing at the side of the roads, wondering at even that harsh of a condiiton, it still finds a way to bloom despite its circumstances.
learn to love the people that you find the hardest to love, because those are the people that needs more love than ever.
if you're missing sumone badly that had left this world, be glad because they are watching you from above.
dreams are blueprints for extraordinary things that have yet to happen.
live to love and likewise, love to live, not knowing when we would leave this world.
learn to appreciate the people around you, dont take things for granted, dun leave spaces for regrets.
like a rose, beautiful yet fragile.
a reminder for people that complaints about how bad life is, including myself sometimes, that there is more to life than just complaints.
live for a purpose, set a purpose and you will know why God place you here for a special reason.
a smile to a random stranger could even change his ways or thoughts, smile is infectious, in a very good way. =)
learn to appreciate simple things in life, take a break and watch flower weeds growing at the side of the roads, wondering at even that harsh of a condiiton, it still finds a way to bloom despite its circumstances.
learn to love the people that you find the hardest to love, because those are the people that needs more love than ever.
if you're missing sumone badly that had left this world, be glad because they are watching you from above.
dreams are blueprints for extraordinary things that have yet to happen.
live to love and likewise, love to live, not knowing when we would leave this world.
learn to appreciate the people around you, dont take things for granted, dun leave spaces for regrets.
Monday, August 3, 2009
rest in peace, Gary Leon Robert.
facebook is sure useful. somewhat..
most of the time, facebook tells us who's with who, who went where, who went out with who, all the happy happy stuffs..oh, sumtimes it has who broke up with who and sad stuffs like that..but who would want to have a post or a link post saying that your friend had passed away?
after a long tired day, i received a very shocking news.
a dear friend of mine, her brother had passed away.
its just too shocking. far too shocking. 22 years old, no sickness, was running for a adidas event, king of the road. collaspe, then missing, found dead at the stadium basement.
http://www.mstar.com.my/berita/cerita.asp?file=/2009/8/3/mstar_berita/20090803211452&sec=mstar_beritahttp://forum.lowyat.net/topic/1117234
it just make me realise how fragile this life could be.
he is just 22 years old, a whole life ahead of him, a bright future.
i hope there's more investigation follow-up on his case.
May God continue to bless her family with Strength and courage to handle this situation. O Lord, please grant them peace and let Your presence be known to them. Lord, You are a justice God, and he is your son. Please grant the officers the wisdom to handle this situation. May Your hands be apon those that is involved. In Jesus name i pray, Amen.
most of the time, facebook tells us who's with who, who went where, who went out with who, all the happy happy stuffs..oh, sumtimes it has who broke up with who and sad stuffs like that..but who would want to have a post or a link post saying that your friend had passed away?
after a long tired day, i received a very shocking news.
a dear friend of mine, her brother had passed away.
its just too shocking. far too shocking. 22 years old, no sickness, was running for a adidas event, king of the road. collaspe, then missing, found dead at the stadium basement.
http://www.mstar.com.my/berita/cerita.asp?file=/2009/8/3/mstar_berita/20090803211452&sec=mstar_beritahttp://forum.lowyat.net/topic/1117234
it just make me realise how fragile this life could be.
he is just 22 years old, a whole life ahead of him, a bright future.
i hope there's more investigation follow-up on his case.
May God continue to bless her family with Strength and courage to handle this situation. O Lord, please grant them peace and let Your presence be known to them. Lord, You are a justice God, and he is your son. Please grant the officers the wisdom to handle this situation. May Your hands be apon those that is involved. In Jesus name i pray, Amen.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Lost memories.
been springcleaning for the past few months..
guess what? ive lost two of my quite most important thing..
1. my black notebook.
written everything from my new ideas for my dream business, to my most inner personal moments (hey, i'm still old fashion pen-and-paper kinda person) and my poems.
2. my Ziljian BlackSkulls pair of Drumsticks. luckliy i stil have my promark and travis barker's white drumsticks..
at least this i can buy back but still, i have fond memories with this drumstick..bitemarks n everything! lol..note: im no dog. "bitemarks" by the drum.
sigh..thats the bad news. psst..: anyone that found any of those items..tell me please? will be rewarded..see how badly i wanna find back this two beloved things of mine? T_T
good news is..my dad bought me a jigsaw puzzle! its so cute, it has 1000 pieces. (hmm..to occupy my sien-ness at home!)
ahahaha..but still..i still long for my two stuffs..
guess what? ive lost two of my quite most important thing..
1. my black notebook.
written everything from my new ideas for my dream business, to my most inner personal moments (hey, i'm still old fashion pen-and-paper kinda person) and my poems.
2. my Ziljian BlackSkulls pair of Drumsticks. luckliy i stil have my promark and travis barker's white drumsticks..
at least this i can buy back but still, i have fond memories with this drumstick..bitemarks n everything! lol..note: im no dog. "bitemarks" by the drum.
sigh..thats the bad news. psst..: anyone that found any of those items..tell me please? will be rewarded..see how badly i wanna find back this two beloved things of mine? T_T
good news is..my dad bought me a jigsaw puzzle! its so cute, it has 1000 pieces. (hmm..to occupy my sien-ness at home!)
ahahaha..but still..i still long for my two stuffs..
Sunday, July 5, 2009
annoyed..
today i went to the pets fair in midvalley..damn lotsa ppl
so many cute cats and dogs...and lil newts too! ahhh...i nearly bought them back...
then got free samples of dog food for my dogs..brought it back gave them to eat..august had fish and rice at 1st, then shadow got fish and potato..then i just gave them in their dogbowls.
then funny thing is, my mum ask me to switch coz the one that i gave shadow was bit smaller bites compare to august, my mum put it since august is old so she ask me to switch it..so i did, guess what? august barked at shadow for 'stealing' is food, and he did not touch his switched food. then go and fight with shadow for his food. then with a sigh, i changed back..i told my mum and my sis said that coz august is a chinese dog..lol..fish and rice..shih tzu originated from china ma..then shadow, originate from germany thats why he likes fish and potato...weird.
while i was upstairs, then suddenly my sis called me, then i did not hear what she says later, i ask what, she didnt reply, then annoyed i went down..she ask me to watch a vid clip on Michael Jackson..i was annoyed coz i dun wanna watch it and that time she didnt tell me why i have to go downstairs, i told her then my mum told me off. she kept saying that she heard my sis ask me to go down to watch that stupid clip but i did not hear it then my mum keep insisting why im being so difficult. its just annoying. i parked my butt on my seat happily on9ling just to move coz i duno what my sis want from me. and she ask me to watch a stupid vid clip.
......
so many cute cats and dogs...and lil newts too! ahhh...i nearly bought them back...
then got free samples of dog food for my dogs..brought it back gave them to eat..august had fish and rice at 1st, then shadow got fish and potato..then i just gave them in their dogbowls.
then funny thing is, my mum ask me to switch coz the one that i gave shadow was bit smaller bites compare to august, my mum put it since august is old so she ask me to switch it..so i did, guess what? august barked at shadow for 'stealing' is food, and he did not touch his switched food. then go and fight with shadow for his food. then with a sigh, i changed back..i told my mum and my sis said that coz august is a chinese dog..lol..fish and rice..shih tzu originated from china ma..then shadow, originate from germany thats why he likes fish and potato...weird.
while i was upstairs, then suddenly my sis called me, then i did not hear what she says later, i ask what, she didnt reply, then annoyed i went down..she ask me to watch a vid clip on Michael Jackson..i was annoyed coz i dun wanna watch it and that time she didnt tell me why i have to go downstairs, i told her then my mum told me off. she kept saying that she heard my sis ask me to go down to watch that stupid clip but i did not hear it then my mum keep insisting why im being so difficult. its just annoying. i parked my butt on my seat happily on9ling just to move coz i duno what my sis want from me. and she ask me to watch a stupid vid clip.
......
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Hospital Date? lol
hmm..ive just showered and im tired..but happy. =)
today was the day that my mum made an appointment for me n Wei Ern to see a bone specialist in a Hospital. it started out like this, last few weeks, ive start having pain on my knees, sumtimes to the point of numbness and it made me quite difficult to walk. it all due to the injury that i have during the easter play and the basketball training that i had. not to mention previous injuries that ive suffered since i was 17.
i found out that my tendon is still weak and i need to properly care for my knee before doin any sports..and as for wei ern, this second appointment has confirm that his knee needs an operation. they found out that his 2 ligamen on his knee was teared and they need to fixed it back before its too late. so after our Langkawi trip, he has to do his operation most probably on 13th July...lets pray that this operation will be a successful one so that he could cont to play whatever sports ( esp squash..lol...) he likes...>_<
so the day before the appointment i was talking to him on the phone dicussing on sum random topic about our past injuries that we had during our childhood...it was funny because we both had injuries on the same body part..lol..ecg. both our right knee, left brow we both had a scar and we both hurt our left hand. we found it extremely hilarious because of the coincidence.
anyway, after we left, we went back home to fetch my sis and then me my mum and wei ern head down to klcc. went there to eat, buy books then went to watch movie coz my mum want to watch transformer..3 of us watch for the second time..still a great movie, lol..but my mum was abit dizzy coz of too many actions in the movie. then we had dinner and we head back to our house. psst..! KLCC parking damn expensive! rm 20.50 for 8 hrs...lol
we all had a great time and im glad that my mum is ok with wei ern..lol...and vice versa.
sigh, and i bought my jeans! yay...~ lol
today was the day that my mum made an appointment for me n Wei Ern to see a bone specialist in a Hospital. it started out like this, last few weeks, ive start having pain on my knees, sumtimes to the point of numbness and it made me quite difficult to walk. it all due to the injury that i have during the easter play and the basketball training that i had. not to mention previous injuries that ive suffered since i was 17.
i found out that my tendon is still weak and i need to properly care for my knee before doin any sports..and as for wei ern, this second appointment has confirm that his knee needs an operation. they found out that his 2 ligamen on his knee was teared and they need to fixed it back before its too late. so after our Langkawi trip, he has to do his operation most probably on 13th July...lets pray that this operation will be a successful one so that he could cont to play whatever sports ( esp squash..lol...) he likes...>_<
so the day before the appointment i was talking to him on the phone dicussing on sum random topic about our past injuries that we had during our childhood...it was funny because we both had injuries on the same body part..lol..ecg. both our right knee, left brow we both had a scar and we both hurt our left hand. we found it extremely hilarious because of the coincidence.
anyway, after we left, we went back home to fetch my sis and then me my mum and wei ern head down to klcc. went there to eat, buy books then went to watch movie coz my mum want to watch transformer..3 of us watch for the second time..still a great movie, lol..but my mum was abit dizzy coz of too many actions in the movie. then we had dinner and we head back to our house. psst..! KLCC parking damn expensive! rm 20.50 for 8 hrs...lol
we all had a great time and im glad that my mum is ok with wei ern..lol...and vice versa.
sigh, and i bought my jeans! yay...~ lol
Sunday, June 28, 2009
the longest tag ever...sweat..by ivy..lol
1.My Name : Mabel Kuan
2.My Birthday : 4th January
3.Who tagged you : Ivy
4.Name 5 best friends : i dun have best frens..i have close frens..coz all of them are best! =p
5.What do you wished for birthday : still have a few months to go..let me think..lol
6.Happy things that happened recently : i got my results and i get to proceed to year 2 without resitting my papers.
7.Most stressed about recently : I want to see Wei Ern. lol..that made me stress...coz i cant see him that often..
8.What is your dream about future : My love ones would be in good health.
9.Do you have someone you like : haha..yeap
10.Will you visit your ex-teacher in a classmate gathering : depends on which teacher.
11.Most happy to hang out with : The ppl that i love.
12.If two of your friends are having conflicts : be their listener if they want sum1 to listen but will not try to solve it, coz it will work out eventually..
13.Where is preferably the place to go with your lover : Anywhere, lol..as long as im with him.
14.What to do in Christmas : Eat! carolling! EAt! lol...get pressies!
15.Who do you want to celebrate Christmas with : spend it with my frens and family.
16.Bad habit on waking up early in the morning : i will yawn alot...my eyes will be half close..lol
17.How many siblings do you have : one.
18.Favourite song(Female) : ahahahaha..Lady GAGA's newest single...no la..its actually Again by Yui.
19.Favourite song(Male) : John Legend Ordinary ppl.
20.Favourite Colour : earth colours? depends on my mood..
21.Flush before using the toilets? : depends.
22.Love me not? : love hu?
23.Affectionate to guys or girls : both.
24.What do you want to shout out loudly : I'm sweating! argh!
25.Do you dare to go toilets alone in the middle of the night? : Yeap.
26.Will you take off your undies in while in the WC : uhh..depends what im doin inside there? what kinda lame ass quest is tis? Ivy...! lol
27.Who’s the bastard : The rude ones.
28.What’s the current affection : Affection for my skin..sobsob..
29.Ugly when asleep: maybe...with my drool and snoring, i bet not..! lol..
30.Whats the time now : 9.46pm
31.Do you hate the person who tagged you : irritated why she tagged me this stupid long post..! LOL~
32.Weight : 45kg?
33.Weather today : felt like in sum oven or sumthin...
34.Are you pregnant : wtf..not now.
35.What will you do if you win a lottery : INvest! LOL~bwaahahah
36.An activity that must be done while in the Uni -life : DOTA n basketball..of course..lepaking n study too..lol
person in ur mind now:
1. wei ern
2. ivy
3.merissa
4. joanne
5.wy hoong
6.shi wei
7. alice
8.wayne
9.hock ann
10.ck
01-?Does no.4 know no.6??: yeap!
02-?No.10 is a male or??: hahaha..i didnt check but im sure he's a male..lol
03-? The hobby of no.8?: ahahhaha...racing?
04-?Does no. 1 have any siblings?: yeap..!
05-?The surname of of no.7?: Liew
06-?Does no.10 have alot of friends??: yea? why this quest like no 10 so much? lol
07-?Anyone tackling no.4??: huhuhu..complicated ler...lol =p
08-?If no.2 is being introduced??: my gurl..lol
09-?The favourite colour of no.6?: blue..HOt pink..waakakakakaa
12-?Where is no.5 studying currently??: Notts
13-?How do you know no.10??: BBQ party for a gurlfren.
14-?Whats the difference between the birth month of no.1 and you??: 9 months...! lol...
15-?Ever hang out with no.9??: mamak fellowship..yea..!
16-?Do you like to chat with no.2??: yeap...she always giggles...that cheers me up..lol when i talk to her..
17-?Like to be with no.3??: YEAP! lol
18-?How do you think about no.7??: sadist..! lol and squirrel..ask joseph about it..lol~
19-?How do you think about no.9??: a good fren
20-?Do you love no.5??: as a fren, yes lol
1.Who tagged you with this questionnaire? : IVY la...~
2.How long have you known him/her : hm..since primary skool? lol~
3.Do you think that he/she is important to you? : Yeap!
4.Your relationship with him/her : friends la..=) gurlfrens.
5.Whats his/hers hobby? : EAting! ..lol..sorry ivy..! lol..playing with her cute puppy? lol
6.What do you think about his/her personality? : lovable!
7.His/her points of importance in your heart : wa..wat is this..everyone is important in my heart..=)
*1st thing before sleep : wash my feet, brush teeth n wash face.
*1st thing after awaking from sleep : grab my specs.
*Your idol : no idol..
*Favourite season : Spring.
*Worked part-time before? : Yes.
*Times worked : Once..if u count pay..lol
*Countries that wanted to go the most : rome..ireland..new zealand..
*Personality hated : rude, selfish
*Are you a crybaby? : yeap
*You laugh alot? : manically at times, yes..
*Do you like to go out alone? : When im emoing
*What time will you wake up if it's a holiday? : wahahaha..i wake when i wake.
*Today’s weather(Sunny Rainy Cloudy): Incredibly hot!
*Choose between Friends and Lover : friends, coz lover is my fren too..my bestie in fact.
*Choose between Chances and Fates : chances.
*Are you narcissist? : sumitmes..lol..when no one's looking.
*Is this questionnaire long? : Super!
*How to make yourself feel better every time? : food! and time with my boyfriend..or sleep.
*Favourite food : almost everything...except for slimey veggies, brinjals...eee
*Do you like ice? : Yes.
*Are you full of happiness? : im quite cloudy.
*Who are the friends that you care the most? : those are in trouble.
*What's the most important item in your bed room? : everything! lol
*Most consistent dream at sleep : nitemares.
*Will you forgive a guy that is mentally disobedient? : wahts mentally disobedient? meaning he cant controll being disobedient?
*Whats the meaning of life? : who know? im finding out myslf..
*Do you know?(See if you can answer this!): know that this questionnaire is stupid? Yes.
*When do you hate me? : i hate you when i do..(to the questionnaire)
*Like the day you were born or been into the society?: well, u cant change rite?
*Like Taoism or Confucianism? : neither
*Favourite cake? : Raspberry cheese..=)
*Can we stop this game now? : ...
*Do you like sardins? ^^ : yeap
*Who knows you the best? : God
*IQ higher or EQ? : lol...nerd.
*Computer or Mobile Phone : neither.
*Prefer to sleep or play? : Sleep.
*Friendster or Facebook? : Fb.
*Whats your wish right now? : be with him.
*Tired? : quite.
*Favourite drinks : pink lemonade.
2.My Birthday : 4th January
3.Who tagged you : Ivy
4.Name 5 best friends : i dun have best frens..i have close frens..coz all of them are best! =p
5.What do you wished for birthday : still have a few months to go..let me think..lol
6.Happy things that happened recently : i got my results and i get to proceed to year 2 without resitting my papers.
7.Most stressed about recently : I want to see Wei Ern. lol..that made me stress...coz i cant see him that often..
8.What is your dream about future : My love ones would be in good health.
9.Do you have someone you like : haha..yeap
10.Will you visit your ex-teacher in a classmate gathering : depends on which teacher.
11.Most happy to hang out with : The ppl that i love.
12.If two of your friends are having conflicts : be their listener if they want sum1 to listen but will not try to solve it, coz it will work out eventually..
13.Where is preferably the place to go with your lover : Anywhere, lol..as long as im with him.
14.What to do in Christmas : Eat! carolling! EAt! lol...get pressies!
15.Who do you want to celebrate Christmas with : spend it with my frens and family.
16.Bad habit on waking up early in the morning : i will yawn alot...my eyes will be half close..lol
17.How many siblings do you have : one.
18.Favourite song(Female) : ahahahaha..Lady GAGA's newest single...no la..its actually Again by Yui.
19.Favourite song(Male) : John Legend Ordinary ppl.
20.Favourite Colour : earth colours? depends on my mood..
21.Flush before using the toilets? : depends.
22.Love me not? : love hu?
23.Affectionate to guys or girls : both.
24.What do you want to shout out loudly : I'm sweating! argh!
25.Do you dare to go toilets alone in the middle of the night? : Yeap.
26.Will you take off your undies in while in the WC : uhh..depends what im doin inside there? what kinda lame ass quest is tis? Ivy...! lol
27.Who’s the bastard : The rude ones.
28.What’s the current affection : Affection for my skin..sobsob..
29.Ugly when asleep: maybe...with my drool and snoring, i bet not..! lol..
30.Whats the time now : 9.46pm
31.Do you hate the person who tagged you : irritated why she tagged me this stupid long post..! LOL~
32.Weight : 45kg?
33.Weather today : felt like in sum oven or sumthin...
34.Are you pregnant : wtf..not now.
35.What will you do if you win a lottery : INvest! LOL~bwaahahah
36.An activity that must be done while in the Uni -life : DOTA n basketball..of course..lepaking n study too..lol
person in ur mind now:
1. wei ern
2. ivy
3.merissa
4. joanne
5.wy hoong
6.shi wei
7. alice
8.wayne
9.hock ann
10.ck
01-?Does no.4 know no.6??: yeap!
02-?No.10 is a male or??: hahaha..i didnt check but im sure he's a male..lol
03-? The hobby of no.8?: ahahhaha...racing?
04-?Does no. 1 have any siblings?: yeap..!
05-?The surname of of no.7?: Liew
06-?Does no.10 have alot of friends??: yea? why this quest like no 10 so much? lol
07-?Anyone tackling no.4??: huhuhu..complicated ler...lol =p
08-?If no.2 is being introduced??: my gurl..lol
09-?The favourite colour of no.6?: blue..HOt pink..waakakakakaa
12-?Where is no.5 studying currently??: Notts
13-?How do you know no.10??: BBQ party for a gurlfren.
14-?Whats the difference between the birth month of no.1 and you??: 9 months...! lol...
15-?Ever hang out with no.9??: mamak fellowship..yea..!
16-?Do you like to chat with no.2??: yeap...she always giggles...that cheers me up..lol when i talk to her..
17-?Like to be with no.3??: YEAP! lol
18-?How do you think about no.7??: sadist..! lol and squirrel..ask joseph about it..lol~
19-?How do you think about no.9??: a good fren
20-?Do you love no.5??: as a fren, yes lol
1.Who tagged you with this questionnaire? : IVY la...~
2.How long have you known him/her : hm..since primary skool? lol~
3.Do you think that he/she is important to you? : Yeap!
4.Your relationship with him/her : friends la..=) gurlfrens.
5.Whats his/hers hobby? : EAting! ..lol..sorry ivy..! lol..playing with her cute puppy? lol
6.What do you think about his/her personality? : lovable!
7.His/her points of importance in your heart : wa..wat is this..everyone is important in my heart..=)
*1st thing before sleep : wash my feet, brush teeth n wash face.
*1st thing after awaking from sleep : grab my specs.
*Your idol : no idol..
*Favourite season : Spring.
*Worked part-time before? : Yes.
*Times worked : Once..if u count pay..lol
*Countries that wanted to go the most : rome..ireland..new zealand..
*Personality hated : rude, selfish
*Are you a crybaby? : yeap
*You laugh alot? : manically at times, yes..
*Do you like to go out alone? : When im emoing
*What time will you wake up if it's a holiday? : wahahaha..i wake when i wake.
*Today’s weather(Sunny Rainy Cloudy): Incredibly hot!
*Choose between Friends and Lover : friends, coz lover is my fren too..my bestie in fact.
*Choose between Chances and Fates : chances.
*Are you narcissist? : sumitmes..lol..when no one's looking.
*Is this questionnaire long? : Super!
*How to make yourself feel better every time? : food! and time with my boyfriend..or sleep.
*Favourite food : almost everything...except for slimey veggies, brinjals...eee
*Do you like ice? : Yes.
*Are you full of happiness? : im quite cloudy.
*Who are the friends that you care the most? : those are in trouble.
*What's the most important item in your bed room? : everything! lol
*Most consistent dream at sleep : nitemares.
*Will you forgive a guy that is mentally disobedient? : wahts mentally disobedient? meaning he cant controll being disobedient?
*Whats the meaning of life? : who know? im finding out myslf..
*Do you know?(See if you can answer this!): know that this questionnaire is stupid? Yes.
*When do you hate me? : i hate you when i do..(to the questionnaire)
*Like the day you were born or been into the society?: well, u cant change rite?
*Like Taoism or Confucianism? : neither
*Favourite cake? : Raspberry cheese..=)
*Can we stop this game now? : ...
*Do you like sardins? ^^ : yeap
*Who knows you the best? : God
*IQ higher or EQ? : lol...nerd.
*Computer or Mobile Phone : neither.
*Prefer to sleep or play? : Sleep.
*Friendster or Facebook? : Fb.
*Whats your wish right now? : be with him.
*Tired? : quite.
*Favourite drinks : pink lemonade.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
untitled.
human love?
human carnal love,
catch in like a zhepyr,
such intense gust,
but just as a gust it will be.
human carnal love,
so intense,
but yet as fragile as a day's bloom of a flower,
longing to show the world its beauty,
but crumbling to dust only after later.
human carnal love,
catch in like a zhepyr,
such intense gust,
but just as a gust it will be.
human carnal love,
so intense,
but yet as fragile as a day's bloom of a flower,
longing to show the world its beauty,
but crumbling to dust only after later.
back after sooo long.
hey people..! cats...dogs..plants..lol
finally, im back..
i dont have the mood to write, and i was quite busy for the last few weeks after summer break has officially started..! lol..
i've been doin basketball trainings with the gurls that are now in Tri Notts Games in UK. pray that they will be in good health..by the looks of the pictures in facebook...hmm...they're good..lol (but sure alot of stories im yet to hear about...hehehehe...)
want to write on blog but frens stalled me...after not onlining for pleasure for so long...lol...ive forgotten my special ability of multitasking..lol
moving everything back to my home is one thing, placing them is another thing..lol..i ahve mountains of stuffs in my room and i can hear cockroaches singing in the dark! >_< damn those cockroaches...
so many things to do..but procrastinating..sigh..how how?
finally, im back..
i dont have the mood to write, and i was quite busy for the last few weeks after summer break has officially started..! lol..
i've been doin basketball trainings with the gurls that are now in Tri Notts Games in UK. pray that they will be in good health..by the looks of the pictures in facebook...hmm...they're good..lol (but sure alot of stories im yet to hear about...hehehehe...)
want to write on blog but frens stalled me...after not onlining for pleasure for so long...lol...ive forgotten my special ability of multitasking..lol
moving everything back to my home is one thing, placing them is another thing..lol..i ahve mountains of stuffs in my room and i can hear cockroaches singing in the dark! >_< damn those cockroaches...
so many things to do..but procrastinating..sigh..how how?
Saturday, May 30, 2009
things to do
mabel needs to:
1. clear out SPM stuffs..(im serious! still got! LOL)
2. clean my desk
3. organise my books
4. clean out my closet
5. sleep sleep sleep! LOL
argh..>_<
1. clear out SPM stuffs..(im serious! still got! LOL)
2. clean my desk
3. organise my books
4. clean out my closet
5. sleep sleep sleep! LOL
argh..>_<
Saturday, May 2, 2009
untitled.
whoever corrects amocker invites insult;
whoever rebukes a wicked man incurs abuse.
do not rebuke a mocker or he will hate you;
rebuke a wise man and he will love you.
Instruct a wise man and he will be wiser still;
teach a righteous man and he will add to his learning.
proverbs 9:8
whoever rebukes a wicked man incurs abuse.
do not rebuke a mocker or he will hate you;
rebuke a wise man and he will love you.
Instruct a wise man and he will be wiser still;
teach a righteous man and he will add to his learning.
proverbs 9:8
Friday, April 10, 2009
Easter
After a long chat with a few of my favourite people, they’ve made me realize something about myself.
It’s hard to admit, I have an ego as big as a guy and I’m always think I can almost do better than other people in terms of certain things. I seem to be confident if I am sure I could complete that certain task.
God has been trying to show me how to be humble and patience, and He even sent me a very special person in my life to remind me of a few things in life that I should always remember, is to be humble and to be in the grace of God. If it isn’t for Jesus, I could have been much worse. People always regard Christians in majority always being all holier than thou kinda attitude, but it truth, Christians need God because they are worse. i.e, me.
Take me for a perfect example, I swear, I’m egoistic, I’m impatient, I’m rude. I’m worse off than other people. I still find it hard for God to accept me and He is willing to let me be in His presence. But there He is, always with me even most of the times I had doubt and even abandon Him. I was the one that abandon Him instead of me.
Being the ‘victim’ of the upcoming Easter play in Nottingham University has lead me to think and reflect of all the things that I’ve went through in my life. For the 1st scene, for example, I have been tempted on lust, had my fair share on being a 1st degree of nearly being an alcoholic, always drinking in excuse of trying to defeat stress and depression. I’ve went through being too insecure of myself, discouraged, and always think bad about how I look. No matter anyone tells me that I am pretty or decent looking, I couldn’t accept it. Why? Some people asked me, because I ‘d always believe that beauty comes from the inside, and that’s why I’m not pretty, cause, I’m not pretty from the inside. It’s not that I’m being too ‘chinese’ by not accepting compliments, this is the real reason that I couldn’t accept this compliment. Committing suicide? Lol..yes. It crossed my mind so often until I’m wondering why I am still alive.
No matter what I’ve went through, whether it’s by my own doing or cause by other people, God was and is always with me. Why do I know that? Cause I’m still alive. It sounds cheesy but I can swear my life by it. He sends angels to talk to me, He shows me until I see it. My angels are so damn special in my life..earthly angels and heavenly angels the same too. Earthly angels would be my family members, my friends and loved ones. They gave me the reasons to live, to love and to cherish. They are you. ( yesh, you..reading this) =)
Blessed are those whom are poor in spirit.
Despite all those false accusations that are made by people, I pray that God would be my strength to go thru this time in my life. You have been there throughout my life for 20 years (even more), I will continue to learn to trust You, O Lord. I still believe that the truth will eventually reveal itself when the time is right. You are my strength when I am weak. Even though I look tough and hardy, but I’m still a fragile girl despite on how I look. Only You could see through me and fully understand on what I am going through in this period of time. I love You, Jesus. I cant comprehend with my puny pathetic human mind on why do You choose to die for me for my sins. All I can do is come to You in awe reverence, no one could make me feel like You do. Therefore, Lord Jesus, I give You thanks for the times when You patiently wait for me with Your arms wide open, even with the shits that I’ve made and forgive me Lord for being so ignorant and stubborn to even acknowledge you. I’ve clearly been a fool but You choose to be with me. You are freakingly awesome.
It’s hard to admit, I have an ego as big as a guy and I’m always think I can almost do better than other people in terms of certain things. I seem to be confident if I am sure I could complete that certain task.
God has been trying to show me how to be humble and patience, and He even sent me a very special person in my life to remind me of a few things in life that I should always remember, is to be humble and to be in the grace of God. If it isn’t for Jesus, I could have been much worse. People always regard Christians in majority always being all holier than thou kinda attitude, but it truth, Christians need God because they are worse. i.e, me.
Take me for a perfect example, I swear, I’m egoistic, I’m impatient, I’m rude. I’m worse off than other people. I still find it hard for God to accept me and He is willing to let me be in His presence. But there He is, always with me even most of the times I had doubt and even abandon Him. I was the one that abandon Him instead of me.
Being the ‘victim’ of the upcoming Easter play in Nottingham University has lead me to think and reflect of all the things that I’ve went through in my life. For the 1st scene, for example, I have been tempted on lust, had my fair share on being a 1st degree of nearly being an alcoholic, always drinking in excuse of trying to defeat stress and depression. I’ve went through being too insecure of myself, discouraged, and always think bad about how I look. No matter anyone tells me that I am pretty or decent looking, I couldn’t accept it. Why? Some people asked me, because I ‘d always believe that beauty comes from the inside, and that’s why I’m not pretty, cause, I’m not pretty from the inside. It’s not that I’m being too ‘chinese’ by not accepting compliments, this is the real reason that I couldn’t accept this compliment. Committing suicide? Lol..yes. It crossed my mind so often until I’m wondering why I am still alive.
No matter what I’ve went through, whether it’s by my own doing or cause by other people, God was and is always with me. Why do I know that? Cause I’m still alive. It sounds cheesy but I can swear my life by it. He sends angels to talk to me, He shows me until I see it. My angels are so damn special in my life..earthly angels and heavenly angels the same too. Earthly angels would be my family members, my friends and loved ones. They gave me the reasons to live, to love and to cherish. They are you. ( yesh, you..reading this) =)
Blessed are those whom are poor in spirit.
Despite all those false accusations that are made by people, I pray that God would be my strength to go thru this time in my life. You have been there throughout my life for 20 years (even more), I will continue to learn to trust You, O Lord. I still believe that the truth will eventually reveal itself when the time is right. You are my strength when I am weak. Even though I look tough and hardy, but I’m still a fragile girl despite on how I look. Only You could see through me and fully understand on what I am going through in this period of time. I love You, Jesus. I cant comprehend with my puny pathetic human mind on why do You choose to die for me for my sins. All I can do is come to You in awe reverence, no one could make me feel like You do. Therefore, Lord Jesus, I give You thanks for the times when You patiently wait for me with Your arms wide open, even with the shits that I’ve made and forgive me Lord for being so ignorant and stubborn to even acknowledge you. I’ve clearly been a fool but You choose to be with me. You are freakingly awesome.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
my daily routine as Mabel Kuan.
Wednesday,(9th April 2009)
woke up at 11am. supposingly have class at 9am-11am, then another one at 12pm-2pm, then weekly test at 4pm-5pm.
at 5.30pm, have basketball competition 3 on 3 women's team.
what a terrible game, kind off for me..i didnt manage to shoot a single score.except the last minute..with is tied up between double-trouble team ( a group of african gurls consist of a size triple my size,wide..and a tall netball player..one head taller than me, and the last one a tiny one, smaller size than me) we tied them for 3rd place, so it was weird that the organisers wont want to give us overtime, instead they want all of the teamates to shoot to determine the 3rd place.in the end we tied again so its time to move to the sudden death situation whereby each team has to choose a shooter to shoot until they score. guess what? i was chosen and the 1st try, we tied AGAIN..then the second one, with all eyes looking at me, i never felt that kinda pressure before..and i missed.
kinda sad,, i was crying later..lol...then i realise that i was crying i cried even harder..lol..i felt so ridiculus but i cant stop..was quite emo la..but it was nothing la. Wei Ern was there with me, he msged me earlier saying he has to conduct tuition in his house, but surprisingly he turned up to see me play, that was really sweet of him..he actually cancelled his tuition so he could watch me play. =p thanks alot..i really appreciate that..=) BUT YOU WERE playing squash..hm...=/ i kinda guessed it when u dissapeared about 15 minutes..LOL
at 9pm, have CF committee meeting.
they were choosing new committee members for CF team for next year, and i cried, i duno why i cried, part of me was like...uhh...seniours are leaving..lol..part of me is like...there's this kinda feeling where u dont want to do it, but God is telling you to do it..? hahahaha...i felt like jonah..swallowed by a big giant fish..
at 12.30am, shower..yea..i stink all the way until midnite.
at 1am, went with jo-anne, shi wei n wen shan to McD kajang. (bluff ppl, saying open 24 hrs, joker..we all went there for the sake of sundae cone...im serious..from Nottingham to Kajang for Sundae Ice Cream. Boo...~!
then end back in Semenyih Ibrahim Maju. ate then..
at 3am, camp in TIscra(computer lab), tryin to do my assignments, wait for..
5am..so i can go climb broga Hill. yes..at 5am after everything.
Let me tell you what i did the day before..(meaning..on tuesday)
Note: before that,Monday,(6th April 2009) i slept at 5am, talking to my housemate regarding about sumthin while studying)
TUesday,(7th April 2009)
i have class at 1pm-2pm..so i could lie in abit longer.
went to class..then did my part of assignment..500 words in 45minutes.
then went out to eat early dinner at 6pm then came back for Talent Quest in Nottingham..enjoyed, then sat in the rain n walk in the rain back to my car, found out about sumting, then went super emo.. then just took my car and drove off at 11pm-ish back to Cheras..just to find a reason to drive.
Wei Ern followed me. He accompanied me even though he do not know wad was happening to me. he just followed me. i felt irritated abit because he is there, but thankful that he was with me during that time. he got scolded by mum later on the phone when he told his mum that he was not coming back home that nite and i felt super bad. im sorry..T_T
i was at BRJ then thinking about hock ann, so i called him and he agreed to come out and meet me even without thinking. i was surprised. what surprised me even more was later after a few minutes he arrived, Ronald came too, then Lokman whom ive never seen him for at least 8 years. lol..i was so surprised i nearly cried. so we talked about things..lol..wei ern felt so out of place. (did you?)
then later they told me about their latest 'hobby'..which is catching prawns..yes..ur not reading it wrong..seriously, catching prawns. its located near the mamak, and they show me how they catch them...lol...fishing is fishing fish, so catching prawns is..prawing? LOL okok..its really fishing for prawns in a water container made of simen and tiles. then grab a fishing rod with a bait made out of chicken gizzard. its quite an expensive game...lol...rm 10 per hr? or is it 15? but its quite addictive you see..lol...but with rm 10-15 ringgit, i cant go CC and DOTA till my eyes bulge out..lol..
anyway, they did catch sum and you keep the catch..and Ron caught two before i left. i got to play with it..=) Ron apparently forgotten how i like creepy crawlies.=)
then i too GG to drive back, Wei Ern drove my car back to nottingham, reach nottingham at around 4am.
*there, this is my life..LOL..and now its 4.10am..in about 50 mins i'll be off to climb broga hill with my business group of frens. =)
seriously, i duno how long will i collapse. i pray that i wont.
love,
pei wern.
woke up at 11am. supposingly have class at 9am-11am, then another one at 12pm-2pm, then weekly test at 4pm-5pm.
at 5.30pm, have basketball competition 3 on 3 women's team.
what a terrible game, kind off for me..i didnt manage to shoot a single score.except the last minute..with is tied up between double-trouble team ( a group of african gurls consist of a size triple my size,wide..and a tall netball player..one head taller than me, and the last one a tiny one, smaller size than me) we tied them for 3rd place, so it was weird that the organisers wont want to give us overtime, instead they want all of the teamates to shoot to determine the 3rd place.in the end we tied again so its time to move to the sudden death situation whereby each team has to choose a shooter to shoot until they score. guess what? i was chosen and the 1st try, we tied AGAIN..then the second one, with all eyes looking at me, i never felt that kinda pressure before..and i missed.
kinda sad,, i was crying later..lol...then i realise that i was crying i cried even harder..lol..i felt so ridiculus but i cant stop..was quite emo la..but it was nothing la. Wei Ern was there with me, he msged me earlier saying he has to conduct tuition in his house, but surprisingly he turned up to see me play, that was really sweet of him..he actually cancelled his tuition so he could watch me play. =p thanks alot..i really appreciate that..=) BUT YOU WERE playing squash..hm...=/ i kinda guessed it when u dissapeared about 15 minutes..LOL
at 9pm, have CF committee meeting.
they were choosing new committee members for CF team for next year, and i cried, i duno why i cried, part of me was like...uhh...seniours are leaving..lol..part of me is like...there's this kinda feeling where u dont want to do it, but God is telling you to do it..? hahahaha...i felt like jonah..swallowed by a big giant fish..
at 12.30am, shower..yea..i stink all the way until midnite.
at 1am, went with jo-anne, shi wei n wen shan to McD kajang. (bluff ppl, saying open 24 hrs, joker..we all went there for the sake of sundae cone...im serious..from Nottingham to Kajang for Sundae Ice Cream. Boo...~!
then end back in Semenyih Ibrahim Maju. ate then..
at 3am, camp in TIscra(computer lab), tryin to do my assignments, wait for..
5am..so i can go climb broga Hill. yes..at 5am after everything.
Let me tell you what i did the day before..(meaning..on tuesday)
Note: before that,Monday,(6th April 2009) i slept at 5am, talking to my housemate regarding about sumthin while studying)
TUesday,(7th April 2009)
i have class at 1pm-2pm..so i could lie in abit longer.
went to class..then did my part of assignment..500 words in 45minutes.
then went out to eat early dinner at 6pm then came back for Talent Quest in Nottingham..enjoyed, then sat in the rain n walk in the rain back to my car, found out about sumting, then went super emo.. then just took my car and drove off at 11pm-ish back to Cheras..just to find a reason to drive.
Wei Ern followed me. He accompanied me even though he do not know wad was happening to me. he just followed me. i felt irritated abit because he is there, but thankful that he was with me during that time. he got scolded by mum later on the phone when he told his mum that he was not coming back home that nite and i felt super bad. im sorry..T_T
i was at BRJ then thinking about hock ann, so i called him and he agreed to come out and meet me even without thinking. i was surprised. what surprised me even more was later after a few minutes he arrived, Ronald came too, then Lokman whom ive never seen him for at least 8 years. lol..i was so surprised i nearly cried. so we talked about things..lol..wei ern felt so out of place. (did you?)
then later they told me about their latest 'hobby'..which is catching prawns..yes..ur not reading it wrong..seriously, catching prawns. its located near the mamak, and they show me how they catch them...lol...fishing is fishing fish, so catching prawns is..prawing? LOL okok..its really fishing for prawns in a water container made of simen and tiles. then grab a fishing rod with a bait made out of chicken gizzard. its quite an expensive game...lol...rm 10 per hr? or is it 15? but its quite addictive you see..lol...but with rm 10-15 ringgit, i cant go CC and DOTA till my eyes bulge out..lol..
anyway, they did catch sum and you keep the catch..and Ron caught two before i left. i got to play with it..=) Ron apparently forgotten how i like creepy crawlies.=)
then i too GG to drive back, Wei Ern drove my car back to nottingham, reach nottingham at around 4am.
*there, this is my life..LOL..and now its 4.10am..in about 50 mins i'll be off to climb broga hill with my business group of frens. =)
seriously, i duno how long will i collapse. i pray that i wont.
love,
pei wern.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Kopi tarik
It's 3.10am in the morning and im not doin anything..with shi wei n wai ken n jin yu.after a glass of hot kopi tarik i still can fall asleep..just print out sumthin for my assignment.
Yest was my Uni's annual dinner and it was ok. paying rm 125 for the purpose of to See and Be Seen. LOL...it was good in the sense of getting to know some of my coursemates in the afterparty..lol...talk to ppl that i havent met before or talk at all...(my uni quite big la..) my coursemates num is around 100+..ok..its not being be anti-social..it was indeed fun except for sum mishaps.
overall, i kinda enjoyed the day..parts of it of course, met alot of nice ppl. =)
then sunday...
i met up with my good fren, Joseph New.
i miss him so much and im so happy to meet back him. im relieved that he's doin ok in his life so far, its a hard journey but keep it up! *hugs*
i need to improve too. my IQ is dropping..lol..and my communication skills is getting worse..sigh..
im trying...
but there's alot of hindrances..alot. in sense of my emotions and physical capabilities, and i pray that it would not affect me that much.
My priority is to get my grades up again and able to enter MAPCU or the TRINotts games for Basketball. so other problems..please fuck off?
Yest was my Uni's annual dinner and it was ok. paying rm 125 for the purpose of to See and Be Seen. LOL...it was good in the sense of getting to know some of my coursemates in the afterparty..lol...talk to ppl that i havent met before or talk at all...(my uni quite big la..) my coursemates num is around 100+..ok..its not being be anti-social..it was indeed fun except for sum mishaps.
overall, i kinda enjoyed the day..parts of it of course, met alot of nice ppl. =)
then sunday...
i met up with my good fren, Joseph New.
i miss him so much and im so happy to meet back him. im relieved that he's doin ok in his life so far, its a hard journey but keep it up! *hugs*
i need to improve too. my IQ is dropping..lol..and my communication skills is getting worse..sigh..
im trying...
but there's alot of hindrances..alot. in sense of my emotions and physical capabilities, and i pray that it would not affect me that much.
My priority is to get my grades up again and able to enter MAPCU or the TRINotts games for Basketball. so other problems..please fuck off?
Sunday, March 22, 2009
daily rumblings
i'm starting to feel dumber n dumber by the minute..(the syllabus din not help but amplified it more.) there is so much to be done. but so lil time..i felt that the time is flying so fast, im just trying to grab the end of it. hanging on to dear life..( imagine it..its funny)
now im having my break from my classes, frens went to eat, but i nid to settle sum stuffs regarding about my INteractive Learning Barometer that suppsoe to measure my learning capabilities. well, ive submitted it earlier but i did not get my email to confirm my enrolment..so rite now..i couldnt do the survey, which the due date was so be today. >_< ive told my lecturer and he told me to try again, i did, but the mail still havent come yet. so im worried and im so damn frustrated. still waiting for another class to start at 3pm then ends at 5pm. then later move on to frisbee Ultimate Hat league (din noe i play frisbee lehh...coz i noob) lol..anyway, then after that, dinner then bible study with my frens in tts5 then got worship practise.
monday is the most busiet day of the week...and some ppl say business school is sooo free..(dunoo hu leh?)
i still have to design a logo for my hall. and i dun have ideas! argh..why why why.. i had one but mun yee said that unless if i want to get sued, use that idea, app its too close with the nottingham's logo, so i have to think again.
i am still sick, and wei ern keep telling me that my body temperature is abnormal as i am abnormally warm and he kept suspecting that im having fever, but im too numb to even care or notice, until i end up in the clinic for blood test. my mum suspect that im having dengue fever..and wei ern suspect i have chikgugunya fever as i always felt really tired. ( i think its because i always sleep late) >_<
sigh..its almost time for class now. its been long i've ever written so long a blog entry. ( im practising for my upcoming Econs Assignments! LOL..2000 words...hmm..)
now im having my break from my classes, frens went to eat, but i nid to settle sum stuffs regarding about my INteractive Learning Barometer that suppsoe to measure my learning capabilities. well, ive submitted it earlier but i did not get my email to confirm my enrolment..so rite now..i couldnt do the survey, which the due date was so be today. >_< ive told my lecturer and he told me to try again, i did, but the mail still havent come yet. so im worried and im so damn frustrated. still waiting for another class to start at 3pm then ends at 5pm. then later move on to frisbee Ultimate Hat league (din noe i play frisbee lehh...coz i noob) lol..anyway, then after that, dinner then bible study with my frens in tts5 then got worship practise.
monday is the most busiet day of the week...and some ppl say business school is sooo free..(dunoo hu leh?)
i still have to design a logo for my hall. and i dun have ideas! argh..why why why.. i had one but mun yee said that unless if i want to get sued, use that idea, app its too close with the nottingham's logo, so i have to think again.
i am still sick, and wei ern keep telling me that my body temperature is abnormal as i am abnormally warm and he kept suspecting that im having fever, but im too numb to even care or notice, until i end up in the clinic for blood test. my mum suspect that im having dengue fever..and wei ern suspect i have chikgugunya fever as i always felt really tired. ( i think its because i always sleep late) >_<
sigh..its almost time for class now. its been long i've ever written so long a blog entry. ( im practising for my upcoming Econs Assignments! LOL..2000 words...hmm..)
Friday, March 20, 2009
depressed.
dunno why, i felt that my braincells are in comma mode these few weeks.
1. i felt that i talk like a bimbo lately.
no one deserve to hear what im talking about unless i would try to talk like a normal person.im serious..*sigh.
2. i felt that i cant describe in words how i feel.
(about anything) everything just went numb, like all my senses are gone.
3. i think im starting to feel depressed.
hahaha..
4. i felt inadequate.
my studies, my sports, my hobbies..lol
5. i miss my frens..alot.
so lil time, so many to meet up but couldnt have the chance because of my workload. the timing sucks too. sumore its towards the end of my semester for year 1 and i did not really study, i spend most of my time sleeping..>_<
1. i felt that i talk like a bimbo lately.
no one deserve to hear what im talking about unless i would try to talk like a normal person.im serious..*sigh.
2. i felt that i cant describe in words how i feel.
(about anything) everything just went numb, like all my senses are gone.
3. i think im starting to feel depressed.
hahaha..
4. i felt inadequate.
my studies, my sports, my hobbies..lol
5. i miss my frens..alot.
so lil time, so many to meet up but couldnt have the chance because of my workload. the timing sucks too. sumore its towards the end of my semester for year 1 and i did not really study, i spend most of my time sleeping..>_<
Monday, March 16, 2009
i seem to get back on track on loads of stuffs lately,
it happens when i start to fast again..God seems to reveal alot of things to me.
LOL, and oddly enough..its always food that tries to tempt me..lol...when im fasting its always..almost any type of food could tempt me..lol..
okies, back to the topic..
God revealed to me that there is a need among of my frens, so i felt the urge to pray n fast at the same time. it makes me felt more in touch to Him more than anything. i felt Him more closer to Him than ever, and the feeling it's great! =)
it prompt me to fast when i keep losing my ground, i keep focusing on the wrong things..until i used that to counter my own feelings..lol
after ive been dating this guy..lol.. i keep thinking about him.
i just couldnt comprehend this, human love is so fragile and intense,...what about God's love?
if i could think of him nite and day, and waiting for his msges, what about Him? willing to send his only son to die for all of us on the cross?
He's always waiting for us..to say that we love Him...lol...i dun know how to describe it, but the feeling's awesome.
okies, gotta work on my assignments! =)
it happens when i start to fast again..God seems to reveal alot of things to me.
LOL, and oddly enough..its always food that tries to tempt me..lol...when im fasting its always..almost any type of food could tempt me..lol..
okies, back to the topic..
God revealed to me that there is a need among of my frens, so i felt the urge to pray n fast at the same time. it makes me felt more in touch to Him more than anything. i felt Him more closer to Him than ever, and the feeling it's great! =)
it prompt me to fast when i keep losing my ground, i keep focusing on the wrong things..until i used that to counter my own feelings..lol
after ive been dating this guy..lol.. i keep thinking about him.
i just couldnt comprehend this, human love is so fragile and intense,...what about God's love?
if i could think of him nite and day, and waiting for his msges, what about Him? willing to send his only son to die for all of us on the cross?
He's always waiting for us..to say that we love Him...lol...i dun know how to describe it, but the feeling's awesome.
okies, gotta work on my assignments! =)
Saturday, March 7, 2009
screwed
haha..yesh.
alot of things happened, since i did not blog for a very long time..lol...
on 6th of march 2009, i got SUMMON-ed.
and it was 4.30am in the morning..LOL...after DoTa-ing in a local CC.
and its not compoundable. i have to be in court on april sumthin.lol
for what? driving in a opposite direction in a one way street. LOL.. lucky weh..lucky!
sigh..duno how to tell me dad.. =/
alot of things happened, since i did not blog for a very long time..lol...
on 6th of march 2009, i got SUMMON-ed.
and it was 4.30am in the morning..LOL...after DoTa-ing in a local CC.
and its not compoundable. i have to be in court on april sumthin.lol
for what? driving in a opposite direction in a one way street. LOL.. lucky weh..lucky!
sigh..duno how to tell me dad.. =/
Saturday, February 21, 2009
RYAN!
aw.
thanks for the Godiva Chocos. but i really wanna scold you LA! wthell, u better manage ur money rite or else..ur gona be a homeless dude! wat is wrong with you? sending chocolates to me n merie while ur at US? ish..i do worry about you, RYAN.
take care n god bless. i know ur reading this. lol. happy belated valentine's day to you.
thanks for the Godiva Chocos. but i really wanna scold you LA! wthell, u better manage ur money rite or else..ur gona be a homeless dude! wat is wrong with you? sending chocolates to me n merie while ur at US? ish..i do worry about you, RYAN.
take care n god bless. i know ur reading this. lol. happy belated valentine's day to you.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Is this what romance looks like? from Msn..
some short stories that i've came apon while 'renovating' my blog..lol..its really sweet.
Sickness and Health
"Is that your husband?" The ER nurse is pointing to you, the fever-spiked lump who is snoring softly and muttering beside me. We've been here for hours, and for hours I've returned my lips over and over to your scalding forehead, as if to cool it, or, perhaps, to comfort myself. In just a little while longer, we'll find out that what you have is a severe case of strep, and you will swallow the prescribed pills, and I will finally put my lips to your quietly sleeping forehead and feel a welcome coolness.
But for now the nurse's face is creased with compassion and weariness — she is waiting — and it's not really the right time to tell her about your gentle strength: the way you rocked our baby in the sling for hours on end while you graded papers, rocked another baby three years later while you did your anatomy homework, babies peacefully asleep across your broad chest for what feels like my entire adult life. It's not the right time to explain what a funny contradiction you are, a hockey-playing massage therapist, or how just last week you lay your hands on a friend's father while he lay dying in hospice.
She wouldn't understand how funny it is that you gave me bedtime coupons — promising to turn in early on the nights I redeem them — because you're a night owl and I miss you in bed, or how it feels when I come down in the morning to a toasty kitchen because you've already lit a fire in our wood stove. She doesn't know that I'm strangely euphoric, sitting here thinking about how lucky I am to have so much to lose — my rock, my mystery, the love of my life — that I'm sitting here thinking in sickness and in health. I will, I think. I do. But all I can say is yes. "Yes. That's my husband."
Catherine Newman is the author of Waiting for Birdy.
Work and Play
A few months ago, when my husband and I transitioned our son, Sawyer, into a big-boy bed, he refused to nap alone. We explained that we couldn't sleep with him; there was no room in his bed. Of course, he found a loophole. "Sleep next to my bed," he said. "There's room on my rug." Except he kept peeking over his guardrail to giggle at the sight of us. "Use my blanket and build a tent and you lie under it on the rug," he said, "so I don't see you." From our hideout in the tent, we kept still, listening to our little boy rustling like a safari cub.
When Sawyer's breath began to ebb and flow more evenly, I plotted our escape in my mind, then blurted out loud, "Uh oh." Sawyer stirred. I whispered the problem in Geoffrey's ear: "I left my glasses on his nightstand." Geoffrey ducked out to rescue my specs. Sawyer rolled over on his pillow, sighed, and smacked his lips. Geoffrey barely made it back into the tent without waking him. If we tried to leave now, we'd risk Sawyer's hearing the creak of floorboards, the doorknob's click, our dog panting in the hallway.
We didn't dare. We stayed put. Strewn about the rug, the whole Crayola rainbow, plastic dinosaurs, and hardened crumbs of Play-Doh. Along the rug's perimeter, Sawyer had lined up an assortment of toy cars that belonged to my husband when he was a boy. Geoffrey plucked a tiny metal wagon from the lot and whispered in my ear, "I used to put a peanut in this." He hitched it to an old-fashioned yellow car and towed it over my shoulder. It tickled. He put his hand over my mouth to stifle my laugh. I heard a crayon break under the weight of my back. But Sawyer was breathing deeply now, having drifted into the peaceable hum of sleep. I thought we would ready ourselves to leave.
Instead, Geoffrey picked up the stubby end of a green crayon and a ragged piece of construction paper. He drew a hangman hook and the dotted lines of a secret message. I grinned. Geoffrey rolled the crayon toward me so that I could use it to guess a letter. Then I rolled it back to him. I got the first few wrong. One by one, Geoffrey drew a head, a long center line for the body, both legs and a foot. He had the same smirk on his face as when he beats me at tennis — not at all sorry. "Give up?" he mouthed, then filled in the puzzle: You are my sunshine. With the length of my arm, I swept away the mess and snuggled in close.
Pari Chang's essay "Pregnant Pause" appears in the newly published anthology Behind the Bedroom Door, edited by Paula Derrow.
Cream and Sugar
I've been married to Jason for over 17 years. Which means I've woken up beside him something like 46,225 times. That's a really nice thing, easing into the new day with a person you dig. And whether one or both of us are rushing out the door with the kids during the week or we're savoring the horizontal-friendly nature of the weekends, our mornings always kick off the same way: with coffee.
One morning a while back, on a day when I was lucky enough to be the last one up, I bumbled downstairs, went to pour my first cup, and found a little scribble of a note next to the freshly brewed pot.
Three words: Wake up sleeper.
It made me ridiculously happy. There were a few things at work here. There was the white mug thoughtfully pulled from the cabinet and placed on the counter, there was the steamy jet-black coffee waiting to be poured, and there was the message, with its undertones of both comfortable domesticity and flirty middle-school note-passing. I promptly tucked it away for safekeeping.
He was back at it the next morning. And the next. And the next. He wrote on whatever was handy — scraps of paper, backs of envelopes, hotel stationery, Post-its — and about whatever was on his mind.
Some, like the first, were simple a.m. greetings:
First cup and Welcome to the day
Some seemed to have an audible, built-in sigh:
What a week and Keep parenting
Some commemorated a family milestone:
Last Saturday in this house and 16 years!
Some focused on our couple-ness, which is to say putting our parenting purposely out of focus:
City dwelling, late night eating partner! and Super weekend with you
And one was composed of just eight letters and a symbol:
Everyday ♥
I don't think Jason knows I saved these notes, each and every one, in an envelope in the cupboard. We never talked about this exchange; somehow it became a silent, sacred ritual. Which is precisely why, without warning or fanfare, this issue of Redbook will be left open to this very page ... and placed right next to our coffee pot.
Amy Krouse Rosenthal is the creator of "The Beckoning of Lovely," a YouTube project, and the author of Encyclopedia of an Ordinary Life.
Sickness and Health
"Is that your husband?" The ER nurse is pointing to you, the fever-spiked lump who is snoring softly and muttering beside me. We've been here for hours, and for hours I've returned my lips over and over to your scalding forehead, as if to cool it, or, perhaps, to comfort myself. In just a little while longer, we'll find out that what you have is a severe case of strep, and you will swallow the prescribed pills, and I will finally put my lips to your quietly sleeping forehead and feel a welcome coolness.
But for now the nurse's face is creased with compassion and weariness — she is waiting — and it's not really the right time to tell her about your gentle strength: the way you rocked our baby in the sling for hours on end while you graded papers, rocked another baby three years later while you did your anatomy homework, babies peacefully asleep across your broad chest for what feels like my entire adult life. It's not the right time to explain what a funny contradiction you are, a hockey-playing massage therapist, or how just last week you lay your hands on a friend's father while he lay dying in hospice.
She wouldn't understand how funny it is that you gave me bedtime coupons — promising to turn in early on the nights I redeem them — because you're a night owl and I miss you in bed, or how it feels when I come down in the morning to a toasty kitchen because you've already lit a fire in our wood stove. She doesn't know that I'm strangely euphoric, sitting here thinking about how lucky I am to have so much to lose — my rock, my mystery, the love of my life — that I'm sitting here thinking in sickness and in health. I will, I think. I do. But all I can say is yes. "Yes. That's my husband."
Catherine Newman is the author of Waiting for Birdy.
Work and Play
A few months ago, when my husband and I transitioned our son, Sawyer, into a big-boy bed, he refused to nap alone. We explained that we couldn't sleep with him; there was no room in his bed. Of course, he found a loophole. "Sleep next to my bed," he said. "There's room on my rug." Except he kept peeking over his guardrail to giggle at the sight of us. "Use my blanket and build a tent and you lie under it on the rug," he said, "so I don't see you." From our hideout in the tent, we kept still, listening to our little boy rustling like a safari cub.
When Sawyer's breath began to ebb and flow more evenly, I plotted our escape in my mind, then blurted out loud, "Uh oh." Sawyer stirred. I whispered the problem in Geoffrey's ear: "I left my glasses on his nightstand." Geoffrey ducked out to rescue my specs. Sawyer rolled over on his pillow, sighed, and smacked his lips. Geoffrey barely made it back into the tent without waking him. If we tried to leave now, we'd risk Sawyer's hearing the creak of floorboards, the doorknob's click, our dog panting in the hallway.
We didn't dare. We stayed put. Strewn about the rug, the whole Crayola rainbow, plastic dinosaurs, and hardened crumbs of Play-Doh. Along the rug's perimeter, Sawyer had lined up an assortment of toy cars that belonged to my husband when he was a boy. Geoffrey plucked a tiny metal wagon from the lot and whispered in my ear, "I used to put a peanut in this." He hitched it to an old-fashioned yellow car and towed it over my shoulder. It tickled. He put his hand over my mouth to stifle my laugh. I heard a crayon break under the weight of my back. But Sawyer was breathing deeply now, having drifted into the peaceable hum of sleep. I thought we would ready ourselves to leave.
Instead, Geoffrey picked up the stubby end of a green crayon and a ragged piece of construction paper. He drew a hangman hook and the dotted lines of a secret message. I grinned. Geoffrey rolled the crayon toward me so that I could use it to guess a letter. Then I rolled it back to him. I got the first few wrong. One by one, Geoffrey drew a head, a long center line for the body, both legs and a foot. He had the same smirk on his face as when he beats me at tennis — not at all sorry. "Give up?" he mouthed, then filled in the puzzle: You are my sunshine. With the length of my arm, I swept away the mess and snuggled in close.
Pari Chang's essay "Pregnant Pause" appears in the newly published anthology Behind the Bedroom Door, edited by Paula Derrow.
Cream and Sugar
I've been married to Jason for over 17 years. Which means I've woken up beside him something like 46,225 times. That's a really nice thing, easing into the new day with a person you dig. And whether one or both of us are rushing out the door with the kids during the week or we're savoring the horizontal-friendly nature of the weekends, our mornings always kick off the same way: with coffee.
One morning a while back, on a day when I was lucky enough to be the last one up, I bumbled downstairs, went to pour my first cup, and found a little scribble of a note next to the freshly brewed pot.
Three words: Wake up sleeper.
It made me ridiculously happy. There were a few things at work here. There was the white mug thoughtfully pulled from the cabinet and placed on the counter, there was the steamy jet-black coffee waiting to be poured, and there was the message, with its undertones of both comfortable domesticity and flirty middle-school note-passing. I promptly tucked it away for safekeeping.
He was back at it the next morning. And the next. And the next. He wrote on whatever was handy — scraps of paper, backs of envelopes, hotel stationery, Post-its — and about whatever was on his mind.
Some, like the first, were simple a.m. greetings:
First cup and Welcome to the day
Some seemed to have an audible, built-in sigh:
What a week and Keep parenting
Some commemorated a family milestone:
Last Saturday in this house and 16 years!
Some focused on our couple-ness, which is to say putting our parenting purposely out of focus:
City dwelling, late night eating partner! and Super weekend with you
And one was composed of just eight letters and a symbol:
Everyday ♥
I don't think Jason knows I saved these notes, each and every one, in an envelope in the cupboard. We never talked about this exchange; somehow it became a silent, sacred ritual. Which is precisely why, without warning or fanfare, this issue of Redbook will be left open to this very page ... and placed right next to our coffee pot.
Amy Krouse Rosenthal is the creator of "The Beckoning of Lovely," a YouTube project, and the author of Encyclopedia of an Ordinary Life.
Valentine's Day Clues =)
Mabel tips on making a gurl feel special on Valentine's day.
1. Love letters in Books?
get the book that she is currently reading, highlight the words that you want her to read. instead of writing a love letter, highlight the words that u want to use to write ur 'letter'.
for innovation, you could even use electronic reading materials...hm..her journals that she suppose to read for assignments? LOL..
or just buy her a book from her favourite author, then highlight the words for ur 'letter' then giftwrap it. =)
2.<
14 Stalks of Roses
give her one stalk of long stem roses from the 1st day of feb till on the special day..give her a bouquet of roses.
3. Jigsaw My Life?
instead of the hassle of goin out on a fine dining date then movies kinda date, why not spend time together fixing up a jigsaw together? then u can chat without being so self concious about urslf, its romantic? lol..hahaha..becareful with the puzzle when ur making out! dun want jigsaw marks on ur back..! lol..
4. Our Songs
burn a CD of your favourite songs then customize the cover and all..simple?
hmm..anyway..if the gurl really likes you, she'll love anything or everything that you do, so dun fret about it ya? the best tip that i could give anyone, guys or even gurls..just do the things that you like with each other even though you felt like its so simple and not special at all..just fuck it will ya? lol..Valentine's day is suppose to be between the two people, not with the rest of the frens around you. so why do you care about what others thinnk about it? so what if sum of ur frens go for typical fine-dining dinner and whatnots? for all i know, i think the guys would be like.."OMG, the bill!" lol..the flowers! the ticket! the chocolates!
enjoy ppl. and for the singles...dun emo alrite? your day will come. =)
in the meanwhile, party on with ur closest frens! =) cheers.
1. Love letters in Books?
get the book that she is currently reading, highlight the words that you want her to read. instead of writing a love letter, highlight the words that u want to use to write ur 'letter'.
for innovation, you could even use electronic reading materials...hm..her journals that she suppose to read for assignments? LOL..
or just buy her a book from her favourite author, then highlight the words for ur 'letter' then giftwrap it. =)
2.<
14 Stalks of Roses
give her one stalk of long stem roses from the 1st day of feb till on the special day..give her a bouquet of roses.
3. Jigsaw My Life?
instead of the hassle of goin out on a fine dining date then movies kinda date, why not spend time together fixing up a jigsaw together? then u can chat without being so self concious about urslf, its romantic? lol..hahaha..becareful with the puzzle when ur making out! dun want jigsaw marks on ur back..! lol..
4. Our Songs
burn a CD of your favourite songs then customize the cover and all..simple?
hmm..anyway..if the gurl really likes you, she'll love anything or everything that you do, so dun fret about it ya? the best tip that i could give anyone, guys or even gurls..just do the things that you like with each other even though you felt like its so simple and not special at all..just fuck it will ya? lol..Valentine's day is suppose to be between the two people, not with the rest of the frens around you. so why do you care about what others thinnk about it? so what if sum of ur frens go for typical fine-dining dinner and whatnots? for all i know, i think the guys would be like.."OMG, the bill!" lol..the flowers! the ticket! the chocolates!
enjoy ppl. and for the singles...dun emo alrite? your day will come. =)
in the meanwhile, party on with ur closest frens! =) cheers.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Never to late! =) bday report!
ahaha..sorry la...now only i blog about my bday...on 4th of january 09..lol..actually its 3rd, 4th n 5th...lol
i celebrated my 20th bday for three times with three diff group of frens this year! thats why its so special...coz i get to celebrate with almost! all my frens.. =/
okay, lets start on the 3rd Jan 08
date: 3rd Jan '09
time: 7.30pm
venue: Itallianies, the Garden.
i plan to have it on 3rd coz its on sat and my mum says 4th (sunday) go eat with my relatives..so it has to be on 3rd jan..so fun..count dwn to my bday! =)
a weeek before that, i've actually booked the place with my mum n sis for 27 people. and the manager says that he's gonna make a menu for me. but the days later he called me up and say its to expensive to do that so mite as well call ala carte. so i say im ok.
then on that day itslf, the manager did NOT reserve the place for me, i was furious and thank God that me n my church frens arrive earlier to settle things and it was after my youth gathering. apparently, he thought i was not into the reservations because to expensive for me. so in the end, they have the place for me since th eplace was empty..the whole smoking section was for my party. it in a private section so its ok. after my dad seeing me so furious, he asked everyone to order what they want to eat. then the whole admosphere changed. thank god. i was able to morph back into lilnimf, not eyra anymore so everything went fine afterwards.
then later we took sum photos and i opened up my presents after a few rounds of drinks from my dad from the bar. thank you...got alot of ppl bought me chocos..! lol...WANT ME TO GET ADDICTED TO CHOCS? and necklace..why ar?LOL...necklace i i i ...i seldom wear but thanks alot ppl..lol
alice : for your WONDERFUL chocolate box with chocos in and out! LOL..and the book..! i've read finish and went to buy the second one today..=) *hugs thanks...!
shi wei: the present i got was awesome, its a razor mouse pad..!and you wore a dress! hwat! *wink wink..! after using that, it raises up my morale alot more..LOL and wit witness by our guru, hibiki-kun..i manage to first blood an insane computer..! while playing with hibiki and james pawn.. =P guys, this proves how bad my DOTA skills is..LOL
Leanne, Edmund, and Jin Yu: thanks for the chocos and the choco fondue! waaaaa...it is awesome! must come by my hse and try it wehhh! i wanna eat with you all 1st!! =P if can la..
brandon: ya got my hint! lol..thanks for the skull scarf, cool!
Siew Ling and Sonia: hwat hwat pants, im gonna wear it to uni..haha
Daesi & Enoch: cool necklace..can wear it for my dresses. =p
Terence: thank you for the gift!
Riana: thanks for the neclace too...hey..all necklace groupies..lol
Eu jin: hahahaha...shot glasses! hwappie...~
Mum: cinematic art of warcraft! whoa..loving it..~
Grace: naughty bracelets..!lol
hmm...spam me if i missed sumone..LOL
then we head on to POPPY's..
its the 1st time for me coz...ahahaa... i dun go illegal...hahaa..i broke it since i went in at age 20 instead of 21. its so different..so many grownups...LOL
meet up with jess n cax n wei n mun yee's cousins and frens..met liza there too! enjoyed myslf there..LOL..then we went to petaling street famous lou sueee funn...(shh..but i still prefer the one in broga...=))
Date: 4th Jan '09
Time: dinnertime.
venue: Pavillion
...i went to have dinner with my cousins n relatives..in pavilion i think..yea..chrystal jade.. have nice chat here and there..then go shoppin..lol
Date: 5th Jan '09
Time: afternoon
Venue: sg wang, bkt bintang area.
meet up with the tts 5 gang with the 3 gurls..LOL..
ate papa john's pizza! niceeee....but why all itallian food??? lol
we ate n ate..its so fun..then i got the bill before CK does..LOL..yay! then i got a surprise!
a BArBIE DOLL( CNY ed. sumore! ) lol..from the gang..coz they heard me saying when i was young i played with guns instead of dolls..lol...so its kinda funny coz its all pink! anyway..apparently CK wont want to leave it alone..and the cake fortunately..LOL..cant be allowed coz no other is food allowed in papa johns...LOL..so we decided to eat in uni..then jac geve me this super cute make up set..LOL..its so pretty...awww... =)
then we went for PURIKURAs..(sticker pictures..!) ahahaha...3 6 ft tall ppl trying to fit inside the small picture taking machine with all other ppl...lol...you guys should be there to witness it..damn funny! finally we managed to do that...seriously..next time, if you see me, ask me for that pic, its in my wallet all the time with a few personal sticker pictures of mine.
i had fun..! and i love all of you! you are one awesome group of frens..!
Date: 6th Jan '09
Time: noontime
Venue: Leisure mall, cheras.
ahahha...this time i meet up with Merie whos back from Spore and dear Ivy..we ate chee cheong fun and we drank starbucks! i just love their ice blended chocolate without chips..LOL..ahh..then we catch up with almost everything...love the time being with them..its like i can tell anything to them..=) we then head to Ivy's hse..and play with her lil puppy! awwwww..* so damn cuteeeeeee! aaaaaaa....then i went back to uni..
then the tts 5 ppl went to our room and brought cake for me..lol..we did not cut the cake coz lazy and dun have enuf plates..we just ate everything with spoon, but spoon were not enuf so we actually played indian poker just for the fun of it to see who uses chopstick to eat the cake! tadah..! the winner of the chopstick eater is,....(drumroll please!....) WONG WY HOONG..lol...then i feed each one in the room with alice, jac n shi wei cake..LOL...we had it shape like a pie sign..lol...i duno why..then in the end, faith the black hole finished everything....lol...then we went mamak.! LOL...geng leh..? black hole...thats why i've gain like 2 kg..after that..LOL//
well..thats about it on how i've spent my bday with so many diff ppl and im soooo glad that you guys came for my bday celeb.. and thanks for being my frens..although sumtimes or most of the times i did not appreciate you, i apologised. i will try to be better. =/
i celebrated my 20th bday for three times with three diff group of frens this year! thats why its so special...coz i get to celebrate with almost! all my frens.. =/
okay, lets start on the 3rd Jan 08
date: 3rd Jan '09
time: 7.30pm
venue: Itallianies, the Garden.
i plan to have it on 3rd coz its on sat and my mum says 4th (sunday) go eat with my relatives..so it has to be on 3rd jan..so fun..count dwn to my bday! =)
a weeek before that, i've actually booked the place with my mum n sis for 27 people. and the manager says that he's gonna make a menu for me. but the days later he called me up and say its to expensive to do that so mite as well call ala carte. so i say im ok.
then on that day itslf, the manager did NOT reserve the place for me, i was furious and thank God that me n my church frens arrive earlier to settle things and it was after my youth gathering. apparently, he thought i was not into the reservations because to expensive for me. so in the end, they have the place for me since th eplace was empty..the whole smoking section was for my party. it in a private section so its ok. after my dad seeing me so furious, he asked everyone to order what they want to eat. then the whole admosphere changed. thank god. i was able to morph back into lilnimf, not eyra anymore so everything went fine afterwards.
then later we took sum photos and i opened up my presents after a few rounds of drinks from my dad from the bar. thank you...got alot of ppl bought me chocos..! lol...WANT ME TO GET ADDICTED TO CHOCS? and necklace..why ar?LOL...necklace i i i ...i seldom wear but thanks alot ppl..lol
alice : for your WONDERFUL chocolate box with chocos in and out! LOL..and the book..! i've read finish and went to buy the second one today..=) *hugs thanks...!
shi wei: the present i got was awesome, its a razor mouse pad..!and you wore a dress! hwat! *wink wink..! after using that, it raises up my morale alot more..LOL and wit witness by our guru, hibiki-kun..i manage to first blood an insane computer..! while playing with hibiki and james pawn.. =P guys, this proves how bad my DOTA skills is..LOL
Leanne, Edmund, and Jin Yu: thanks for the chocos and the choco fondue! waaaaa...it is awesome! must come by my hse and try it wehhh! i wanna eat with you all 1st!! =P if can la..
brandon: ya got my hint! lol..thanks for the skull scarf, cool!
Siew Ling and Sonia: hwat hwat pants, im gonna wear it to uni..haha
Daesi & Enoch: cool necklace..can wear it for my dresses. =p
Terence: thank you for the gift!
Riana: thanks for the neclace too...hey..all necklace groupies..lol
Eu jin: hahahaha...shot glasses! hwappie...~
Mum: cinematic art of warcraft! whoa..loving it..~
Grace: naughty bracelets..!lol
hmm...spam me if i missed sumone..LOL
then we head on to POPPY's..
its the 1st time for me coz...ahahaa... i dun go illegal...hahaa..i broke it since i went in at age 20 instead of 21. its so different..so many grownups...LOL
meet up with jess n cax n wei n mun yee's cousins and frens..met liza there too! enjoyed myslf there..LOL..then we went to petaling street famous lou sueee funn...(shh..but i still prefer the one in broga...=))
Date: 4th Jan '09
Time: dinnertime.
venue: Pavillion
...i went to have dinner with my cousins n relatives..in pavilion i think..yea..chrystal jade.. have nice chat here and there..then go shoppin..lol
Date: 5th Jan '09
Time: afternoon
Venue: sg wang, bkt bintang area.
meet up with the tts 5 gang with the 3 gurls..LOL..
ate papa john's pizza! niceeee....but why all itallian food??? lol
we ate n ate..its so fun..then i got the bill before CK does..LOL..yay! then i got a surprise!
a BArBIE DOLL( CNY ed. sumore! ) lol..from the gang..coz they heard me saying when i was young i played with guns instead of dolls..lol...so its kinda funny coz its all pink! anyway..apparently CK wont want to leave it alone..and the cake fortunately..LOL..cant be allowed coz no other is food allowed in papa johns...LOL..so we decided to eat in uni..then jac geve me this super cute make up set..LOL..its so pretty...awww... =)
then we went for PURIKURAs..(sticker pictures..!) ahahaha...3 6 ft tall ppl trying to fit inside the small picture taking machine with all other ppl...lol...you guys should be there to witness it..damn funny! finally we managed to do that...seriously..next time, if you see me, ask me for that pic, its in my wallet all the time with a few personal sticker pictures of mine.
i had fun..! and i love all of you! you are one awesome group of frens..!
Date: 6th Jan '09
Time: noontime
Venue: Leisure mall, cheras.
ahahha...this time i meet up with Merie whos back from Spore and dear Ivy..we ate chee cheong fun and we drank starbucks! i just love their ice blended chocolate without chips..LOL..ahh..then we catch up with almost everything...love the time being with them..its like i can tell anything to them..=) we then head to Ivy's hse..and play with her lil puppy! awwwww..* so damn cuteeeeeee! aaaaaaa....then i went back to uni..
then the tts 5 ppl went to our room and brought cake for me..lol..we did not cut the cake coz lazy and dun have enuf plates..we just ate everything with spoon, but spoon were not enuf so we actually played indian poker just for the fun of it to see who uses chopstick to eat the cake! tadah..! the winner of the chopstick eater is,....(drumroll please!....) WONG WY HOONG..lol...then i feed each one in the room with alice, jac n shi wei cake..LOL...we had it shape like a pie sign..lol...i duno why..then in the end, faith the black hole finished everything....lol...then we went mamak.! LOL...geng leh..? black hole...thats why i've gain like 2 kg..after that..LOL//
well..thats about it on how i've spent my bday with so many diff ppl and im soooo glad that you guys came for my bday celeb.. and thanks for being my frens..although sumtimes or most of the times i did not appreciate you, i apologised. i will try to be better. =/
condoms and free meals. hmm..
just now danial was cheering me up with sum forum..low yat forum i guess, in the cupid's corner.
yea, i was feeling down because of sumthin. its about sumthin that i 've forgotten and i know i should not have forgotten it since its important,..to be so perasan again, i think i 've hurt sumone again.
regarding about the forum, i've read sumthin really stupid.
sum asshole actually slept with a gurl because of a free meal. what kinda scumbag is that? and just for a free meal, he had a free gift, a bun-in-the-oven..! (meaning; yea..she's pregnant.)
come on...he sound like a duck to me..lol.
when i was reading that, i try not to laugh coz its so crazy..im so sorry for the baby, wonder what he felt when he's all grown up..(if he's not aborted, that is..)and ppl told him that he was conceived by his parents because his dad wants a free meal n sex and the mum just want to have sex? he's asking for advises in the forum, and sum ppl wants the baby to get aborted, im kinda against abortion, but with these kinda future parents, im blank.
and....surprise surprise! no condoms..the penoreh getah spends their time and bending their backs just to milk rubber trees for a reason. lol..luckly condoms have other uses so ive heard..(other than blowjobs and all) for expeditions of course..=)
they can be used as water retainers when u dun have a things that can retain water with you in the jungle, but u carry condoms in ur pocket..hmm..for whatever reasons...? LOL...as long as u dont do it with monkeys..( thanks to that, we are exposed to the infamous AIDS)another random fact, what if its flavored ones? LOL.. and to keep ur radio transmitters in the jungle without getting wet..hmm...if you discover other uses, please to email me? LOL...or at least reply me..we must share facts...its important!
bablablablabla...
yea, i was feeling down because of sumthin. its about sumthin that i 've forgotten and i know i should not have forgotten it since its important,..to be so perasan again, i think i 've hurt sumone again.
regarding about the forum, i've read sumthin really stupid.
sum asshole actually slept with a gurl because of a free meal. what kinda scumbag is that? and just for a free meal, he had a free gift, a bun-in-the-oven..! (meaning; yea..she's pregnant.)
come on...he sound like a duck to me..lol.
when i was reading that, i try not to laugh coz its so crazy..im so sorry for the baby, wonder what he felt when he's all grown up..(if he's not aborted, that is..)and ppl told him that he was conceived by his parents because his dad wants a free meal n sex and the mum just want to have sex? he's asking for advises in the forum, and sum ppl wants the baby to get aborted, im kinda against abortion, but with these kinda future parents, im blank.
and....surprise surprise! no condoms..the penoreh getah spends their time and bending their backs just to milk rubber trees for a reason. lol..luckly condoms have other uses so ive heard..(other than blowjobs and all) for expeditions of course..=)
they can be used as water retainers when u dun have a things that can retain water with you in the jungle, but u carry condoms in ur pocket..hmm..for whatever reasons...? LOL...as long as u dont do it with monkeys..( thanks to that, we are exposed to the infamous AIDS)another random fact, what if its flavored ones? LOL.. and to keep ur radio transmitters in the jungle without getting wet..hmm...if you discover other uses, please to email me? LOL...or at least reply me..we must share facts...its important!
bablablablabla...
Monday, January 12, 2009
Blog wars.
hm...i know i should be either practising my maths or revising for my economics but i choose to blog.
alot of things had happened to myslf and others esp my gurlfrens.
Blog wars.
hmm..i remembered really well when i was one of the victim of a close fren's blog wars. she said sumthin nasty about me in her blog...for ecg. calling me a two face bitch. hmm..dosent hurt anymore but anyway..during that time with all my mite i try not to retort back in HER blog. its maybe because i understand the term, personal opinion. if she has this kinda opinion about me, its HErs, not mine, so i dont give a FLYING FUCK. but on the other hand, i wrote back my feelings in my blog. anyway, blog is suppose to be a place where ppl could express one's feelings and thoughts..( thats what i thought) but i du think so, if you want to say sumthing really really bad about sumthing, just remember, consequences comes with RESPONSIBILITIES. im not judging, im just stating my POINT of VIEW In my OWN blog. if you willling to write what you stand for, and others dont believe, you have to stick with it. and you know that ppl are different, they dont think alike, so they dont think like you do. so there's likely gonna be conflit.to those ppl that leaves really bad things or their own thoughts in other ppl's chatbox, please dont be so rude, i know you are furious of those statements, but what to do? its a freedom of speech. anyway, all of them are my frens, there's things that agree on and things that i dont.
as my own opinion, clubbing. yes, i do clubbing and i did a fair share of stupid stuffs too. ( dont laugh Terence...*ahahaha) well, thats when i woke up tomorrow and kinda got ambarrassed of what i did too. i am not proud of what i do in clubs sumtimes when i get to high or tipsy, but if you ask me to aviod clubs all together, i wont really coz i like goin to clubs.With a group of solid frens of course. i love to drink and dance with my frens, and i only go when i have a reason to go. but when i talk to my older frens, they say its just a phase, eventually you will grow out of it. my opinion is, if im young, i want to play, what i like to eat, what i like to drink, what crazy stuff i want to do, i'll do..moderately of course, coz you can only be young once. doin crazy stuffs dont mean that you would skinny dip in sum mining pool or having a one nite stand, but try to do sumthin that in your lifetime that you wanted to do. and set it as a goal to either build up ur self esteem or confidence( or is it the same?) lol..
my experiences are very important to me, they are what i am now, good or bad and i never regretted anythings that i did. ( i realised) Bad experiences dont mean that they could make you be bad, it depends on how you react during that situation. i always believe that everything happens for a reason. and god would never let you face sumthin that you could not handle. i can bet this with my life.
when my dad's best fren and his wife came back from Aust to visit malaysia, he ask me sumthin that really interesting question. one of it was, " what's the diff between highskool life and uni life?"
my ans to that question was, highskool life is still being sheltered by ur family and the principles that you hold and learn as you grow up in that famly. your frens are almost the same as you, everyone wears uniform and go through the same thing as you. (almost) but when you reach uni, everything change. more freedom not only in the sense of dressing but also in everything else. smoking is almost normal in your group of frens, and free from parents, more parties, booze, sex, drugs.
now, everything that i've learn last time growing up was all stated clearly on what is 'black' and 'white'..but after myslf entering uni in the summer of 2007, everything was in the shade of 'grey'. i am force to make desicions that i have never make before that could determine the course of my life. i am force in a given situation to either make a stand of all the principles that build me or break everything (the heck with it or fuck it) the principles that had build me of what i am now.
even i was brought up in a christian family and an active youth serving in church, i was shaken. afterall, im still human, but! but God is always with me even though in some situations, i wish He was not there to see me. i wish to hide from Him, i ran away from Him ( and i finally felt how adam and eve felt when they ate the forbidden fruit in the garden of eden.) i was ashamed, humilitated. but as in the bible, God Provided them clothing to clothe them from nakedness. as how i felt when i let God back into my life.
clearly , it was an emotionall roller coaster for me, but trust me, if you choose to ride it with God, you'll have fun.
random thought. God is three in one rite? The Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.
imagine this, the Father is controlling the roller coaster, the Son is Sitting beside you in the roller coaster and the Holy Spirit is your insurance. Perfect. LOL..~
have a nice day everyone. =)
alot of things had happened to myslf and others esp my gurlfrens.
Blog wars.
hmm..i remembered really well when i was one of the victim of a close fren's blog wars. she said sumthin nasty about me in her blog...for ecg. calling me a two face bitch. hmm..dosent hurt anymore but anyway..during that time with all my mite i try not to retort back in HER blog. its maybe because i understand the term, personal opinion. if she has this kinda opinion about me, its HErs, not mine, so i dont give a FLYING FUCK. but on the other hand, i wrote back my feelings in my blog. anyway, blog is suppose to be a place where ppl could express one's feelings and thoughts..( thats what i thought) but i du think so, if you want to say sumthing really really bad about sumthing, just remember, consequences comes with RESPONSIBILITIES. im not judging, im just stating my POINT of VIEW In my OWN blog. if you willling to write what you stand for, and others dont believe, you have to stick with it. and you know that ppl are different, they dont think alike, so they dont think like you do. so there's likely gonna be conflit.to those ppl that leaves really bad things or their own thoughts in other ppl's chatbox, please dont be so rude, i know you are furious of those statements, but what to do? its a freedom of speech. anyway, all of them are my frens, there's things that agree on and things that i dont.
as my own opinion, clubbing. yes, i do clubbing and i did a fair share of stupid stuffs too. ( dont laugh Terence...*ahahaha) well, thats when i woke up tomorrow and kinda got ambarrassed of what i did too. i am not proud of what i do in clubs sumtimes when i get to high or tipsy, but if you ask me to aviod clubs all together, i wont really coz i like goin to clubs.With a group of solid frens of course. i love to drink and dance with my frens, and i only go when i have a reason to go. but when i talk to my older frens, they say its just a phase, eventually you will grow out of it. my opinion is, if im young, i want to play, what i like to eat, what i like to drink, what crazy stuff i want to do, i'll do..moderately of course, coz you can only be young once. doin crazy stuffs dont mean that you would skinny dip in sum mining pool or having a one nite stand, but try to do sumthin that in your lifetime that you wanted to do. and set it as a goal to either build up ur self esteem or confidence( or is it the same?) lol..
my experiences are very important to me, they are what i am now, good or bad and i never regretted anythings that i did. ( i realised) Bad experiences dont mean that they could make you be bad, it depends on how you react during that situation. i always believe that everything happens for a reason. and god would never let you face sumthin that you could not handle. i can bet this with my life.
when my dad's best fren and his wife came back from Aust to visit malaysia, he ask me sumthin that really interesting question. one of it was, " what's the diff between highskool life and uni life?"
my ans to that question was, highskool life is still being sheltered by ur family and the principles that you hold and learn as you grow up in that famly. your frens are almost the same as you, everyone wears uniform and go through the same thing as you. (almost) but when you reach uni, everything change. more freedom not only in the sense of dressing but also in everything else. smoking is almost normal in your group of frens, and free from parents, more parties, booze, sex, drugs.
now, everything that i've learn last time growing up was all stated clearly on what is 'black' and 'white'..but after myslf entering uni in the summer of 2007, everything was in the shade of 'grey'. i am force to make desicions that i have never make before that could determine the course of my life. i am force in a given situation to either make a stand of all the principles that build me or break everything (the heck with it or fuck it) the principles that had build me of what i am now.
even i was brought up in a christian family and an active youth serving in church, i was shaken. afterall, im still human, but! but God is always with me even though in some situations, i wish He was not there to see me. i wish to hide from Him, i ran away from Him ( and i finally felt how adam and eve felt when they ate the forbidden fruit in the garden of eden.) i was ashamed, humilitated. but as in the bible, God Provided them clothing to clothe them from nakedness. as how i felt when i let God back into my life.
clearly , it was an emotionall roller coaster for me, but trust me, if you choose to ride it with God, you'll have fun.
random thought. God is three in one rite? The Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.
imagine this, the Father is controlling the roller coaster, the Son is Sitting beside you in the roller coaster and the Holy Spirit is your insurance. Perfect. LOL..~
have a nice day everyone. =)
Friday, January 9, 2009
Tagged by AaronQ
Its been a long time since i've been tagged. here goes..
Questions are as follows :
1. How much do you spend for clothes per month?
Honestly, i don't know..lol..if i dont go shopping, it'll be zilch. But if i go shopping, ahahahha...i can spend rm 200 in one go. ( okey, freak some ppl now, didnt i?) erm...clothes seldom buy dy also coz my closet is full of them and i havent wear most of them, i usually collect the clothes rather than wearing them..LOL. those whom has seen my wardrobe, they would understand..LOL! (right, vanessa, alice n shi wei?) if anyone of you notice, i did not repeat my clothings during my whole semester one of year one. LOL...jeans and bottoms dont count la..LOL. >_<
2. Who is more important to you?Friends or boy/girlfriend?
Both. Friends have been with me for like, ages and my boyfren would be (if God willing) be together till we get married, well, he's gonna stick with me Forever if he's my husband! lol..friends is like my beginning..then bf would come later rite? Both has the SAME importance. But what i want to say is, ecg: my frens is in deep shit, i will help my fren, if my bf dont understand, then he wont be my boyfren. ecg; i want to spend time with my bf but my fren's call just for casual yam cha, then i would just say i want to spend time with my bf and yam cha next time. it really depends. Both must understand that both are really important to me no matter what.
3. How often do you think about committing suicide?
hhaha..! i duno. but i did once i remember it quite vividly..it was during form 5 where i was suffering from add maths n maths alike. my maths teacher was no help either. she always target me as the weakling for maths and she always forced me to sit with the smartest gurl in school to help me with my maths. luckly that gurl was one of my close frens but in a way, i still fell insulted. the teacher always say things like, " in my years of teaaching, never a gurl in a class would get B in the first class. i wont want you to be the 1st one. never, so you better buck up." my books were chucked by her and folded and plenty of corrections and i was always not allowed to leave the classroom even if i really have to go to the loo or on duty as a prefect. im serious.! so, after nearly a year and a half, when she scolded me again, i nearly want to run out of the classroom and jump out of the balcony. im serious. a voice telling me to jump down and end everything. sigh..that was the closest to thinking of committing suicide. (btw, i still HATE maths..LOL)
4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
i dont know, i think so. =/ depends on which situation.
5. How many babies do you want?
Omg weh..! duno. i wont have three. the middle's always (generally) often neglected. so..i think 2? lol..twins is the best coz once is enough. LOL..If i WANT to get HITCHEd, that is. =P
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
duhh...yeap! its beauuu-tiful. ahh, reminds me of NS. =)
7. What is your goal for this year?
if you read my previous 2 blogs, you would know. =)
8. What kept you of being who you are?
i dont even know who i am, so i cant really ans you that? i kept myslf from being who i am? who am i ? besides, there's always a factor that change sumone to be sumtin else, humans are not stagnant. humans change. so...(shruggs*)
9. What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to you?(List 10)
ten? wow..hmm
1.respect (not just me, but himslf and humans and every other creations that God's has created)
2.walk the talk ( talk dont impress me much, you can promise me the moon, stars, and sun..Actions speaks louder than words, since i like to observe.)
3.honour ( able to honour God, and everyone else)
4.companionship ( able to do things with me)
5.humour( serious at the right time, funny at the right time)
6.outgoing( able to be get along with all of my frens)
7.mature in thinking ( physical age dont really matter, his mental age MATTERS)
8.integrity ( he has to have integrity)
9.hardworking
10.loving ( what is love? find it in the bible! =P)
the question's asking for perfect ma.
of course, physically.. as long as i like. =P
10. What are you really afraid of?
You. ahahaha..uh..the dark?
11. What are your bad habits?
greatest drawbacks, i like to play with my hair while i am studying, scratching my scalp while concentrating doin my work, DOTA..lol, Swearing? Scratch my face. hmm..seldom smile? nyaaaaa~
12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?
dont hurt yourslf, love ME.(lol) random-nya..seriously, i would say, "I dont give a FLYING F***."
13. State a random fact about yourself
i have symptoms of mild bipolar. (random enuf?)
14. What does flying means to you?
F***? ( refer back to question 12. lol~) randomness... okok
Flying means sitting on a big winged object.(aeroplane?)
also means in Hyperbole: ( in my own words) being free.?
15. What do you crave for most currently?
Dota. lol~ food..sleep?
16. Most unexpected gift you received so far and when?
Just a few days ago..lol on my bday (4th Jan) Choco Fondue!? lol..thanks ed, leanne, denny n jin yu. =)
just so many chocos..LOL they must know im STREss..LOL..aww *hugs, thanks babes. and other really cool gifts too! =)
17. Describe the person who tagged you.Honestly.
He's smart. seriously. lol..and he's really nice. =)
18. What have you done to yourself that makes yourself happy?
eat. ALOT. erm..buy graphic collectibles? im contented when the ppl's around me are good.
19. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
hmm..ten years..means im 30..! T_T uhh.. i think,i would be married? LMAO..
and having a career? whatever that wil be. i hope and pray that it would be good.
20. If you can choose how you want to end your life,how would it be?
being raptured. LOL
Questions are as follows :
1. How much do you spend for clothes per month?
Honestly, i don't know..lol..if i dont go shopping, it'll be zilch. But if i go shopping, ahahahha...i can spend rm 200 in one go. ( okey, freak some ppl now, didnt i?) erm...clothes seldom buy dy also coz my closet is full of them and i havent wear most of them, i usually collect the clothes rather than wearing them..LOL. those whom has seen my wardrobe, they would understand..LOL! (right, vanessa, alice n shi wei?) if anyone of you notice, i did not repeat my clothings during my whole semester one of year one. LOL...jeans and bottoms dont count la..LOL. >_<
2. Who is more important to you?Friends or boy/girlfriend?
Both. Friends have been with me for like, ages and my boyfren would be (if God willing) be together till we get married, well, he's gonna stick with me Forever if he's my husband! lol..friends is like my beginning..then bf would come later rite? Both has the SAME importance. But what i want to say is, ecg: my frens is in deep shit, i will help my fren, if my bf dont understand, then he wont be my boyfren. ecg; i want to spend time with my bf but my fren's call just for casual yam cha, then i would just say i want to spend time with my bf and yam cha next time. it really depends. Both must understand that both are really important to me no matter what.
3. How often do you think about committing suicide?
hhaha..! i duno. but i did once i remember it quite vividly..it was during form 5 where i was suffering from add maths n maths alike. my maths teacher was no help either. she always target me as the weakling for maths and she always forced me to sit with the smartest gurl in school to help me with my maths. luckly that gurl was one of my close frens but in a way, i still fell insulted. the teacher always say things like, " in my years of teaaching, never a gurl in a class would get B in the first class. i wont want you to be the 1st one. never, so you better buck up." my books were chucked by her and folded and plenty of corrections and i was always not allowed to leave the classroom even if i really have to go to the loo or on duty as a prefect. im serious.! so, after nearly a year and a half, when she scolded me again, i nearly want to run out of the classroom and jump out of the balcony. im serious. a voice telling me to jump down and end everything. sigh..that was the closest to thinking of committing suicide. (btw, i still HATE maths..LOL)
4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
i dont know, i think so. =/ depends on which situation.
5. How many babies do you want?
Omg weh..! duno. i wont have three. the middle's always (generally) often neglected. so..i think 2? lol..twins is the best coz once is enough. LOL..If i WANT to get HITCHEd, that is. =P
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
duhh...yeap! its beauuu-tiful. ahh, reminds me of NS. =)
7. What is your goal for this year?
if you read my previous 2 blogs, you would know. =)
8. What kept you of being who you are?
i dont even know who i am, so i cant really ans you that? i kept myslf from being who i am? who am i ? besides, there's always a factor that change sumone to be sumtin else, humans are not stagnant. humans change. so...(shruggs*)
9. What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to you?(List 10)
ten? wow..hmm
1.respect (not just me, but himslf and humans and every other creations that God's has created)
2.walk the talk ( talk dont impress me much, you can promise me the moon, stars, and sun..Actions speaks louder than words, since i like to observe.)
3.honour ( able to honour God, and everyone else)
4.companionship ( able to do things with me)
5.humour( serious at the right time, funny at the right time)
6.outgoing( able to be get along with all of my frens)
7.mature in thinking ( physical age dont really matter, his mental age MATTERS)
8.integrity ( he has to have integrity)
9.hardworking
10.loving ( what is love? find it in the bible! =P)
the question's asking for perfect ma.
of course, physically.. as long as i like. =P
10. What are you really afraid of?
You. ahahaha..uh..the dark?
11. What are your bad habits?
greatest drawbacks, i like to play with my hair while i am studying, scratching my scalp while concentrating doin my work, DOTA..lol, Swearing? Scratch my face. hmm..seldom smile? nyaaaaa~
12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?
dont hurt yourslf, love ME.(lol) random-nya..seriously, i would say, "I dont give a FLYING F***."
13. State a random fact about yourself
i have symptoms of mild bipolar. (random enuf?)
14. What does flying means to you?
F***? ( refer back to question 12. lol~) randomness... okok
Flying means sitting on a big winged object.(aeroplane?)
also means in Hyperbole: ( in my own words) being free.?
15. What do you crave for most currently?
Dota. lol~ food..sleep?
16. Most unexpected gift you received so far and when?
Just a few days ago..lol on my bday (4th Jan) Choco Fondue!? lol..thanks ed, leanne, denny n jin yu. =)
just so many chocos..LOL they must know im STREss..LOL..aww *hugs, thanks babes. and other really cool gifts too! =)
17. Describe the person who tagged you.Honestly.
He's smart. seriously. lol..and he's really nice. =)
18. What have you done to yourself that makes yourself happy?
eat. ALOT. erm..buy graphic collectibles? im contented when the ppl's around me are good.
19. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
hmm..ten years..means im 30..! T_T uhh.. i think,i would be married? LMAO..
and having a career? whatever that wil be. i hope and pray that it would be good.
20. If you can choose how you want to end your life,how would it be?
being raptured. LOL
Sunday, January 4, 2009
hwappie!
i felt so blessed by fren's wishes and blessings! =D
sigh, im 20 already..no more nineTEEN or eighTEEN..but TWENTY..not TWENTEEN like my fren joked about.
being old has its pros and cons....
pro:
*i have much say in everything now. im an adult..already.
*more clubs to enter! lol
*hmm...
cons:
*more RESPONSIBILITIES
*OLD,OLD,OLD!
*closer to working age...
*nid a closer watch on my actions.
*ppl's gona bug me about....*doom..relationships soon..* thank God my family wont..but. but..i know who will.....*feeling dreadful. >_<
sigh...study!
later only post all my pre n post bday! =)
sigh, im 20 already..no more nineTEEN or eighTEEN..but TWENTY..not TWENTEEN like my fren joked about.
being old has its pros and cons....
pro:
*i have much say in everything now. im an adult..already.
*more clubs to enter! lol
*hmm...
cons:
*more RESPONSIBILITIES
*OLD,OLD,OLD!
*closer to working age...
*nid a closer watch on my actions.
*ppl's gona bug me about....*doom..relationships soon..* thank God my family wont..but. but..i know who will.....*feeling dreadful. >_<
sigh...study!
later only post all my pre n post bday! =)
Friday, January 2, 2009
My 2009 resolution.
1. Learn to Love myslf. ( yea..for my fren's endless nagging asking me to love myslf. u know hu u are)
2. Dont Fucked up ppl's life. ( yea, ive done enuf.)
3. Dun be a Fucking asshole. ( opps..i think i already broken my 1st & 7th resolution)
4. Get back with God. ( thank God that He's a merciful God.)
5. Start Fasting again.( no. its not because i've gained weight.)
6. Get my Artistic Streak back. ( it'll happen soon enuf, since its always triggered by emotions.)
7. Stop Swearing so Much. ( not completely.)
8. Determine what i really want in my life.
9. Get and Maintain a 65 average in my studies.
10. Learn to be abit positive. ( the glass is..err...half--emmmm...ok..half full)
ok. now the hardest part is to keep at least one of it throughout the whole year.
...!
2. Dont Fucked up ppl's life. ( yea, ive done enuf.)
3. Dun be a Fucking asshole. ( opps..i think i already broken my 1st & 7th resolution)
4. Get back with God. ( thank God that He's a merciful God.)
5. Start Fasting again.( no. its not because i've gained weight.)
6. Get my Artistic Streak back. ( it'll happen soon enuf, since its always triggered by emotions.)
7. Stop Swearing so Much. ( not completely.)
8. Determine what i really want in my life.
9. Get and Maintain a 65 average in my studies.
10. Learn to be abit positive. ( the glass is..err...half--emmmm...ok..half full)
ok. now the hardest part is to keep at least one of it throughout the whole year.
...!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
New Year
New Year, 2009.
whats new?
problems carried on forward.
new year resolution?
not to be so fucked up.
whats new?
problems carried on forward.
new year resolution?
not to be so fucked up.
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